I grew up in a harsh Protestant Elementary, where we learned of ancient Christian martyrs who would blindly/faithly die for their god, where it was necessary to build a Christian "Calvary". All was such for the sake of attaining a heaven, and mostly to deter away from the greatest fear of all, a Christian ideology mostly crafted 1,000 years after Jesus, known as Hell. This is the same ideology that has globally spread with a Bible in one hand, and a gun in the other, in order to not only spiritually (psychologically; consciousness) control a flock, but politically as well, as Religion has always been a political institution. I really did grow up looking at other minorities like, "why do you worship the slave masters' god?". Christians have to look to ancient times for their martyrs! I don't have to look very far in my own bloodline to see the Devil that has been Christianity. And of course, the current Pope got some "flack" for comparing Muslim conversion tactics to the early Christians, as Christians continue to be blind of their own karma, and bling of their own god post the Dead Sea/Nag Hammadi Texts. Moreover, there is a gorgeous Buddhist Temple near where I currently live, that in their early days had to remove the Swastikas from their front gates as it offended the neighboring Jewish community (If what I've been told is correct). If that's the case, then how about we remove one of the biggest symbols of slavery, the symbol that makes a group think they're better as their god and legal-dogma is the only correct one, the Christian Cross. Nonetheless, like good Buddhists, the Temple provided no rebuttal and completely agreed with the community. Hence, the need to continually put my own little self in check.
It was 6th grade, Bible class with one of the most amazing loving individuals as a teacher, but also most fanatical. This was a school, where the teachers' resumes must be to a Protestant standard. Such was drastically different from my Catholic High School, where we had even had a Muslim teacher. The setting was a debate on abortion, and be wary, you are only allowed to venture within certain perspectives within these organizations, unless you prefer the Salem witch trials. Everyone falls under pro-life where pro-choice arguments are only valid when the mother's life is at risk. The only other option is to give the child up for adoption. However, this one day, this girl had the guts to push the conversation further and ask, "what about when the girl is raped, I think the girl should be able to have an abortion". As a 6th grader who barely found out what abortion was (traditional Indian parents don't talk to their kids or will have a wildly out-dated and different-cultural perspective), I had to sit and linger for awhile and hear what others had to say. But as I had already learned from being in this Western school and being raised in an Eastern home, that I had to constantly question everything, every doctrine, every argument, as I was torn between two (2) different cultures and ways of looking at life. So this brave little girl was a gem to me, a new fresh perspective, where she described the emotions that the female would have to go through in coming to that decision and the ensuing psychological damage from the numerous potential options that were provided to the female. This argument was too far for this group, as the spirit considered to be in the fetus is superior to the psychological (and financial) developments as an aftermath. These were all Republicans, who only want to help the impoverished and needy if it's done by and through their organization (so they can push their agenda), all the while attempting to get every tax break possible. Secular country my ass! Truth is in dissecting these conditioned belief systems, where the truth here is, the baby needs to worship Jesus before it dies, or it goes to Christian "Hell". Forget an imaginary hell, that poor girl was put through hell, by "judge not lest ye be judged" people. I couldn't stick up for her, as I was still processing everything, and also hiding my token deity under my shirt whose holding a pitchfork with a snake around his neck. I understood this girl's emotions in trying to have her voice heard, where I noted others only empathically-felt for her only after discovering the following day that this girl was describing her older sister. This memory is probably a long lost memory, a little bump on the road for the bigger missionary agenda, for most of my colleagues in this classroom. For me, this girl's voice, and more so, her emotions, will never be forgotten, as I now comfortably begin to champion The Adversary current that has always flowed through me. My own Beast.
As Dr. Ol Doinyo Laetoli le Baaba (Kali Baaba) was a long-time family friend and guide to many of my relatives, our heroes were not the Martin Luther King, Jrs., who preached to the masses and yet led a shitty personal life. Our heroes were Malcolm X and Black Elk Speaks (Gandhi pushed it too far for some of his practices for me), excellent case studies for adepts to evolve both spiritually and materially. The words of brother Louis Farrakhan would also bless our home. While the Bible Belt Republicans all blame the government, I've seen Louis Farrakhan stick up to these leaders with the intent of at what point are you going to learn not to trust these "White-Devils". Yep, I grew up hearing the "White-Man is the Devil" on one side and a Christian "Calvary" on the other. Nonetheless, I understand what the Roman Constantine did when he combined the archonic Old Testament god (spiteful, jealous god that was blowing everything up in opposition) with the adept-Master New Testament guy (peaceful turn the other cheek). Hence, you have blonde-haired, blue-eyed, gun-toting (not judging guns here) Jesus, and an extremely judgmental religion. Judgment is to use discernment for the truth, or rather "to judge", not punitive damages (hell). Louis Farrakhan has been the main leader, the pioneer in what I've seen, in pushing forward in self-sufficiency, not just for the Black community, but for all Minorities. Essentially, we need to take care of our own, as external assistance will not understand. Such is shown by and through the illogical rebuttal to "Black Lives Matter" with "All Lives Matter", a simple butt-hurt cop-out to get a conditioned monkey-mind to continue to ignore a prevalent issue, especially if people are called to question their own integrity. Despite whoever funded such campaigns to push for a civil-war type agenda, the "civil-war" will only apply should you choose to keep the heavily conditioned programmed monkey-mind, where we have yet to be able to sit at the table and understand each other. If such isn't applicable, then I will be playing the video game, of being that hated Black Dot within Yang, in order to maintain that balance of Yin and Yang. See how duality works. Your consciousness did not plunge itself into lower density to bitch about the suffering required for your soul growth, but to ascend by and through this galaxy's master class.
I see the direction my blog, my writing, and the way I hold myself in strength is changing as I allow my inner beast to grow up. I no longer fear my death, as in most of my life, death would have been easily welcomed. As such, I can shoot the shit now, without the fear of getting my throat slit. I understand why the Dalai Lama stresses the need to develop compassion, a drastically unnecessary task for an extremely sensitive empath, for when the beast is strengthened, the Divine Will of Higher Self is required as a balance.
I have chosen the route of the qliphoth to ascend, most likely due to being constantly surrounded by religious horseshit. My spiritual practice is not a belief system, but a practice that can easily lead to my insanity. As I have opened my "doors of perception" into deeper aspects of my subconscious, both God (Theta- Healing; 7th Plane of Existence) and God's Adversary (Temple of Ascending Flame; I trust Asenath Mason's philosophy and guidance) are both alive and well within me. Nonetheless, as the introductory quote attests to further fear preaching, when current light-workers on "Team Jesus" preach, I would suggest to Minorities to remember the song by The Who, Won't Be Fooled Again. Do understand, that not all light-workers are under this dualist mentality, as these spiritual terms are willy-nilly thrown around without proper definitions, it is up to the adept to have proper discernment in assessing a healer, teacher, etc., as I personally will not go to just anyone for help where I need to develop some trust and understanding with a Teacher. I have heard more than enough webinars of Theta-Healers thinking they are better than Shamans because they can talk to God (another voice in their head) essentially labeling everyone they don't agree with as "evil" as this is the "Team Jesus/Anti-Guru" camp. You can't be you're own Guru when you have so many layers of the monkey-mind to dissolve to actually see the wider perspectives. Talking to a voice in your head (separation) and Self-Realization are not the same thing, where these psychics like to brag on how they get all the information on their own, that they don't need to study books or other teachers, all the while looking philosophically dull and overtly racist as they push and capitalize another eurocentric belief system. At least these Westerners are no longer capitalizing on yoga, all the while talking shit about my lineages traditions, gurus, etc.
The person who made the above comment, I've crammed a lot of their work-product since 2017, so getting the healing is one thing. However, discernment is extensively required with any teacher who is not Self-realized. Nonetheless, "as within, so without". These teachers are also my mirror, where I have to shed a couple layers by and through being triggered by the above comment and then drafting this blog piece. I had forgotten about my elementary friend who was essentially "burned at the stake", where I had to shed a couple of tears for the mere fact that she had to live through such an experience. This sweet little girl, another introvert, defended herself in honor of her sister, and ended up red and crying by the end of the class. I may not have wanted to continue living most of my life, but as a professional representative (and just myself), people have needed me simply to just understand their perspectives, so I see my importance in just being around as much as I don't want to be here. Offering a differ perspective, with no fear, with no need to hide behind any mask. I'm not trying to hide my "twilight". If anything, I didn't want to be persecuted, harassed, and killed, as Christians have historically and continually shown to us. I mean, they are still cutting/burning trees to print your mind-control materials, as missionary's and right-wing governments have typically worked together (and far-left wing, Jesuits, sheep are whipped from both sides to herd them in line). Again, secularism my ass. You cannot separate the Church and continual mass-extinction of indigenous people.
In journeying through my own path, in facing my own abyss of Daath, I'm constantly reminded that I need to stand on my own two-feet, as the above-expressed quote is just one of many light-workers going on an anti-Black bender. Angels help you create something shiny, Demons help you see through horseshit, hence, they can ruin the light-worker's false "grace" of "ignorance is bliss" by showing you the truth of your happy delusions in samsara. Worse, your own demons only show you the truth of your own self, whereas those projecting those issues externally, are only afraid of looking in the mirror.
Light-workers, spiritual communities, etc., are only continuing reminders to myself that the adept has to do this work for his or herself, and no one else can do it for the adept. In crossing the abyss of Daath and moving into and beyond the supernal triad, there are no more saviors as there are no more gods. You can be an agenda for the light, you can be an agenda for the dark, but at some point, the adept may wake-up to the fact that there is no separation between the viewer and viewed, the person looking at the mirror and the mirror. You are what you perceive. You can either point the finger, or you can get over your limited-self. The qliphoth is a dangerous path as it can immediately bring in the most intense dark-night of the soul, as the adept has invoked many archetypal beings meant to help liberate the adepts delusions for transcendence or egoic coloring. The adept must face their own beasts and forge their Divine Will by Ego-Death. Initiators and guides are utilized along the path of Self-Recognition, such as the original Light-Bringer. This is not a practice that closes at the end of the ritual, but something that must be watched as the adept proceeds forward. In other words, I'm not afraid to admit, the adept burns, as we ought to.
I want to redefine "Twilight". TWILIGHT, the original language of the Witches/Goddesses as spoken of in the tantras, is the ability to see someone's darkness, and Still Love Them, still shine on them. A lesson while walking through the abyss, "Father, forgive them, for they (g)now not, what they do!".
One of the things that I've noticed in my spiritual development, is that those that I follow regarding spirituality typically shift or adjust based on my private practice in synchronicity, or it's time for me to move on. In other words, "as within, so without". As an example, as I began working with the Draconian Current and Umma Tiamat, I spent time looking for information on general dragon invocation only to find mostly bindings, with very little substantive information outside of the Luciferian traditions. Nonetheless, I took note that the large meditation groups I follow began working with dragons, particularly the "mother" dragon. However, because these groups are "light-workers", instead of the Mother Dragon being black and the mother of demons, she is golden and vomits healing rainbows as guided by the Arcturians, Andromedans, etc., all the beings of the "light" in opposition to Draco of course. The instructor in this meditation group, despite stating that she has anchored in her "I Am" presence, is quite fond of the images in her head, such as Archangel Michael and Mother Mary being "twin flames". Significant monkey-mind psychological conditioning abounds in these "light-worker" communities expressing significant polarity, all the while these teachers are attempting to teach nonduality. Hence, the Saiva saint Abhinavagupta was correct in his Sri Tantraloka in describing the left hand path (vama) as being hire than the right hand path (daksina), in order for the adept to achieve Siddhant. I'm not saying "don't follow these teachers", especially if there is healing to be had and if we are all lending our unique signature energies into the mix. I just wish the depth of understanding was deeper and I'm left wondering if I'm being healed, or reprogrammed by many astral beings who seek to control the adept, including beings who take on the role of Jesus and Mother Mary as described by Aleister Crowley in his astral projection writings. (Magick Book 4).
These light-workers lost in their siddhi delusions may not cater to such information as I have presented, which is a slight summation of Patanjali's assessment in his Yoga Sutras. The adept is to ignore siddhis as they will become a distraction to your reach for enlightenment. I think the same assessment applies to "twin-flame" communities attempting to understand Ardhanareeshwara, communities which are essentially a cesspool of romantic projections and delusions of divinity with messianic life-purpose complexities. Patanjali was a NAGA (reptilian), who taught the nobility (Aryan) of turning the beast that is a human into a God through integration with Self, not this light versus dark polarity, or Disney-type romantic projections of continually looking for something outside of yourself. If an adept calls themselves the "divine feminine" as in the receivership nadi, then I would expect the "divine masculine" counterpart as the doership nadi to reflect back the divine feminine's own psychological mess and understanding. Before transcending the need and want to have a divine counterpart, I would think the twin-flame process of ascension to be quite hellish. To get the divine counterpart, I would argue to try to transcend the divine counterpart, and also, as part of ego-death and shedding identities, stop identifying with your genitals. Be in this world, but not of it. Here, I would recommend Elizabeth Lund as she appears to be the only one I can find on youtube who helps me understand the nadi's through her own extensive personal experiences and the twin-flame concept, in addition to aiming for sovereignty and understanding one's own power.
Since last December, anchoring in the "I Am" has been key. Once the adept has the experience of "samadhi" (no mind), or better yet, the experience of ego death (Ain Soph Aur and above the light; In the beginning was the light, but what was there before the beginning, before time-space/kala-kali) typically described as the "void", then the adept is given the task of clearing their own egoic issues stemming from numerous lifetimes as the monkey-mind (ego) fights back. This is accomplished by simply dropping the monkey-mind COMPLETELY for the darkness of the void beyond the light, which has a transmutation feel helping the adept let go all that needs to be released. In practicing the qliphoth, I think the "void" space is akin to the central BLACK sun, where adepts who are unable to cross the abyss of Daath fall further into the egoic-psychological mess creating arrogance with a megalomaniac-messianic feel such as Hitler, or Pauline Jesus who proclaimed "No one comes to the father, except through me" (John 14:6). As a side-note for the adept, there is a huge difference in emotional upheaval between calmly letting yourself psychology go into the void, typically by and through proctors who have "been there and done that" such as Mooji and Bentinho Massaro who transmit deeper levels of samadhi where the adept is not tied to samsara (present to the moment versus present to the increasing psychological emptiness), and doing a central BLACK sun invocation that unleashes heavy issues within the inner beast or a deeper push into the subconscious.
The inner beast, our own inner animal lower self can either be buried deep within our subconscious (Draconian Current, the primal Self), or it can be harnessed and mastered in working with higher self by and through ego-death practices. In other words, your own inner beast can work with you, or can arise in probably the most inopportune moments to ensure the adept learns their lessons, not necessarily just to create heaven which is an egoic-desire based on monkey-mind conditioning, but to push forth in soul evolution. For adepts who choose this path, a Nightside (subconsious) guide is required, typically an Angel who has already mastered this path of both light (Dayside) and dark (Nightside). The adept must learn to tame their beast and master holding the trident: 1. (g)enerator, (o)perator, and (d)estroyer; 2. awake, sleep, deep sleep; 3. Mother God (feminine principle; Shakti-Energy, brain hemisphere), Father God (masculine principle; Shiva-Divine Will/Consciousness, brain hemisphere), and the synthesis of such producing the Divine Child; and 4. Heaven, Earth, and UNDERWORLD.
In reaching for inner completion, instead of harnessing the trident, many light-workers, and divine feminine's and divine masculines are stuck playing archetypal roles rather than realizing their own fullness. In doing such, duality continues further into denser layers creating further separation, as men are still believed to be from Mars and women from Venus. The near-future may be "female" as many women are beginning groups that look like an attempt at something found within the "Rosary Gates of Ishtar". But the original Goddess, the holder of the original Holy Graal, brings someone with her to usher in the astrological era of freedom, and sorry light-workers, it ain't Pauline Jesus. Look at our mythologies, is enlightenment found in Heaven and Earth, or somewhere else. This should be understood by light-workers who have to conjure their "I Am" presence in their meditations, and have the audience plug in with "positive" e.t.'s, and unplug from "negative" e.t.'s., of course, more western monkey-mind conditioning. I would ask light-workers to look at the anthropological roots as to why Light/White is perceived as good and Dark/Black is bad in western countries, and vice-versa with certain African traditions. Can you imagine someone of color outside of the "Bible Belt" degrading dark or black? Who got to decide that Light/White was positive and Dark/Black is negative, we should ask brother Louis Farrakhan! Don't read too much into my comment, after-all, "All E.T. Lives Matter".
Advaita, and wrathful Shakti mantras (Kundalini colorings) are my bread and butter. Shakti mantras have been on my tongue since the inception of this blog, as it is a practice that keeps me sane and properly breathing as the Goddess adjusts me energetically and physically. In addition, since last December I pushed forward with Advaita, neti neti (not this, not this) to clear everything out of my head and emotional body, where the observer and the observed had become significantly psychologically experienced. Bentinho pushes my buttons and gets me to dig deeper all the while throwing me in the flames of purgatory, while Mooji gently calms the adept into samadhi and helps them walk through their dilemmas from the perspective of "I Am", not a religious or societal monkey-brained conditioned perspective.
A few months back while sitting with a Mooji satsang, an adept asked a question regarding himself as the "seer" and the "seen", where the adept was advanced enough to separate the two, but wanted to know more of the "seer". Before the excited Mooji responded, the questioner, or rather the question in itself (Self-Inquiry), dropped me back into the ego-death experience that I had back in 2015. I was psychologically emptied-out to the point where I was separated from my body and all material forms and simply lingered in an increasing spaciousness. This feeling of "I Am" has the affect of shifting all psychological emotions (happiness, joy, love serotonin-dopamine cocktail, etc.), for the blissful (the proper definition of Ananda) state of just dropping everything. There is NOTHING to cling onto, let it all go. Even titles, such as God, or Divinity, are fruitless in this field as they become egoic traps the monkey-mind can feed on. Literally, this is an equal playing God-field of which everything is a part, including ego. In other words, it's quite stupid to call myself God, or Divine Masculine, etc., as these are all concepts within the video game, where few people actually desire to wake up from the video game.
Now, it has become moving myself into lingering within the void as much as and as blissfully as possible, where I feel my psychology, emotional body, and tension-stress within the physical body drastically decrease at a speed where I'm forced to pace myself. My physical body has been shifting, but more so drastically since last December, where my spine has stretched and moved to be properly placed in my body with my shoulders and hips being naturally moved back, with the rest of my body painfully adjusting requiring frequent salt baths. I'm glad I've had warnings by twin-flame teachers, though such teacher stated that men aren't doing the work and therefore, men aren't going to feel it. Such teachers fail to see the universe as a mirror, despite what they preach. Such teachers also only do "women only" healing groups, and then complain about men. Even though the healing groups I ended up in, I was the only male there showing that these teachers may be correct that men aren't doing the work, but it's another reminder for me that spirituality is a solo path if you're aiming for sovereignty. In my path, I've healed and significantly felt both my regular male ego self and an inner female where the concept of gender is more and more being blurred within me, including sexuality. However, I'm not asking to open up the "women only" groups, as I've had to recently block numerous, if not all, of my close male relatives due to an energy of what has been labelled as "toxic" masculinity. These men also consider themselves "spiritual", though without ego-death practices, spirituality is just "spiritual materialism" (See Chogyam Trungpa). I'm just glad I've found Mooji and Bentinho to help me reach Self and linger in Ananda as my monkey-mind self has perceived numerous suicide timelines since last December, both of which are lessons in letting go. I guess I know what happens to me on the denser Earth, if there is a harvest occurring as described in The Law of One (Ra Materials). The lone wolf has to purge the emotions of loneliness, as the human is mostly a programmed pack animal. Such isn't that difficult, when one enjoys his/her own company, something I'm finding most other people are incapable of doing. Again, Sovereignty!
As I've pushed on in anchoring this emptiness, this blissful-void (there is also a neutral void which can become depressing), I'm constantly trying to assess my experience with others who alleged to be similarly situated for better understanding. Nonetheless, I'm finding many are preaching as opposed to describing their experiences and helping adepts dig deeper without significant dualist ramblings. The direction many of the light-workers I follow has become messianic and preachy due to polarized belief systems plaguing the western mind. The eastern world has the yin and yang and it is typically philosophically understood that we are to integrate both. But the western mind is plagued by the Abrahamic traditions, much of which is simply Jewish/Semitic politics, especially when viewed without the Qabalah. Unlike most of the world who had deities that have both negative and positive aspects, it seems like it was the Temple of Solomon and the separation of demons and angels from the original daimons or 72 names of God that created this extremely polarized ideology, which has become quite fanatical by and through its Christian and Islamic offspring. Let's just say that I've worked with the counterpart of Archangel Michael (Temple of Ascending Flame/Asenath Mason) in walking through Daath, in addition to having done the Enochian calls (Jason Louv) which shreds the ego. My understanding and take on angels and demons is very different than your typical "angel reader" or "demonologist", and Archangel Michael seems to hold different coloring now that I can perceive his shadow (like a Black Knight with some orange under my monkey-mind imagery, orange most likely because of the Ninja Turtles). Nonetheless, having grown up in both Protestant and Catholic education, there has been significant programming of monkey-mind dualist concepts as "purity" and "impurity" where I'm finding the work-product of the Temple of Ascending Flame optimal in deconstruction of Christian ideologies, groups and individuals with ideologies on par with with actual Tantra (Sorcery Texts, not Sex Manuals). Therefore, the left hand path was necessary in purging these judgmental based belief systems, showing it to be a stepping stone above the right hand path. In terms of "purity" and "impurity", well, beauty is in the "eye of the beholder", and, is there not always a "silver lining"? The saint and the sinner, the virgin and the slut, are ONE and the same, holding different expressions of the same One-Consciousness. But, monkey-mind belief system projections of "impurity" and "purity" are excruciatingly apparent with many light-worker preachers, particularly the ones who market their work-product under the banner of "Team Jesus". For those still stuck on the "light", I suggest reading our global mythologies to see who actually wins in the end, not the original Corporation herding human capital that is the Catholic Church and its derivatives. Church and Religion have never been separate. If you actually believe the U.S. is secular, then explain why Obama potentially being Muslim is an issue and the unintelligible support of Israel, a name and land that ancestrally does not belong to the Semitic groups, but was conquered by them. This is what happens when psychologically-conditioned sheep vote. Lastly, Heaven is also a shadow of the original consciousness flowing down the tree of life, another delusion for the monkey-mind to attach onto, where Heaven and Hell have always been political tools.
In terms of Self-Realization, the light-worker communities are moving too slow for my taste, where I'm finding incessant projections as empathic-ally draining, from people who have allegedly done the shadow work. There are those that are working up there own pace, dealing with their own issues and projections by and through global situations. For such, I would recommend my mentor Dr. Lauren Cielo who conducts free weekly meditations, and whose techniques help work with spirit guides and help the adept LET GO. The beauty of Dr. Cielo's meditations, if there is an issue being projected out into the world that creates triggers, he brings it home with healing something within ourselves and the collective energy field, very little external blaming. Nonetheless, despite how many people are talking about Brahman, Kether, Zero-Point Consciousness, very few people are actually ready for Self-Realization, to remove all of their delusions (attachments to samsara), including religious-heavenly delusions. Historically, Self-Realized masters have not set out to save the world as they've come to the realization of the perfection AS IS as it is God's divine play (lila), or the fact that the adept is simply jumping parallel timelines when they amp-up their vibrations. Though Samsara may be beautiful, she will always remind you that the world of forms and your attachments thereof are doomed to fail, as it is "untruth".
One last recommendation, an adept on par with Mooji and Bentinho Massaro (I have found other nontraditional Advaita youtube teachers to be lacking in significant depth, understanding, and mostly darsan; such teachers may be present to the moment, not the emptiness of the void; in addition, such teachers fail to understand/experience that Advaita-Oneness is not the highest as Shiva taught in the tantras), is an adept who I feel would be the step above the left hand path, or Saiva Siddhant. Like most of my favorite teachers, she doesn't need to talk, her mere presence and also her transmissions are more than enough to drive my clairsentience wild. She would be a recent find of mine, the incredible Jivanmukti of Siddhanta Yoga. Jivanmukti has no need for archetypes, religious structures, belief systems, etc. As the adept reaches the void, images of deities, angels, ascended masters are no different than images of festering fecal matter, as they are both images dancing on the smokescreen of consciousness where the monkey-brain places definitions and meanings as such.
First and foremost, I wasn't looking for ascension, life purpose, healings, akashic readings, etc., in my seeking of the Divine. I was born interested in all things "supernatural" and wanted to learn the truth for myself. Much of that was proven to me via intuitive training with my big sister Lys Campbell, who would evoke Archangel Michael (and others) to open me to Vianna Stibal's modality of Theta-Healing. But more than that, the real reason why I pushed in spirituality, is the same reason why a child in a Krishna-home chooses Kali. Not that there is a difference, it's just that only one of them, over historical time, has remained Black. More than abilities-siddhas, wisdom, love, etc. ... I wanted out.
Shakti is associated with the inner, lunar dimensions, and is often portrayed with Naga-Serpents. The Naga energy really became noticeable a few months back, where I have mostly stuck with Shakti mantras. Nagas worship Shakti, so while the A/Brahmaic religions may oppose the serpent, the adversarial traditions understand their connection. The Goddess of the Nagas is none other than Tripura Sundari, a Wisdom Goddess. In invoking the naga energy, I kept picturing a black serpent around my waist. Like Ganesha's belt, all the while he has a rat at his feet. India philosophically understood the harmonization of the naga, not violent suppression as portrayed by the creator gods' Angels. I'm sorry to tell you, but your Angels and beings of "Love and Light" don't compare to the primal Ones, murdered by the following generations of creator gods in order to create your illusory existences.
To really anchor in the naga energy, I found a black python belt designed by a small leather-shop on etsy. I'm no longer really interested in dualistic fantasies of meat versus nonmeat debates, where the very act of breathing forcing the death of many microbes should make the vegan bite their lip. Don't get me wrong, I see the Jains and their practices, but I'm not so sure starving yourself to death like the notorious Chandragupta Maurya is way to Self discovery. On my first wear of the belt, it was just a belt. After placing the belt on my altar with aghori blessed amulets, that belt makes me feel like a kid again holding my stuffed animals. My naga belt doesn't go in the closet, it stays on my bed, or on my altar. Nonetheless, my relatives like to point out that I'm wearing "meat" at spiritual gatherings, and kids tell me my belt is not cool because the snake is dead. Can't argue with that. In addition, I've taken note that as soon as I started wearing this belt, it seemed like the few youtubers that I have settled on, all seemed to shit on black serpents, only letting me know it may be time to let the world know what's up.
After working with the nagas, it was time to invoke Uma Tiamat, the Grandmother Dragon of the nagas and all of existences. To the untrained mind, the forces of chaos can be psychologically devastating. Most prefer creator (atoms coming together), where the destroyer (atoms separating) is perceived as "evil". Hence, anchoring in the feeling of "I Am ... period!" where the monkey-mind drops for the present moment, is a must in practicing the left hand practices. If energies get too intense, returning to "I Am" is key (breathwork assists), not Archangel Michael or whatever other spiritual crutch an adept may reach for in moments of intensity. Let's just say that belt took on further colorings, where I sometimes find it difficult to even hold this belt as if a heavy weight comes over me. These black nagas have outright possessed me, giving me internal imagery of such, further letting me know that what I practice creates some sort of phenomena.
In doing these personal practices, the external world still goes on. Particularly "family", the traditional-cultural-socio prison system that I just can't seem to kick. With an overbearing manipulative mother, who always has her illogical-thoughtless way, as most humans are controlled by unresolved emotion, I can't say "no" to her without worrying about her health. As my extended family has found, if her children do not do what she wants, she will mentally drive herself mad with a 200+ blood pressure, driving herself into the hospital with the whole family surrounding her and defending her because of her health. My mom is young and doesn't eat the typical American diet. There is no excuse other than her own mental state. I ditched my whole family for last Christmas as was my one and only request, but only to have my mom show up at my door. She did the same while I was sitting for the bar exam, because she wanted to throw a 4th of July party for the relatives, all the while I had begged her to leave me to my studies. I had to kick my whole family out of the house for staying well into the night, when I had a practice exam the next morning. She also left me harassing messages the morning of my bar exam, where today, my parents like to brag to other people how they put me through law school. I'm not sure what she's talking about given that I'm not paying my student loans (low income), let alone my health care.
My earthly mom calls me every week asking for something. To her, it's just a conversation. To me, I have to emotionally deal with this family prison system. I even overheard my older sister telling her newborn, "whenever you get the chance, take it, be free". Her husband did the typical, "no dating until 30, wear only sweaters until 40, etc.", to his newborn daughter. Quite odd knowing his shadowy past, and his love of all things Trump. As I have been trying to establish boundaries with the woman who can't take "no" for an answer, as I get pissed, so does something else. Let's just say, a voice woke my father up in the middle of the night to protect him, as my mom unconsciously stood above him with knife yelping for "blood" in her native Hindi. I know what's happening. The bhuta talk to me. In my life, patriarchy has been expressed through females, including my ex who only mirrored the same issues that I have with my mom. Haven't been on a date since, and that's well before beginning my blog. My father is extremely passive and anti-social. Growing up, my mom would be in a ranging tantrum, yelling, throwing cooking utensils at her children, even if her children did nothing, all the while my father would be sitting in front of the T.V. eating his food. He never protected his kids, he's barely spoken to them. The bhuta see him, the same way his older brother (now deceased) see him. Yes, I significantly hold back and try to purge my issues so that they are not projected out in the world. But what am I to do when surrounded by conditioned-minds, that can't think outside of themselves. You can't teach an old dog new tricks. Of course, my mom is back to her old ways, planning exactly how to use me for the remainder of the year.
In love with Uma Tiamat's energies, which feels more passive requiring male Demon-Gods for dynamic movement, and realizing more and more that I really don't relate to much of conditioned humanity, I finally decided to dive into the western Left Hand Path. As I have already studied the qabalist supernal triad, which syncronstically brought me to the Siva Sutras, then Bentinho Massaro, then Mooji, which helped me quite accurately discern the difference between monkey-mind (malkuth) and presence (kether), I decided to study the remaining sephirot by gnostically climbing up the Sitra Ahra of the Tree of Life. As I only work part-time, I am able to separate myself from most of society, a psychological necessity for this introvert. In pushing forward between the oscillation of the monkey-mind and presence, I've noticed a significant increase in my sensitivities, where I now only need to look at a sigil and mindfully observe an invocation, where my imagination will provide the required blood to open the collective-subconscious, a feeling on the top-back of my head, in order to be more than half-way possessed by another entity. In other words, gnostically invoking the beings of the Sitra Ahra was a piece of cake, handling it is another story.
In walking the LHP, the adept is typically psychologically destroyed. You need to be, in order to perceive beyond mental conditionings. In studying numerous shamanic traditions, I've taken note the similarities on how a dis-incarnate entity, such as Kali, would "court" the shaman. Kali has been my romantic interest and has introduced me to numerous Goddesses around the global pantheon. Goddess Freya provides me with desperately needed affection, whereas Goddess Oshun's honey soaked beauty still intimidates this nerd despite how much love I feel with her. More importantly, the adept here must not be afraid of self-destruction. I had my head chopped off before Kali, but my problem was that I enjoyed it. I offered it to her the second time she came to me, where she said "that's been done, what do you want?". Since she didn't let me exit, I asked her to "be with me". With Tiamat, expect to be devoured by black nagas, and so much worse in climbing the Sitra Ahra. If you've anchored in "presence" and have made things right with the Divine Mother (in her many differing archetypes), and are also not squeamish of the macabre, this path may be ripe for you. Again, please take into consideration my own psychology, as I perceive the world differently than most people. I have no problem imagining myself soaking in a tub with slit wrists, but I've noticed other people get offended when I tell them this is a great way to begin your meditation. Ego-death, you drop the body, you drop the mind, then suddenly you're not tied to the egoic character play that is being played out in samsara. The technique I just described is quite emotionally liberating for me, again, this path is not for everyone.
While many were in Church for the Easter festivities, I was in my bedroom invoking the Anti-Christ, antinomianism, disunity over unity. This Goetic demon essentially did something to my third eye, requiring me to lie down. It appeared as though archetypes were being upgraded, where Kali simply took a black silhouetted-latex form with red serpents protruding from her head in a Medusa fashion. More interestingly, Freya modernized herself for me with a classic-punk meets modern day steam-punk appeal. The clarity of my clairsentience in that moment pushed my boundaries as I truly understood Goetia to be a real phenomena. Such was preparation to walk through the hells of the next sephirot, Golachab.
Where the qlipha really pushed my buttons, was when invoking the non-sephirot Daath. The Right Hand Path (RHP) barely acknowledges Daath, where the adepts might accidentally fall into the sitra ahra and lose their sanity. On the LHP, we invoke certain Goetic Demons that I will keep nameless, but is representative of the "worthless one". Daath would be Jesus facing his egoic issues in the Judea desert, also known as the "dweller in the abyss", the last great obstacle, the ego destroyer. Although not bluntly stated, those walking this path know that here, you need to be like Jesus. However, as I had tried, don't bother invoking Jesus or Angels, where it was Padmasambhava and the "I Am" that came to my rescue. The ego becomes the beast, and it doesn't want you reaching higher above the abyss. Even more interesting, Goetic demons not part of the ritual were making "guest" appearances. The adept can either reach higher into the womb of the Goddess at Binah/Satariel, or fall back down the tree and essentially be more enmeshed in ego/samsara.
Entering Satariel, is essentially Goddess Inanna stripped bare and standing before Ereshkigal. On my altar, at the foot of my Kali statue lie two carrion crow skulls. One feels feminine who I like to pick up and pet, the other feels masculine and doesn't prefer the cuddly affection. Although feared in India, crows are symbolic of Goddess Dhumavati, or Lakshmi's sister Alakshmi who is ignored by most Hindus, as she is misery. Dhumavati, as the smoke of Sati burned because of Brahmanic arrogance, she represents the void, the womb of esoterica, and makes a perfect fit for Satariel as she is the Guru of the Mahavidyas. Crows are also the messengers of Father Odin, who similarly like Shiva, was trained by the feminine Freya to become the "All Seeing Father". Yes Odin, I know to whom you gave your eye. Here, my crows decided to name themselves to me, Persephone and Hades.
The ruler of Ghagiel/Chokmah is the Father God known as Beelzebub. Originally meaning "lord of lords", quite similar to Shiva's "devadevam", the political Semites demonized him in pronouncing his name to mean "lord of the flies". Nonetheless, such may bear truth as invoking Beelzebub, Belial, etc., is essentially going through your own whipping post. The Abyss of Daath is comparable to Jesus' last temptation, whereas, Ghagiel and Beelzebub would be the equivalent of the "Passion of the Christ". After my ritual, I walked into my kitchen in the middle of the night, only to find one of the biggest cockroaches I had ever seen (my car might be old, but my place is nice; somewhat new buildings are not infested). As Smashana-Kali has helped remove much fear, there was no issue with the size of the cockroach, until it spread out and I realized, "oh shit, this mo/fo got wings". After my failed hunt, I realized who I was invoking in my earlier ritual. As within, so without, astral beings test the initiate, as has been my life scenario in working with Kali.
The goal is to move into Kether or Thaumiel, where Kether is sometimes defined as blinding light and "presence", and Thaumiel simply being "presence". Hence, both LHP and RHP are moving into "presence" or the "I Am", where the LHP takes it one step further into the void to be properly "born again". It appears you step into unity consciousness, and then the void, to only then be spit back out as a master of duality. While many philosophically understand the "drop" as returning to the ocean, few understand that the ocean is within the drop, or choose to maintain individuality by being a drop of oil in the ocean. In the tantrik categorization as presented by Abhinavagupta, this would be why the LHP is higher than the RHP. Nonetheless, the master must not just know thyself, but master thyself, especially when Beelzebub's flies are constantly testing you.
After completion of my 11 day ritual, I was required to attend my sister's house-warming puja to bless her million dollar home. The Hindu priest kept saying, if you worship God, then you will be blessed with all of these things. Beelzebub's flies reminded me that I've spent my whole life in front of the altar, with nothing material to show for it. I barely ate last year and this year, where I will opt to buy incense, books, and ritual tools, over food. I no longer have health insurance, and I'm still driving my high school car. Though, Beelzebub actually needed to try better, as I'm not that much materialistic, and will take my current freedom over being stuck in the socio-economic rat race for the next two decades while children become of age. Nonetheless, the triggers would keep coming, such as my car stereo breaking down on the freeway for the first time, while I'm stuck in Los Angeles traffic. Moreover, I was just given a new job offer, to be paid more to teach kids to read and write as opposed to practicing law. In other words, all my past efforts flushed away, like being in the abyss with the "worthless one", a common sentiment that I discovered has been in the background of my psyche probably my whole life. Lastly, Monday morning comes around where excitedly I look to one of my favorite youtube mentors to help me get through. Nonetheless, she literally throws a punch below the belt, reminding me that pestilence is contagious. The flies of course, further remind me that a few weeks back, she had made a comment around something like "breast size doesn't matter, none of that matters". Not that big of an issue, as there should be no shame in her game. Not really an issue for me either, since I gave up on relationships and have been practicing seminal retention techniques. I'm not sure if my plumbing will work appropriately. I followed "twin flame" teachers to make sense of the images and voices in my head, and to cater to my Disney-romance psychological programming plaguing the pack-animal that is human. The lone-wolf archetype is how I managed to keep myself alive and somewhat sane. Nonetheless, the youtuber's comment (she did not portray herself as an advocate) resonated deep, "once you go BLACK, you don't go back".
Did I succeed in climbing the sitra ahra, I'm assuming the states of my monkey-mind will tell as I proceed cautiously into the future. There is a slight coloring of arrogance, where I have walked into my room feeling the presence of being surrounded by gargoyle looking/feeling demons, who upon giving them my attention, all bow before me. I can either inflate my ego, or I can recognize it as simply symbols for the monkey-mind to interpret, as I have found that taking literal interpretations of visions and messages and blindly following through may lead to devastation, as these are often initiations to see how the adept responds. The goal of the LHP is not swearing oaths and bowing before another entity and following blindly, it is about owning your sovereignty by and through raising that inner Dragon to unite the masculine and feminine aspects within the adept. This is what Jesus meant in the gnostic texts where devotees enter the kingdom of heaven, but the perfected man enters the kingless realms.
This is probably the harshest piece I've written, but I'm finding it drastically necessary in order to properly educate on topics now fully thrown about on T.V. shows such as "Supernatural" (terrible portrayal of archetypes) or Netflix's "Chilling Adventures of Sabrina". I personally wish I grew up in "The Worst Witch", with a teacher named Hekate. This piece wasn't intended to offend, or even purge my own issues, but to educate the public who really do not understand the many faces of Kali Ma and what it's like to actually work with her and the LHP. I write pieces that I wish I found on my journey to help others similarly situated or to help me find people to make further sense of things. Other than that, this blog would be closed, as I've already had traditional people, including Saivas, pretty much defecate on me. I significantly hold back here, as evidenced from what I disclosed above. I don't go around preaching about Kali, as much as I want to, given her mantras keep me psychologically sane. This path isn't for everyone and I rarely tell people about my blog, especially after my Saiva incident occurring around 2015. Whether I can walk this path successfully, well, we just have to see what I become as I continue to play this game of duality.
The Notre Dame Cathedral has quite a bit of reflection brewing among the collective. From my indigenous friends complaining how funds can easily be employed for a European monument but funds to protect nature and indigenous sacred land remain a debate, to essentially people getting annoyed stating "bigger" issues in the world, everyone appears to be vomiting some sort of issue these days. Nonetheless, it's the purge, a return to look at the way we have viewed each other, ourselves, and a constant return to look at old ways. In the U.S., wikileaks has taught me, most would rather eat-up the roughly six (6) corporate owned propaganda machine and keep their conditioned-ways of perceiving the world, then assess the actual truth. Go vote, while those you vote for slaughter the courageously honest. Give up your guns, with the police armed more than the military (look at Ferguson under Obama) and a Trump CEO-President where conservatives do not understand that running a government like a business is a dictatorship. Couch-potato liberty, so long as there is a boogey man to blame, and a neurologically conditioned sensory hungry human vessel, which has no idea how to harness the sexual-creative force, mass-media images are under the guidance of exactly how to satiate the human vessel, as well as invoke emotions to manipulate the human psyche. The early Romans knew how to use sports, creating the stadium as a way to distract the public from the failings of an empire. Your business men, your marketers, your religious spiritualists, understand Neuro-Linguistic Programming ("NLP") and the Law of Attraction at the occult level. Sheep are easily programmed, that's why some of us prefer the Goat!
Yes, I'm in the camp that holds Notre Dame Cathedral special to me, as a student of the esoteric studies and overall, some of the most stunning art. My family visited London/Paris back around 2002, where the only main destination that I had chosen on that trip was Notre Dame Cathedral. I made my family walk to see this thing, including some of our more elderly. As like most Gothic Cathedrals specifically designed under esoteric studies, you enter the womb of the Goddess with it's many folds and gorgeous flower above the entrance. But not everyone can enter the domain of the Goddess, so you have Gargoyles protecting the premises, just as Goddess Chamunda has her bhutas. I still have a gargoyle candle holder purchased in Paris protecting my personal altar, so yes, Notre Dame is a bit more for me than a simple visit. It was a stepping stone on my development, and the memory of lighting a candle for the Divine Mother to bless the organization and all of her devotees, parishioners, and children (all that is), feels like a twist in my heart. Yes, it is a dark history, but a mystery that I loved unraveling during the age of Pisces, when one can step outside the egoic-story and see the world as a pretty cool "Game of Thrones" (The Mother of Dragons is a Dragon Herself!). Though I'll proudly admit that I'm more on the "Da Vinci Code" end, I will also suggest that the fire-burn may have been to remove certain esoteric hints. This is an organization that houses one of the largest libraries on the planet, but expects the rest of the planet to bow before one heavily edited book.
Given that Catholicism still holds derivative roots in the Roman traditions (Greek-Egypt, etc), where the Jesus story has been catered to follow the dying Solar God (Osiris), a natural phenomena of the Sun dying on Winter Solstice (Saturnalia) and rising again to bloom around Spring. Not all early Christians believed Jesus was crucified, not all early Christians believed Jesus actually existed (was a metaphor), and definitely not all early Christians agreed with the creator gods where the Serpent actually brought the Truth. The Roman empire understood the occult grounds of tapping into the astral realms (Yesod) to effect the material realms (Malkuth). Hence, the use of angels, "ascended" saints, and of course, Mother Mary remained in Catholicism.
The derivatives of Catholicism have further removed the feminine aspects, maybe due to occult reasons. As evidenced by John Dee and Queen Elizabeth, the early Anglican Church was not a stranger to occult sciences as well. In actuality, just as it is stupid not to study your business competitors, it is stupid not to study your alleged enemy. Astrology, Alchemy, and other such original sciences were practiced in both the Catholic and Angelican churches, but banned because such tools were used against each other in the push for religious dominance. Hence, demonize such tools for the masses instead of outright forbidding such practices, which would actually creates an attraction emotion, is a tactic to keep such tools in the hands of only the elite. Remember, the Catholic Church did try to control global time and astrological effects by and through the production of the unnatural and unharmonious Gregorian calendar. Some organizations exist to simply create disorder (chaos), such as the Jesuits, in order to move individuals into occult-egregore institutions and/or to push for a global ascension by and through a global "dark night of the soul". Heavens cause stagnation and indigency, Hells push evolution and growth. Creator gods teach form, to further trap you into a form (heaven), while the Destroyer gods teach you to look behind the form to the formless (Apokalpsis; Form depends on the illusion of time and space).
Nonetheless, the feminine is a necessity for proper occult practices and spiritual development. Above the entry to the astral realms (Yesod) is the ability to harness the will (Hod; Masculine) usually conducted through ceremonial rituals which alter consciousness. Nonetheless, it is the emotional and fluid, the intuitive feeling (Netzach; feminine) which ensouls the the ceremonial rituals (Hod) for such astral workings to manifest on the material plane (Malkuth). Hence, to remove the "feminine" is to remove one's spiritual abilities, paving the way for a hierarchical control systems by and through a religious middle man system. The feminine (Binah), is an aspect of the One consciousness (Kether) as it flows into manifestation (Malkuth), subjugation of such only hinders one's abilities, and ensues patriarchal psychological conditionings embedded in both genders. Each individual holds both nadis as the ida (feminine) and pingala, (masculine), androgynous as Adam-Lilith Kadmon or Ardhanarishvara, where it appears based on the tantras, that one gender archetype tends to take the role of teaching the other gender archetype during differing yugas, as both are balanced until inner completion. In occult-spiritualists practices, such includes sexual-alchemy of using sexual hormones to shift already altered consciousness for actual gnosis-communion with the divine, which can often be mistaken as physical sexual union. Sadly, the closest state to higher gnosis the average individual may experience is that of the sexual orgasm, or the "la petit la mort" where the egoic-story and egoic-persona are "dead" for a momentary glimpse beyond the world of forms. Hence, sex has always been sacred and a means to commune with the divine. Such is found through the early Protestant group, the Moravians, where Jesus' wound from the "spear of destiny" was viewed as a vagina, while the sexually straight male and female adept could all be in courtship with Jesus, rendering many mystical experiences. Mystics such as William Blake were heavily influenced from such traditions. (Schuchard, Marsha Keith, William Blake's Sexual Path to Spiritual Vision.). The Catholic Nun is considered a bride of Christ, is she not?
A [G]oddessless religion is half-way to atheism. In the word Elohim we find the true key. Elohim is translated "God" in both Authorised and Revised Versions of the Holy Scriptures. It really ought to be translated "God and Goddess," for it is a feminine noun with a masculine plural termination affixed...If we want equilibrium instead of our present condition of unequal stresses, we must worship the Elohim, not Jehovah. The worship of Jehovah instead of Elohim is a potent influence in preventing us from "rising on the planes," that is to say from obtaining supernormal consciousness as part of our normal equipment." - Dion Fortune, The Mystical Qabalah
Constantine's intent, three-hundred (300+) years after the life of Jesus (Essene as called by the Jews, as they were Gentiles) during the times of the Creed of Nicea, is still unclear on whether he was a convert, or strategists who found a way to save the failing Roman empire. Nonetheless, the differentiation between Catholicism and Gnostic teachings/texts is quite clear, where much of Christian colorings have little to do with Jesus, but have been usurped from many other traditions. Such includes the definitions of an afterlife, where Jesus described very little. The Kingdom of Heaven (Kether; Father/Self-Realization) being within you (Tiphareth; Communion with the Holy Gaurdian Angel), where Heaven is described as having "many mansions" feels more like a multi-dimensional consciousness (Astral Realms). In addition, Constantine's vision was of the symbol "Chi Rho" which paved the way for his conversion, which actually looks more like an "x" not the "t"-sign. In fact, it would be much easier to crucify on an "x" as opposed to a "t", where the "t"-cross was another adopted symbol. Why would the Romans inconvenience themselves for a punishment, and how does a body not slide of a cross? Christian education terribly tried answering these questions. Growing up surrounded by religions, I've truly felt like the self-hating Jew in the film The Believer, where fanatical belief systems that lead to oppression will create the Aleister Crowleys and Anton LaVeys in the world. The Roman Church may have been an early attempt to usurp the traditions of two groups they did not care for, the Jewish tradition and Gnostic Christianity, in order to continue the Roman empire. Not something new, as the Romans essentially ripped/merged their tradition from the Greco-Egyptian, and further made themselves blameless as Pontius Pilate washed his bloody hands.
In truth, the incredible history of Italy is the reason why the early Catholic Church would need to be cut-throat, as Italy was invaded from all directions and still holds an interesting history that should beg any proper historian to look into secret societies. The corporate structure of the Church influenced global economics, but yet certain positions of power breed arrogance, especially when doctrinal rule is done by religious divine right not just as a messenger, but where the leader was to be considered an incarnation of the divine. Hence, the history of the Knights of the Templars (possibly early Freemasons) who broke bread with Muslim mystical hash dealers who taught them about the idea (not the image) of Baphomet. Hash being a conduit to the astral realms (Hod; symbolized by peyote), warriors from cults including the Order of Hashashin (Assassins), Knights Templars, to the secret Roman Mithraic (derived from Persian Avesta; also found in Indian Vedas), all held secret practices where removal of such in the hands of outsiders would be necessary to continue the existence of the Church. In other words, continue to get rid of the heretics as well as any traces of their history and existence, to keep the masses eating up the religious propaganda machine.
On the flip-side, the Roman Catholic Church is so much more than simply a political organization seeking tithing, future generations of parishioners (anti-homosexuality), and mass-control as providing religious laws to individuals eating up punitive "blind-faith" belief systems as opposed to understanding the dynamics of karma. Though certain individuals, such as Mother Theresa, held severe racially-ethnocentric and religious superiority programming as evidenced by non-Christian witnesses, where religious threats of hell dictated her conduct, St. Francis of Assisi is well-loved globally as the truth pervaded his being and even influenced the animal kingdom. That same truth, I felt through the Sisters and Padres of my high school. I still remember President Bush (W) bringing us to war, and our celibate Sister Jan holding a picture of an Israeli-Palestine couple deep in a kiss surrounded by war, stating with pride in her face, "isn't this the most beautiful picture you have ever seen". This elderly, exquisitely gentle Sister also stated, "if we are to fight over the Holy Land, then no one should have it, God should take it away from us!". I also remember Sister Pat, though a bit on the "aggressive" end, looking at a picture of Buddhist monks deep in meditation stating, "isn't that beautiful, look at that dedication, same God, different technique". I have found such to be true in studying St. John of the Cross, who coined the term "dark (k)night of the soul". Again, "same God, different technique". So yes, I do love the Catholic tradition and her many mysteries, as well as my Catholic family. Like Ramakrishna, I find the same gnosis in every religion that I study, including the Left Hand Path. But, there is a difference between politics and spirituality, where much of the world has yet to consciously separate the two to properly discern spiritual truths over elite control mechanisms.
Hence, such Qabalist understandings define not just major religions, but show that religions are rooted in Indigenous Shamanism. Moreover, the size of a religion which stresses "hell" and "demons" may be adding more issues into the astral realms, which the adept may need to navigate around for proper manifestation in moving down the tree (Malkuth) and for ascension moving up the tree at least to Tiphareth.
Jesus himself was one such adept as shown through his time in the Judea desert, being tempted by his own issues further evoked by astral parasitic egregores. By looking for the Kingdom of Heaven within (not with Pharisees and Sadducees), one first achieves communion with one's own holy Self at Tiphareth. Such an adept who has attained communion is considered the Son of God, as such an adept can show you the way and the truth to bring you back home to realizing our true Self at Kether. Finding consciousness outside of material realms of forms, and into the formless, to identity with the space between the atoms as opposed to the atoms themselves, to realize that which perceives through me is the same One that perceives through you, a multifaceted diamond with each individual face brilliantly shining to support the One (Yin/Yang not Light vs. Dark) is what the Qabalists (Pillar of Severity/Mercy), Hermeticists, Tantrics, Vedantics, Gnostics, Sufis, and Taoists taught.
People that have disclosed such information have been historically persecuted as it goes against religious doctrine aka control mechanisms. I face the same worry, as I still remember the looks, smirks, and comments I got from the patrons of the same Catholic high school post 9-11, something odd given my background, but not odd understanding the psychology of conditioned minds where many in the U.S think India is in Africa. Or, how about when I used to secretly wear (shamefully, intentionally hide) my Shiva pendant at my Protestant elementary, understandable since Shiva is basically a guy holding a trident with a snake around his neck. Well, my beloved Kali-Mahavidya-Sophia has taught me that the word (tongue; Goddess Vak) is mightier than the sword. Should I be seen as Frankenstein's monster, all I can remember is the pain I felt when offering tobacco at the cemetery-smashan in front of the Church of sacred Wounded Knee, remembering Black Elk Speaks, the Ghost Dance, and the words, "Hokahey, Today is a Good Day to Die!". Yes, it is the masculine Osiris that dies. But don't forget that it was through Goddess Isis that we are reborn and we bloom. Just as Shiva suffered the pain of his chopped-up Sati, so I to understand Devi Isis' pain, where Osiris' Phallus is a reminder of the Divine Masculine and of the Crucified Rose. Though, I do not believe it was Set, as the lawyer is typically blamed with the client.
In relieving my personhood, I do wish everyone a Blessed Ishtar (Ashera for the Semitic traditions; Bhuvan-Aswari for the Tantrik; Inanna, the original dying/resurrecting Goddess) and thank you Soul-Family for helping me speak up, as I am inspirited as you speak and live your truth. We are in this together, externally and internally, for there has never been separation other than what our monkey-mind has told us. I am pushing to love more and more outside of me beyond the internal cocktail dribble of serotonin and dopamine, as I learn to accept, love, and empower what is inside of me, including my shadow self. This memorial piece was an emotional roller-coaster for me as I dig deeper into my own truth. Thank you for reading.
Under Edit as of 10/27/18
The literature on the Navadurga ceremony thus found is quite simple. There's very little to gather from online sources, and my ever-increasing personal library (including puranas, tantras, etc.,) still lacks proper depth. Nonetheless, the information and experiences gathered affect my perspective, one that is quite different than traditional standards. Below is my discovery, sentiments, and intuition leaving me with a drastically different picture and personal practice as compared to traditional religion. In deciphering through our history, I've had to take constant note that, truth is more important than egoic-cultural colorings, for an actual seeker.
(Navadurga mimics the Christ ascension timeline. However, in Essene-Yogic and other mystic traditions, Jesus was not the full vessel of the Holy Spirit (Spirit: Sanskrit "Atma" meaning "consciousness"; Greek "Psyche" meaning "Spirit") yet, where Jesus still had to face his own egoic-identity issues embedded in his subconscious, while practicing meditation in the Judaean Desert. Similarly, just like Siddharta Gautama sitting under a regular tree, and just like Mohammed who simply astral projected to the vibration of the Archangel, sensory deprivation that moves the mind away from material existence alters consciousness. Meditators will find it easy to grasp this concept, where have you ever had a thought tempt you out of "stillness", especially an enticing one produced by Maya or the Devil? In terms of an actual Christian practice, "what would Jesus do" to find the "kingdom of heaven within"? What about John the Baptist, the guy born near the Dead Sea Scrolls, who would practice cleansing rituals that were strange for the cultural-religious region, but looks a lot like being cleansed in the Ganges. (See Jodi Magness Ph.d, The Holy Land Revealed)? Are we today following modern Pharisees and Sadducees, or are we connected by following his way, his truth, and his life?
Why would Jesus, Siddharta Gautama (contemporary of the Saiva Saint, Makkhali Gosala), and Mohammed practice "stillness" of mind? Most understand karma as the way one conducts themselves in the world. But before one decides to act, one must make a decision to act. Such often entails analysis running through psychological conditioning for one to make a decision. "Stillness" ceases that analysis and aligns one within the flow of our higher expression, or soul-expression, should one's chakra system be clear of psychological blockages. Really, an adept must ask, "how does one actually find, 'the kingdom of heaven within' without sorting through the clutter of the mental psyche"? Cleansing of the chakra system, like the Tibetans' Rainbow Lightbody practice studied by the Roman Catholics and Nazis (First Reich meets Third Reich), is how one becomes the pure vessel for the Holy "Consciousness-Spirit". (No offense is intended, where my life has been blessed by both the Protestant and Catholic Church; Studying Nazi occultism taught me not to trust the history books that are void of "secret societies").
Therefore, Navadurga is the ascension timeline teaching an adept how to evolve consciousness from an individuated ego identity to cosmic-supra consciousness ("Brahman"; "Kether"; "Unity Consciousness";"God") and thereafter beyond consciousness ("ParaBrahman"; "Above Kether"; "Ragnarok"; Void after Nirvana; the Womb of God) into what can only be described in human terms as the other side of the "black hole". She is the teacher of multidimensional consciousness, while the adept remains grounded in material existence by and through the human vessel.
I believe it's possible that the observed tunneling effect is the result of elemental particles moving within the multidimensional universe and then reemerging in a different area of the physical universe. Since each particle of matter (subatomic or molecular) already exists as a multidimensional unit of energy, this process of disappearance is to be expected, not only in physics but also in the real of human consciousness. In a very real sense, out-of-body and near-death experiences are a result of the tunneling effect of consciousness as it moves within the unseen energy levels of multidimensional universe and then returns to its physical form."
I. Goddesses; Vedic/Aryan-Tribal India-Gnostic Western Religion
In a conversation with my late uncle (Hindi: "Daada"), Mr. Jag Narayan, who had always taught us to look for the "higher philosophy" in challenging the pundit status quo, he told me about his childhood experiences with my great-grandfather, a tantrik adept whose three sons by their karmic natures were not ready to handle the blessings of tantra. Born in the late 30s, my uncle grew up in a time where the best he could do to learn scriptures, was to secretly look over the pundit's shoulders as the pundit would read from sacred texts. In the age of information, we have no excuse.
Before his passing, in conversation with Dr. Ol Doinyo Laetoli le Baaba, or as we called him, "Kali Baaba", he had said to me and my family, "out of all of the religions that I have studied, Hinduism has the most esoteric sciences to offer the public. However, there is a lot of undoing that needs to be done". Though the Mother's name has been on my tongue since I was a child, Baaba's words left me with the inclination to discover the archetypal truths beyond cultural, societal, and religious conditioning. Little did I know at that time, but Baaba's few words had the impact of beginning the deconstruction of my own psychology. My Daada taught me to raise my consciousness, Baaba taught me to liberate it.
Based on my research beginning with the few handful of authors Baaba recommended including David Kinsley's immense research, I'm part of the camp that believes the Goddess traditions are heavily more Tribal than Vedic-Aryan. Such includes ceremonies that are contrary to traditional Vedic rituals most likely influenced around the medieval ages with puritanical, patriarchal, and prejudicial leanings against certain practices. The continued prejudice and editing is evidenced today, shown through Professor B.N. Shastri's introduction to his Kalikapurana, where he discusses the disdain he received for not limiting the 'tantrik' elements of the text, a widespread practice throughout Indian puranic literature. Though Hinduism stresses "in search of truth", the banning of controversial books and authors is a common occurence, including banning D.N. Jha's book Holy Cow; Beef in Indian dietary traditions, as well as issues with brilliantly challenging authors like Wendy Doniger, who wrote The Hindus; An Alternative History. The axiom reside, "can one handle the truth", with the amount of psychological conditioning religion, culture, and traditions have embedded into our ancestral DNA, much of human psychology may simply be cognitive dissonance.
Relevant here is a Goddess who seems to fit a more puritanical standard. Her current archetypal symbology shows a lack of a consort (chastity, purity, etc.), in addition she is armed by the weapons of the male deities, in her service of helping the male deities fight a demon. Therefore, she is the pacified lioness, where the feminine archetype is reduced to simply the all loving nurturing mother who is appropriate since she is helping men as opposed to standing on one. Hence, the extreme stress on the domesticated cow archetype, a remnant of Pashupati-Mithraic bull worship representing Taurus. Not to say there is anything wrong with the "domesticated cow " archetype, as the Egptian Hathor archetype lovingly saves the world from burning up from the Sun, she also unconditionally nurtures humanity as expressed by individuals such as Anandamayi Ma and Amma-ji, individuals embodying the mother-archetype who offer themselves to humanity despite religious creed and fears of hell, who will move beyond the body with a pure conscious. Nonetheless, it denies the lioness, the proper pedestal the Goddess deserves, her vahana as shown through the other aspect of Hathor as Goddess Sekhmet. Brahma is the creator of traditions and culture according to the Hindu tradition. But one must not forget that Saraswati does not sit by his side, as much as modern tradition tries to put the two (2) together. The Eastern archetypes of Brahma and Saraswati are quite similar to that of the Western Abraham and Sarah, but probably best explained by and through the Gnostic Ialdabaoth and Pistis Sophia (On the Origin of the World, Nag Hammadi Scriptures), gnostic texts that are likely much older than either prior traditions as found with the Dead Sea Scrolls.
As typically found in researching any religion, the modern interpretation is an evolution of past ancestral understandings, including the archetype that we know today as Durga. Essentially, Durga would be a Goddess ripe to pluck for synchronization into the warrior based Vedic-Aryan system, given her shakti is being "invincible", a potent quality for war. This form of synchronization can then be further expressed through other Goddesses and Gods into the modern religion we know as Hinduism. The cults of Sri Sodashi and Mayon appear to be a drastic influence on the evolution of what may have been just a simple charioteer known as Krishna, as described in the earliest editions of the Mahabharata currently found. Lakshmi appears to be originally Kubera's attendant, a tribal Yakshini related to Ravana's Rakini's, quite how she ended up on Visnu's side is unknown outside of simplistic puranic lore. Lastly, we have the extremely esoteric Matrkas-Mothers where Goddesses are blended with the archetypes of their Vahanas-Familiars, showing Goddess in her terribly terrific forms as the 64 Yogini High-Priestesses or sky-dancing (dakini) "witches" which has caused issues with cultural surroundings.
Nonetheless, the traditions of these groups which may currently fall under the broader context of modern Saivism, as organized and "cleaned-up" by Abhinavagupta, are in conflict with the Vedic-Aryan adaptation of Vaishnavisim. India has produced many philosophical schools, including Adi Shankara's practice of attaining oneness, known as Advaita, quite similar to the Western Hermetic tradition of Self discovery. Nonetheless, as a stepping stone, Dvaita-Vedanta (dualist schools) also arose to help those achieve Advaita, by using a deity to guide one into oneness, the formless. In summary, Dvaita Vedanta typically teaches that the "soul" and "God" are two separate things where the soul must evolve into Spirit, whereas, Advaita Vedanta is the experience that there is only one consciousness. Nonetheless, such dualist schools have broken off from Advaita, leading to belief systems that plague the astral realms of heavens and hells through "thought-forms" known as egregores. (See Stavish, Mark, Egregores; The Occult Entities That Watch Over Human Destiny). For pure Advaita practices without cultural coloring, properly articulated to get to the point and effectively direct consciousness, I recommend Bentinho Massaro, who also best articulates the law of attraction. To further ground Advaita in order to be "psychologically-empty" and in the moment, to be the observer Self as opposed to the mind-body that molds itself to external or thought stimuli, Mooji Baba does not fail.
Further, those who attain Advaita to a certain degree are typically worshiped as having attained unity consciousness, where the then "Guru" becomes one with the disciples to further such connections through kundalini awakenings and activations, such as Swami Nithyananda, who has stated, "I am not here to tell you that I am God, I am here to tell you, that you are God!". Such sentiments are often expressed by Self realized beings, who like the Mughal Emperor Akbar, who sought the blessings of Self Realized Sufi saints, cheekily coined the phrase "Allahu Akbar-Allah is the Greatest". Though I feel Mooji Baba says it best, where in summation he states "I am here to show you who are, beyond what you think you are".
In Saivism, an adept is to find a "Guru" who has attained "Shiva" or "Unity" consciousness. Guru being two (2) words Gu-Ru, where "Gu" means "ignorance", and "Ru" means to "destroy" as in "Rudra-Shiva". Should an adept fail in finding such a siddha-achiever of the highest level in physical form, one is to take the name of the Divine Mother Kali, as spoken of Abhinavagupta in the Saiva Magnum Opus, the Sri Tantraloka. In the practice of developing an egregore, the ability of human intellect to embedded quite a bit of "coloring" to a deity "thought form" to allow that deity to evolve is a common tantrik practice, as found in the Vajra-Yogini practice as described by Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, in his Guide to Dakini Land. Hence, Kali being embedded with quite possibly the highest shakti, making her "Adi"-First Shakti. Kali being Adi is proper, where Shiva as consciousness needs the fiery passion of Kali as matter in order to desire to engage the material universes, where in invoking Kali has the effect of destroying everything in the adepts life that is not pure Shiva. The romantic dance of the Cosmos. However, Kali also brings the Consciousness-Shiva out of the transient Cosmos as a Corpse-Shava, understood by the pop-culture reference of the film Spinal Tap where if the dance of Shiva-Shakti is a typical guitar amplifier with maximum setting at "Ten (10)", Kali "goes to Eleven (11)". The return from such Self discovery at "Eleven (11)" produces the psychological Taoist balance of the yin-yang hemispheres of the brain, where such as the Netflix series The Stranger Things, a character named "Eleven (11)" holds psychic multidimensional viewing abilities produces "supernatural" phenomena. In addition, the name "Eleven (11)" holds further significance as an ancient Mesopotamian deity "El" still found in derivative traditions, such as the word "Ang(El)", which is converted to "Al" for the Arabic tongue.
The archetypal Vishnu provides order to the Chaos. He would be the highest Kairos to the Cosmos. Visnu established a hierarchy cocooning process and status to achieve meant to assist humanity's evolving consciousness. However, with advanced philosophy in the hands of evolving humans, such has created caste and a lack of gender neutrality where the generous Goddess Lakshmi seems to be in a perpetual state of massaging Visnu's feet, as further expressed metaphorically through the archetype of Sita. Lakshmi, as a Yaksini and an adept embodying the shakti of "Sri", Lakshmi is identifed with the pinnacle of Mt. Meru under the sacred geometry of the Sri Yantra, where She is simply the Bhoga-Enjoyment after the Visnu oversoul accomplished his Yogic Sadhana. Nonetheless, such archetypes, when not appropriately interpreted, conditions the consciousness of the masses, placing the feminine as a passive nurturing servant to the masculine. Hence, Hinduism historical patriarchal underpinnings are deeply rooted, where women are still viewed as inferior, shuffled into an oppressive caste state named after the Vedic-Aryan word for color-varna, a categorization system created by a group who "integrated" with the Dasyus-dark skinned, flat nosed people. Such evolving human understandings has created further "separation", disguised as Bhakti Yoga in our global traditions, when the purpose of duality was to strengthen the heart chakra to awaken the high heart and move into nonduality. It is to learn to love God first, who through God we learn to love ourselves and recognize our Self, not get fanatical about dogma.
Unlike Visnu under specifically dualistic schools-davaita vedanta, Siva is beloved by all of creation, including its "Chaotic" aspects. There is no hierarchy, there is just oneness which then leads to further transcendence where the Divine Mother takes one into what can only be described in human language as the void, the womb of creation. Where Visnu who with two (2) eyes represents the height and beauty of transient existence, Siva with three (3) eyes represents "in this world, but not of it". In the beautiful Yoruba tradition invoking energies known as Orishas, Siva (or Sadashiva as interpreted in Saivism) would be similar to Eledumare, who doesn't really involve itself with transient existence, thought it pervades it. There are intermediaries, the wonderful Orishas, who are essentially angelic in guiding the adept into higher consciousness as well as helping with transient material issues. Therefore like many shamanic traditions, Shiva is the yogic-meditative tradition of moving your consciousness beyond the material form, then the astral forms, into the void of Self-discovery.
Returning to the Goddess, most tribal Goddesses in India with the knack for blood are synchronized with Kali, who then is synchronized with the Vedic-Puranic-Upanisad "Kalaratri" giving this archetypal Goddess a more profound philosophical understanding. As Kala-Kali represent the space-time continuum that creates our existence known as the grand-illusion (Mahamaya), Kali is the aspect of time that chips away at the moment. However, in invoking the archetype Kali, like the adept Shiva, you do not ask to return to egoic-creation (Brahma) by and through thoughts, but to Self-discovery found through stillness. Like the western Goddess Lilith who did not fall with Adam, but matched the divine vibration through mantra bringing her back to the "All-Father" removing her from material existence. Hence, Kali-Lilith is the "daemon" (Greek meaning supernatural beings between God and humans) mother and slayer where she can support your ego as the nurturing mother (maya) or detach you from egoic transient existence while you can still play (lila) in the illusion (Mahamaya). (See Karlsson, Thomas, Qabalah, Qliphoth, and Goetic Magic). An archetype similarly expressed is with the Goddess Hekate as found through the Chaldean Oracles.
Similarly in Western traditions, angels provide the same shakti-gnosis in occult practices, as found in the practice of John Dee's "Enochian Magick". As a devout Christian with piety practices in the late 1500s, and the occultist to the Protestant Queen Elizabeth, John Dee was not seeking Eastern religion, nor a Goddess. Nonetheless, from the practice of "Angelic Magick", angels take on a dual coloring where "demons" may simply be just obstacles assisting in the cocooning growth process of consciousness, which then leads one to the Mother of all that is, most likely the Book of Revelations Whore of Babylon. Firstly, one must understand patriarchy. A Mother who creates all that is will be labelled a whore, just as a high-priestess will be labelled a witch. As evidence, humanity does not appear to be holding the standard for Father-God creator. Hence, such patriarchal religions veil the Goddess into a passive "virgin", without understand that the esoteric symbol of "virginity" as being an unconditioned crystal clear consciousness. No doubt the practice of Enochian Magick dissolves egoic-conditioning and brings one to the Divine Mother, as has been my personal experience in working with the 30th Aethyr Call. (See Jason Louv).
Nonetheless, patriarchy may have a reason to suppress the feminine, fear. As the Mother of all that is births all that is, it is through the feminine archetypes that we have the creation of the "shadow", as found through the Qabalist "Tree of Life" specifically the pillar of severity. (See the works of Lon Milo DuQuette and Dion Fortune). From the pillar of severity do we have the creation of the Qliphoth. Though it is the left-hand qabalist path, Qliphoth simply means the bark on the tree of life. Hence, the qliphoth is simply ego in material existence. (See Karlsson, Thomas, Qabalah, Qliphoth, and Goetic Magic). The Divine Mother birthing the shadow is further explained in Gnostic Christianity, where Pistis Sophia engaged the process of know thyself engaging her shadow, where she thereafter plunged herself into the depths of matter to bring wisdom. (See Pistis Sophia) However, as Christ the Sophia, she needed help, Christ the Logos. Sophia is Greek meaning wisdom. Another name for Kali is Mahavidya, as she is a Great Wisdom Goddess.
II. TRIBAL PRACTICES; TANTRA
Like other tribal Goddesses, Durga and Chandi also fit the tribal Goddess archetype requiring blood sacrifices. "Harivanash purana (C. A.D.) mentions Durga as the vindhyavasini, dwelling in caves, rivers forests and the wind worshipped by savaras, barbaras and pulindas". [S.K. Tiwari, Tribal Roots of Hinduism p. 30]. From my occult studies, including those requiring animal sacrifice akin to halal meat, the two very obvious and practical ways to open portals between this world and the astral is through sex and death. Sex brings in "life-force", death takes out "life-force". Such allows objects to receive blessings known as prana-pathistha, creating objects of veneration known as amulets proven to be infused with the intended energy, as can be attested by clairsentients. Hence, the reason why practices are continually practiced, as these are not faith-based rituals, as religions based solely on faith are only applicable to well-conditioned minds. Such amulets infused with energies of the Orishas, Nagas, and Shakti, and practices such as yantra, mantra, mandala, are essentially portals, a transportation system to move one's vibration closer to that of the intended deity sprouted by vibrational seeds called bijas. Bijas bring "life" to Sanskrit verbiage, where logical interpretations are void compared to the intuitive experiences fulfilled once such seeds begin to sprout reverberating through one's cellular structure. Such is similarly true with natural objects, such as gemstones that can make a clairsentient's head spin, recognizable when one is in stillness, no faith required.
Further, the Goddess traditions are specifically known for certain practices that are in opposition to puritanical standards, including the panchamakara. However, Shakti Sadhna affects the psyche and physique extremely differently, where one is not invoking a kind gentle compassionate energy, but the more terrifying and terrific forms to get the job of ego attachment dissolution done. These practices are to transcend the egoic attachments to transient existence, particularly through the cleansing of the heavy psychological constraints plaguing our central nervous system, as an adept will find in working with the chakra system. Ego attachment dissolution allows the ego-individuality to taste the liberation-moksha of Higher Self expression, where the wanderings-samsara are no longer on a psychologically conditioned karmic-habit wheel. Contrary to religious practice, ego-destruction is not humiliation disguised as humility before a hierarchical system, nor is it humiliating yourself before a deity. Surrender before a deity is allowing their energies to work with you, where humiliation by and through the law of attraction energies further separate the adept and object of veneration through vibrations of unworthy as opposed to equating a match. To invoke Shiva, one must be Shiva, Shivoham.
Therefore, the adepts in these practices of invoking terrific forms of the Goddess are facing their fears, their attachments, from the position of the divine Mother herself, for healing. Hence, not your typical havan fire ritual, but an energetic experience which can be something quite odd to the ignorant observer. Hence, the consumption of grounding foods such as meat and alcohol, properly moving the Shakti-Prana "vital-life-force" throughout the body where the cleansed chakras have opened the adepts central nervous system, often through mediums such as sensual intimacy, bringing healing throughout the physique. Hence, panchamakara can be seen as the Bhoga-Enjoyment after Yoga. Simple vegetarian meals may not allow the adept to properly ground, when the adepts consciousness has been soaring beyond the body. In addition, an adept may find herself looking for reasons as to why one should come back. Such primal qualities including carnivorous and mating habits have been with humanity throughout known history, the tantriks just realized its spiritual aspects. Though spiritual communities are prevalent with anti-meat and anti-sex sentiments, such organizations fail to understand the purpose of yoga. For such individuals, I would recommend one of my favorite gurus who would in summation say, the problem isn't that you eat meat, the problem is that you identify-with and are attached-to the body that is eating the meat. (See Sri Sadguru Siddharameshwar Maharaj, Amrut Laya). Nonetheless, such indulgences should be done from the position of emotionally vibrant "mindfulness", where one can partake each moment with the ability to embed proper gratitude into the object of gratification. Such practices can be found through other examples, such as the Japanese tea ceremonies which prepare the consumer ritualistically to mindfully thoroughly enjoy the subtle nuances of tea, hence, the difference between indulgence and alchemy.
Regarding the use of conscious altering intoxicants used throughout shamanic traditions, cannabis is particularly suitable as the plant of Shiva. Hence, from a mindful perspective, a yogi indulges cannabis the same way a shaman would indulge ayahuasca, particularly to add or activate DMT within the pineal gland for astral exploration as found through the works of the "psychedelic elders" such as Terence Mckenna and the philosopher Aldous Huxley who gave the band The Doors their title from his book, The Doors of Perception. Shiva as consciousness allows the adept to explore consciousness. On the other, Shakti as prakriti-matter, the material existence, gives us wine to attach us and delude us into material existence, her maya shakti. Hence, the reason why alcohol, meat, and sensuality, all objects that affect the hormonal (im)balance of the human body, may be ritualistically used to ground one back into material existence. One needs karmic-relevance in materiality for one to exist in materiality, and passionate desires can easily become a "karmic-relevance". Such explores the dual aspects of substance use, where such practices may be used to elevate or delude consciousness. Obviously, such practices are typically counter-culture driving such rituals to be hidden, something to note when considering what the hidden-essene cult was practicing for at least 350 years before Constantine "converted" and killed of the "heretics". (See the works of Edgar Cayce and Dolores Cannon in exploring the Essene further). As such, practices of attempting to attain higher consciousness may be widespread, such as the Sacred White Buffalo Calf Woman, who brought seven (7) sacred rites and the Sacred Pipe-Chanunpa to the blessed protectors of Mother Earth, the sharing of a subtle intoxicant to ground everyone onto the same conscious level for ceremonial intent. Essentially, you can choose to enter the kingdom within and be in Spirit, or create your empires and stories in the material realms of transient existence. Nonetheless, before one commits to external ritual with the potential for societal drama, one must consider a meditators sharpened awareness with the ability to pinpoint areas within the physique, and the use of a heightened "imagination" with the ability to conjure certain emotions and therefore release a hormonal cocktail for euphoria, one realizes that all gratifications are sourced from within, including new nuances not typically experienced from external stimuli. Simply, most minds are conditioned to seek such pleasures externally, further conditioning the ability to obtain such euphoria on external circumstances, when all of such really is a product of one's sensory consciousness. Therefore, the need for many practices in conflict with the surrounding culture, area actually best suited to be conducted internally, with the purpose of ceremonial ritual as simply stabilizing and serenading an active mind.
On an intuitive level, such practices considered outside of "traditional" sensual boundaries, such as that of the founding Mormons, may be enacted with the understanding of "soul contracts", where from a Spirit "Not-Matter" level, sensuality is simply an exchange of information particularly when one is guided from the impulses of the heart, the divine will. Such practices will allow for karmic-soul expressions, which may be inhibited by following traditional standards forcing an adept to thereafter reincarnate to learn from such expression on a loop where the adept will most likely be reconditioned into continuing culture, further creating a dance on the wheel of samsara. Further, sensuality, particularly that of the sacral-connective-creative chakra, is the most culturally conditioned, where it appears ancient cultures viewed anything but bisexuality as odd holding drastically different "moral" standard for sexual expression. Such conditioning may be for practical purposes, where most ancient cultures have some form of incest including the Abraham-Sara bloodline continuation belief system similar to Egypt, where humans had to consciously evolve and condition consciousness to realize that incest produces genetic issues. Therefore, such practices are karmic-cleansing, with the goal of transcending one's animal nature in mind, not logical conscious development to navigate the material world. Nonetheless, such understanding of the conditioning of the human-consciousness, also shows conditioning in other areas based on cultural leanings, such as the conditioning into the human psyche of the male and female separate archetypes, where human psychological has shown to be anything but "black and white". However, one looking to "tantra" for sensual gratification needs to realize the psychological-meditative aspects and purpose of tantra, for sense objects have an incredible natural effect of "stilling" the mind making one "mindful" of the moment. However, one may need to pass through base desires in order to transcend such, bringing one back to one's Dharma, for bottled-up emotions and desires have a way of disturbing a mind attempting stillness, as some of our Master's have described.
Nonetheless, through the evolution of human consciousness, today we have practices such as Kriya Yoga as taught by Yogananda and Yogiraj Siddhanath Satguru, as well as running Microcosmic/Marcosmic channels as taught by Mantak Chia and Dr. Jwing-Ming Yang, or the spiritualist movement who also runs channels as taught by one of my mentors Dr. Lauren Cielo (Golden Rose Psychic), and lastly Vianna Stibal's Theta-Healing. As a sidenote, when can debate the authenticity of a psychic reading, but a psychic teaching others to be "psychic" is another story where one cannot doubt their own experiences. The purpose of Kriya Yoga as the "householder" practice, is that it holds all forms of yogic practices in a few simple techniques. (See J.S. Stevens, Kriya Secrets Revealed). In practice, kriya yoga assists an adept whose life consists of activity, including denser activity such as animal-emotion consumption, continue living such life but yet achieve the anti-karmic meditative goal of stillness. Such practices of grounding oneself to the Earth, releasing one's energetic baggage, and moving vital-life force through certain channels affecting the chakra system, holds the effect of transmuting beliefs-conditioning embedded into one's lightbody-merkaba. Such practices make one "senstive", which includes purging heavy emotions from one's energy field acquired from indulging in "denser emotions". These meditative practices may result in opening of the crown chakra, or the "channelers portal", in addition to other siddhis where certain primal practices may evolve or become obsolete, so long as the intended goal is achieved. As an example, the process of prana-prathistha may look more like re-chi or shakti-pat, where a ritualistic adept known as a sadhak evolves siddhas as they move closer into supra-consciousness.
Nonetheless, those with an open crown, "mediums", are known to allow messages from other aspects of oneself to come forth, such as noted from Bashar-Darryl Anka, Story Waters & Roger Hanson, Tom Kenyon, Lazaris, Abraham Hicks, and Kimberley Maxfield (Beings of the Light), where channeled messages have been known to influence science fiction including the series Star Trek. Particularly Story Waters & Roger Hanson, whose channeled messages and artwork hold the ability to energetically shift and transport the audience, making one comprehend the actual definition of the Sanskrit concept of Upanisad, where Jane Roberts Nature of the Psyche provided me with two (2) weeks of extremely vivid long-drawn out dreams during the duration of reading the material. Hence, the rishis-seers of our ancient records have never left humanity as one can further assess while reading material such as Seth Speaks, A Course in Miracles, or the The Law of One. In addition, phenomenal abilities to shift one's psyche, by and through modes such as editing of akashic records, such as Viana Stibal's "Theta Healing" and Tamra Oviatt's "Sacred Activations" have been reaching a wider audience. The number of individuals publicating such abilities has been increasing, as evidenced by the number of increasing monthly "energy reports" or "readings" arising on youtube discussing the rise in consciousness known as "ascension", including the phenomena called "light-language" where in terms of cranial activity can only personally be described like The Jimi Hendrix Experience. One may wonder if the phenomena of "light-language" is what is described in the tantras as the language of the ancient Yoginis-Goddesses, "twilight", given potential correlations with Indian Goddesses and the Pleiades star system (See Munya Andrews, The Seven Sisters of the Pleiades; See also the works of Arthur Avalon). In a world being filled with extremely clairsentient beings, inner-alchemists who identify as "empaths" and such, who are now providing intuitive messages to a world that is conditioned to be obsessed with the religions that are based solely on logical-material world based understandings, is quite rebellious and as history has taught us, can sadly still be quite dangerous as many truth enablers often fear facing execution with their story then manipulated for public conditioned-mind consumption returning us to the delusion of material existence continuing the established mode of hierarchy.
This bring us to the evolution of the Goddess tradition that we currently know and celebrate as Navadurga.
The primitive form of Durga is the result of sycretism of a mountain-goddess worshipped by the dwellers of the Himalayas. This goddess was worshiped by the tribals as a war-goddess. As her votaries advanced in civilization the primitive war-goddess was transformed into the personification of the all destroying time (Kali), the vegetation spirit into the primordial energy (Adya Sakti) and the saviouress from Samsara (cycle of rebirths) and gradually brought into line with Brahmanic mythology and philosophy."
III. Navadurga Introduction
Two of the highest aspects of divinity that I've experienced are the gods Shiva and Parvati...In the dream I was standing in front of the god Shiva and the goddess Parvati and I was very excited. They were emanating the most amazing divine energy. They used my sacred name and my regular name to address me, and said, 'Dearest Vianna, you are here! We welcome you. Vianna, there are many people will like your work here, but not all of the people in India are going to be open and accept what you teach'.
It is extremely important to note that the different forms of yoga in Hinduism is simply a modern attempt to categorize the many different practices in India, where all practices should lead to the experiences of samadhi as articulated by Swami Vivekananda. One such form is Bhakti or devotional forms of spirituality. My main critique for these groups is that "Bhakti Yoga without Jnana Yoga can result in religious fanaticism". Hence, you have religious Hindus who will murder a Muslim for eating beef, as if the atma-consciousness in the cow is different than the atma-consciousness in the chicken or the plant, when it's all just consciousness. This is due to generational blind conditioning into traditions and culture, all of which further attach an atma-consciousness even more into transient existence. If you enjoy culture and traditions, it gives you a reason to return, an issue should one not understand transcendence. Such ideologies and practices lead towards pride, arrogance, and "spiritual materialism" as coined by Chogyam Trungpa, all of which are simply "golden-handcuffs" mistaken as jewelry (See Amrut Laya). Though logically one may seems superior based on spiritual certificates and titles, such creates the "Herr Mannelig" effect where those not of certain standards are looked down upon despite their proper attempts. Therefore, Bhakti Yoga is to expand the heart chakra to activate the high heart, not get fanatically lost in dogma fighting over which superhero or doctrine is superior.
The Bhakti movement of India seems to be established around 5 CE, where the ancient but evolving man-deity "Krishna" was gaining ground, as he's beloved by both Vedic-Aryan synchronized into the Visnu pantheon and the Tribals as an infusion of Sri, Mayon, and quite possibly many other tribal deities as his story developed. As a sidenote, Krishna is rooted in ancient deities and possibly an oral tradition as he was Megasthenes transplant into Greece as Herkules, or Hari-Kaula meaning family of Hari, during the Hellenic period. Though, it is unclear how much was understood about "Krishna" as much was not written in India during this time period. Nonetheless, 5 CE is also significantly after the time of Jesus and the creation of the Anti-Gnostic organization known as Roman Catholicism, where the die-hard Roman Mithraic worshiping Constantine needed to save a failing empire. Hence, those that nailed him to the cross, allegedly "washed" their hands clean, crafted the modern Biblical tradition via the Creed of Nicea, which still influences Protestant derivatives, outside of the esoteric Protestant movements such as Rosicrucianism. Hence, Roman Catholicism looks nothing like Judaism or Gnostic Christian practices, where the Roman empire has managed to subtlety remain alive to this day, housing one of the largest libraries on the planet while feeding the masses one book, a political move to keep Church and State together. Interesting enough, traditionally the Pope is to be considered an "incarnation" of god by the parishioners carrying on the divine right to rule. Nonetheless, with the Church needing to expand as found throughout historical colonialism, 5th CE is also around the time Christian missionaries were travelling to India, and targeting those at the lower-end of the caste system. Lastly, 5 CE is also around the time of the puranas, where India has not preserved much in writing prior to such periods, at least within public knowledge (preservation issues may be do to intrusion). Given that may different philosophical groups have entered India before much of "ancient" Indian literature, including Jewish colonies during the Hellenic period, Hinduism seems to have much in the way of synchronization.
The similarities in terms of practice between Christians and modern Hindus seem quite similar. Attending a Catholic High school, the religious mass was quite relaxing as you would hear angelic voices pipe through the choir, followed up with biblical reflections meant to dive one deeper into being a better human being. Same is true in attending a Protestant elementary, though the speeches were quite more "boisterous". Nonetheless, the pattern was quite similar, bhajans-choir and scripture reflection. However, prior to the Bhakti movement of 5 CE, the Vedic tradition was highly ritualized with homas-fire ritual, etc., showing a differentiation in practice. Given that lower-castes and out-castes, were forbidden from doing Vedic rituals, entering into certain Temples, and reading certain texts that would resulting in extreme punishment, it can easily be argued that lower-caste Hindus adopted "Christian" forms of practice in order to satisfy their own personal longings without actually converting. Hence, Christianity may have influenced the evolution of Hinduism much earlier than Swami Vivekananda, who walked around with a copy of Thomas a Kempis', Imitation of Christ.
As part of attending Catholic mass, which serenaded the audience with the burning of frankincense (higher consciousness; anti-depressant) and myrrh (death), the church held substantial Catholic artwork including flowing stained glass windows that visually brought the audience to the Christ "Ascension" story. Just as the Christians have the timeline for their savior, Hindus have created a yogic timeline for teaching humanity how to achieve Self-Realization, or the kingdom within, by the Saviouress. Hence, with the numerous influences that composes Hinduism, you have NavaDurga or the Nine (9) Days expressing the adept's sacrifice of ego-consciousness into pure spirit, as taught in mystery schools as Self-Realization or communication with the Holy Guardian Angel (See The Sacred Book of Abramelin the Mage).
As a sidenote, though I have not made the astrological assessments of Navadurga, it is important to note that frightful beings called bhutas, preetis, vetals, etc., (Ghouls, Spirits, Vampires, etc., ), are the vahana-vehicle of the Tribal Goddess Chamunda, often synchronized with Durga. Pitru Paksha, or the tradition of honoring the ancestors where the veil between worlds is thinnest, takes places right before Navadurga (autumn). In essence, the vahana-vehicle is helping bring an adept to the Goddess. Therefore, it becomes important to note that this is the tradition of nonduality, rising above both the right-hand and left-hand path, into unity consciousness.
IV. Navadurga 2018
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Navadurga 2018 concluded yesterday, where I spent the past few days invoking each of the nine (9) Goddesses with an attempt to achieve "stillness". The importance of "stillness" is best expressed by Swami Vivekanada's literature on Raja Yoga, describing steps to achieve Samadhi, a state beyond thought. Essentially, you turn the body and mind off, where your consciousness can move beyond the hustle and bustle of transient existence into pure bliss-ananda. Through meditation, an adept can astral project into the star system, for "as within, so without", through a practice called "remote viewing" by the U.S. government. (See Lyn Buchanan, The Seventh Sense). Such gives understanding to the Oracles of Delphi, when stated, "know thyself and thou shall know the universe and God". The Goddesses and Gods of the astrals, when properly labelled as such, are most likely masters who attained unity consciousness and further gradations. Like Archangel Michael, such beings may assist an adept with chakra clearings to help bring an adept deeper within into the void (Nirvana, Ain Soph Aur) to be absorbed into the ocean and spit out on the other end (Ain Soph, and Ain).
When we contemplate the mantra given by our guru
The first seven Goddess Archetypes are also associated with the typical seven (7) chakra system starting from the root moving to the crown. Like how Goddesses were synchronized into the ancient Vedic-Aryan system, so were the shamanic concepts of the "Kundalini". Kundalini, it's practice and terminology comes from the tribal Goddess Kubjika (possibly synchronization with Kamakya), representing Self-Fulfillment or Inner-Completion (the cycle of Kundalini moving prana-upward, then apana-downward from the crown). (See the works of Mark S.G. Dyczkowski). Hence, the chakras and kundalini may not necessarily be an ancient Aryan-Vedic practice, where those who stressed an oral tradition at the time of the Rg Veda may have looked at those who drew weird geometric designs on the ground as witchcraft. (See Alain Danielou, While The Gods Play).
Nonetheless, it is best for the adept themselves to correlate the Goddess Archetypes with the Chakra System to forge their own neurological pathways and understandings of their own body. Therefore, I recommend the free youtube energy channelings of Ellaeenah JadeFire, to help cleanse any blockages as well as Kriya Yoga based practices with an attempt to understand why a particular Goddess is associated with a Chakra (or Sephirot for Qabalists) and how she may assist in guidance and healing. Lastly, I recommend Elizabeth Lund (House of Idems) for personalized channeled meditations catered to your specific chakra needs, including the more esoteric chakras for the more advanced adepts.
This is the manifestation of Parvati into the world, Lady of the Mountains, Mother Nature.
An understanding from the ancient Samkhya tradition, a tradition that predates Yoga, the feminine Shakti represents Prakriti, or matter giving us physics on how atoms come together by and through vibrations we call gunas. Nonetheless, the understanding of the gunas is approached from a feminine intuitive perspective of the masculine logical scientific "string theory", feeling into the emotional qualities of the three gunas as: 1. Rajas as active; 2. Sattva as harmonious; 3. Tamas as destructive. As a sidenote, the other side of Samkhya is the masculine Shiva, representing Purusha, giving us psychology or the understanding of spirit-consciousness. (Sarawati, Swami Niranjanananda, Samkhya Darshan.) The merge of Purusha-Prakriti, Shiva-Shakti, Spirit-Matter, and the balance thereof, provides us with the archetypal religious symbols of the equilateral cross, the hexagram, lingam-yoni, and the yin-yang. Purusha is further described as the "cosmic man" through later Indian literature, quite possibly a synchronization evolving into cosmic-consciousness.
Hence, as the predecessor to Yoga, the scientific tradition of Samkhya provides an understanding of the polarity of the universe. Scientific in terms of physics (outer studies) and psychology (inner studies), these scientific concepts were anthropomorphized or syncronized into religion. It is Samkhya ideology which gives spirituality it's scientific appeal, a study often degraded by dualist traditions who do not recognize the feminine and masculine polarity dancing throughout the universe. Hence, the friendship (conversations) of Nikola Tesla and Vivekananda, Einsten and Tagore, and the writings of Erwin Schrodinger, Carl Jung, Wilhelm Reich, J. Robert Oppenheimer, etc., psychologists and physicist attest to the brilliance of these yogic practices. The correlation between consciousness and matter is evidenced by the controversial "double-slit experiment", which provides us with a better, but still utterly confusing interpretation of the quantum world, where western-students of matter are attempting their best to discredit consciousness. Such students engage an understanding of prakriti solely, where Tesla astral projected for E.T. communication, and Einstein would astral project into his "imaginary" laboratory not having the funds to attain proper tools. Let us not forget the illiterate but yet brilliant mathematician Srinivasa Ramanujan who obtained his knowledge from none other than the Goddess by drawing tantrik sacred geometry, yantras. History is full of such individuals where apparent information tends to be ignored such as the esoteric organizations, teaching, and arts such as alchemy being practiced by well-known individuals throughout our unacknowledged history including Da Vinci, Newton, and Bruno. What were these game changers actually practicing? Nonetheless, other sciences who lack such background, are essentially lost in the illusion, studying the illusion, leaving us the old adage of the "blind leading the blind". Though Darwinian Evolution is a proper understanding of the natural worlds need for "natural selection", such understanding of biology lacks psychology, the evolution of human consciousness that moved humanity away from the "natural" world.
Shailputra is simply the observation, study, and admiration of material existence. She observes Adam, Atom, as a smaller limited consciousness evolve and get to know itself by a process called Self-Realization into the Purusha or "cosmic man", also known as Atum in old ancient Egypt. Therefore, just like the seeds of a plant hold the blueprint of the plants flowering, so does limited-consciousness hold the blueprint to flower into cosmic-consciousness.
Shailaputra is the student of the spiritual and physical sciences. Here, Shailputra begins the process of "know thyself".
Brahmacharini is where Parvati takes up yoga to attain Self-Realization.
The Vedic tradition will place these adepts in white, and create some sort of ritual-homa. However, it is very important to note that Parvati did not attain Self-Realization by and through the traditions of Prajapati-Daksha who created culture and tradition on behalf of his father, Brahma. She was trained by her future consort Shiva, who is counter-culture, or "ulta-backwords" as the mystical Bengali Baul poets will sing. Quite similar to Ibrahim v. Nimrod under the Tower of Babylon story, the egoic-creator of culture serving a god vs. counter-culture wanting mankind to ascend.
Further, according to puranic lore, Vedic tradition originally notoriously opposed Shiva. Hence, the marriage of Sati/Parvati and Shiva can be seen as the attempted marriage of two (2) different ideologies/cultures. In certain esoteric lore, both Brahma and Siva originally had five (5) heads, where Shiva decapitated Brahma's fifth (5th) head due to Brahma's arrogance (inappropriate behavior projected towards Saraswati or the puritanical "safer" fire pillar story). In the Vedic tradition, killing a Brahmin is the ultimate sin, with Shiva here being the guilty party. To repent, Shiva carries Brahma's skull into the fringes of society creating the tradition of Aghora. Hence, the fifth head maybe symbolic of the Tantric-Aghoric tradition (5th Veda?), obviously not taught by Brahma, and often shunned by dualist schools, including Vaishnavas who fail to recognize that their Rama also killed a Brahmin, Sri Ravana. How else is Rama to fight his own inner demons to flower as the full consciousness of "Sri" as Sri Krishna? In addition, Ravana's Kala Maha Indrajaal is quite more enlightening than the Ramayan, which makes one wonder who actually flowered, was it Ram, or was it Ravana who had his ego chopped off by Ram-Laksmana, or all mentioned as a unified oversoul, two-sides of the same coin. To separate Ram and Ravana is to further conscious duality often objectively shown through something plaguing orthodox religion, the "hero's journey" forcing external conduct, when the proper "hero's journey" is internal psychological alchemy bringing one to Self realization. You can follow the ten (10) avatars of Visnu externally, or you can sit "still" like Shiva, Siddharta, Jesus, Padmasambhava, Mohammed, and plenty of others.
Therefore, Parvati's practices may be more Tantrik in scope, then the Brahma created culture that pervaded her home-life. Such is logical where the ideal goal is to deconstruct psychological conditioning by and through the breath, as opposed to learning and developing cultures and traditions. Again, much of what is placed on-top of such yogic techniques and traditions seems to have simply become "spiritual materialism" [See Chogyam Trungpa]. Nonetheless, Parvati (more particularly Sati) being raised in a dualist environment may have properly grounded Parvati to walk through the "valley of the shadow of death" of her own and collective subconscious. Therefore, the right-hand path seeks to ground in the light, where thereafter, the left-hand path seeks to liberate fears and attachments for moksha-liberation.
Brahmacharini represents the aspect of Parvati before marriage. Here, Parvati can be portrayed as sixteen (16) year old Sodashi/Sri Vidya (Mahavidyas). Hence, the Soundharya Lahiri as penned by Adi Shankara himself may be fitting for this evening as a courtship with the kundalini energy. Further, as has been my experience, mantras presented by an awakened being tend to affect the mental neurons differently, which is properly known as darsan-blessing. As a warning, the vibrations emitted from these mantras tend to be on the hormonal end, where the adept typically can mix energies within the Taoist lower Dantien through techniques such as "embryonic breathing". (See Jwing-Ming Yang, Qigong Meditation.) The lower dantien places extreme importance as being the sacral chakra area, where despite western medicines attempts to be "anti nutritional detox", western science is now beginning to understand the link between gut health and consciousness. (See Clapp, Megan et al. “Gut microbiota's effect on mental health: The gut-brain axis” Clinics and practice vol. 7,4 987. 15 Sep. 2017). Nonetheless, the flow should be upwards, prana, as opposed to downwards, apana. Nonetheless, sexuality (internal arousal) should only be added into these practices when the chakras (nervous system) can handle that type of high octane shakti where one can properly face their inner psychological demons. Should an adept listen to this hymn, ask Kundalini Devi (in the form of Brahmacharini/Sodashi/Shakti/Divine Feminine Principle, etc.) to take you only as for as you are ready, where an adept may need to take the necessary precautions to ground oneself back to matter. Nonetheless, for a more holistic approach, I would recommend the energy work of Panache Desai to properly cleanse and balance the nadis for ascent. Further, ancestral and past-life karmic issues are embedded in the chakra system, including sexual trauma and external conditioning affecting our creative and social-connection chakra, the sacral. Hence, I would further recommend the work of "hacktivator" Ellyssa Campbell of Dynamic Intention for extensive inner-core work. (See also Sacred Activations). Essentially, don't play with a loaded gun. Once the channels are cleared, the central nervous system uncluttered, then techniques such as "Ankhing" named after the Egyptian "Ankh" allow an adept to move the vital life force in a healing fashion (Melchizedek, Drunvalo, The Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life, V.2). (See also books by the "Bihar School of Yoga" for proper yogic techniques).
In addition, with practices akin to Kriya Yoga, as a side effect of chakra clearings, one tends to release significant muscular tension around the spinal column, which may cause the spine to strengthen and stretch into proper positioning. Such allows for a tube-like sensation to occur that extends from one's crown down towards the perineum, sometimes called "pranic-tube". The pranic-tube aligns one with higher aspects of oneself to further receive messages, healings, downloads, etc. Such seems to be the intended purpose of practices such as the practice of Hatha Yoga, where muscular tension is released, spinal column aligned and stretched, nervous system relaxed, all preparation for the actual yogic-yoking practices to move beyond the material body and move consciousness into samadhi as articulated in Raja Yoga.
Lastly, the Saiva practice of mantra, yantra, and mandala, is quite a potent practice when an adept invokes a feminine shakti, often integrated into one's kundalini as an aspect of the divine feminine principle. Particularly the more destructive, terrific forms of the Goddess, the Goddess holds the ability to destroy ego, or thoughts distracting the mind away from the formless Shiva-Consciousness. Therefore, the practice of mantra sows bijas-seeds that can bring an adept right into the Raja Yoga states as described by Swami Vivekananda, which I can attest regarding the mantras of Kali. Though word of caution, one really needs to develop Bhakti-Love of the destructive forms of the Devi-Goddess, before such invocations, as one must not be frightened by Her symbolism. Should fear arise, invoke Her beloved Shiva.
Hence, Brahmacharini represents the adept or sadhak-vira, just like Siddharta Gautama sitting under a tree, or Jesus and Mohammed sitting in the dessert or cave. Here, sensory deprivation yogic techniques are used to move beyond the typical senses, bring clarity to consciousness, in order to realize who you are outside of the body and outside of the astral-planes of existence, while kundalini shakti releases your material transient attachments. In addition, it is rumored that when one is in their final karmic-lifetime, they take up the worship of Sodashi as she is Tripura Sundari, the most beautiful in the three (3) states of awakened consciousness.
Chandra is the moon, the archetype representing the inner world, including the three states of consciousness. This is confirmation that Parvati is practicing meditative tantrik rites, as the moon is typically associated with the left-hand path. Hence, the crescent moon typically lingers near the tantrik Goddesses' (Dakini, Yakini, etc.; Vajrayogini) forehead. The ultimate goal of engaging the inner world is to move beyond the astrals, into the formless, quite possibly the goal of our globes latest major religion, which is symbolized by the Love of Chandra. Such interpretation seems appropriate given the ancient Tribal practice of stone worship, and the ability for meteorite-tektite stones, such as moldavite, to hold intense pulsations that pull one's consciousness upward, provided they are not negatively programmed.
Here, Parvati achieves at least the beginning of Self-Realization known as Turyia (See Siva Sutras). As found in Saivism, Turyia is to be awake during the three-states of consciousness: 1. wake; 2. sleep; and 3. deep sleep. To be "awake" is to awaken to the Grand Illusion-Mahamaya, and realizes it simply to be a play-lila. This paves the way for the ultimate flowering of the "Sri" essence. (To be awake like Neo in the Matrix.; GodSelf). (See Panache Desai)
Nonetheless, though this appears as a mental state to "achieve", it is actually consciousness' original healthy expression, before psychological conditioning. Such psychological conditioning also includes the grahas, or pull-of-the-planets, as shown from one's astrological road-map printed at the time of one's birth. As a practice derived from ancient Sumer, astrology has been quite similar between East and West with slight variations in calculation, with the Western world evolving to include aspects such as Dark Moon Lilith. (See Laura Walker, Oracle Report). In addition, astrology has been used throughout our history by noteworthy leaders, and was even used by Zoroaster's esoteric group, "the Magi", to locate the Christ. However, as discussed by Vedic astrologer and Kriya Yoga master, Sri Yuketswar to Swami Yogananda, astrology only has an effect, if one has not returned to their original state of consciousness, by and through the resolving of the conditioned mind and return to Self realization (Paramahansa Yogananda, Autobiography of a Yogi). Hence, the planetary pull of one's astrological chart seem to be only guides for one's Self discovery, where such aspects have no pull thereafter.
Hence, Chandraghanta represents Parvati clearing her chakras from transient ego existence (ego-death), awakening her third-eye (astral projection, etc.), and moving into Self-Realization (Unity Consciousness and the Void). As awakening the third-eye is the ultimate weapon against delusion-maya, the comparable archetype may be Bagalamukhi (Mahavidyas) as she moves above the powers of even the Cosmos.
Just as the Greeks have the cosmic orphic egg, Hindus have "Brahmaanda" or the egg-anda of Brahma. Given that Navadurga is about the feminine, Kushmanda is the womb for the cosmic orphic egg. From spirit-purusha, the Goddess returns to matter-prakriti where she creates through vibrations known as gunas. To assist in such massive creation, she uses her shaktis of MahaSarawati, MahaLakshmi, and MahaKali with the masculine will-power counterpart, to harness such energies for creation.
After Chandraghanta moves into the void and returns as unity-consciousness, she is known as Kushmanda who is now creating "all that is", or becoming Self-Actualized, through the Saiva understanding of the law of attraction and vibration, spandasakti. Here, Parvati as full consciousness, returns to the material-transient existence as Queen of the Universe as she has full control over her field of awareness, as consciousness over matter.
Kushmanda's archetype is befitting with the Goddess Bhuvan-"Ishwari" (Mahavidyas), the Queen of the Universe seen as the energy of Sodashi incarnate. She would be the shakti of Visnu, who may be a derivative of Anu of ancient Sumeria, giving us the Mesopotamian title "Ashera" meaning Queen of the Universe to the Akkadians and even the ancient Semites. (Visnu as Anu, See Barbara Marciniak). Such becomes important to note when considering that modern religions may be traced back to ancient Sumer who crafted the idea of crafting humans in "gods" image (See The Fourth Kind).
Kushmanda represents Self-Actualization after full Self-Realization, expressing a beauty and love only a Queen can express when Consciousness is liberated. Just as her divine masculine counterpart is the Devadevam-God of gods, she is the Aztec Coatlicue, the Mother of God.
5. Skandamata (Kotravi-Tribal Goddess)
Skandamata is the aspect of Parvati, who took Skanda's six (6) heads and merged them into one (1). Raised by the Pleiades (Kartikeya), Skanda was solely born of Shiva's seed (Purusha-Consciousness-Spirit; Upward Triangle of the Hexagram) and not Shakti's womb (Prakriti-Physics-Matter; Downward Triangle of the Hexagram). Hence, he is pure-spirit, but anti-matter, where most religions propagate material creator gods. It is important to understand something that the early Gnostic-Christians new, which is that there are "Archonic" beings who will take on the many different names of "God" in order to control and manipulate humanity. Hence, some of these early Christian groups believe the gods of Genesis are simply "mundane deities", or extra-terrestrials who simply terraformed Earth. Such becomes highly plausible when studying ancient Sumer and Mesopotamia, showing the seeds for many of our planetary religions as further described in the Biblical-Tower of Babel representing mankind's ascension vs. archonic control.
Parvati herself gives Skanda the title "guru of gurus" when Skanda teaches Shiva the proper meaning behind the vibration "Aum", the orgasmic sound when purusha-consciousness-shiva and prakriti-matter-shakti collide for the "big bang", the natural pulse of one's inner-core. As "The Guru", Skanda is known as Sanat Kumara. Shiva at his highest is SadaShiva with five (5) heads, four facing the four corners and one unknown face looking upwards. Sanat has six (6) heads, which my intuition believes is SadaShiva helping those downward. For those lost in the material worlds of transient existence, Sanat is "anti-matter" who returns dense Matter back to Spirit. Hence, this archetype is not a creator archetype, but an anti-creator. In other words, he would fit the proper definition, sans dogma, of "Satan".
"Satan" is Hebrew for "opponent" or "adversary", where many Rabbi's have hinted at the Biblical "Satan" as being opponents of the Jewish people. It is further important to note the evolution of the word Satan as used in Jewish-Christian-Islam, is derived from Mesopotamia and Sumer given that the ancient Semites merely adopted the Caananite-Phoenician culture including language (Scheindlin, Raymond, A Short History of the Jewish People). Hence, the ancient understanding of "Satan" may be significantly different compared to the Dante Alighieri description plaguing modern religion. Such is contrary to the Christian "horned god-lord of the beast" who holds a "pitchfork" and is identified with a "serpent", and is called a devi(l). Such most likely is derived when Zoroastrianism took on more dualist colorings in later historical periods, where it became the Asuras (Avesta-Aryan: Ahura-Mazda & Vedic-Aryan: Varuna, and Mithra) vs. the Devis (modern Hindu deities; Siva, Visnu in opposition to Indra). Both Aryan traditions originally held both Devas and Asuras in high esteem, where it was in later literature that they were polarized. It is important to note that Mithra, the roman deity who Constantine used to craft his future religion, comes from Aryan-Zoroastrianism, where it make sense to craft your "adversary" to look like a Devi. Actual Biblical passages of satan and hell are extremely minimal to nonexistent, where these traditions have had to look elsewhere to craft their opponents (including the deities of the conquered groups as evidenced when studying the roots of demons in demonology).
In further East meets West, Sanat Kumara is also closely tied to the Middle Eastern esoteric group, the Yezidis, as represented by Melek Taus, the peacock angel. In terms of symbolism, the peacock represents the full flowering of spirit consciousness ("Sri" or the energy of "Mt. Meru"), as wonderfully depicted by Sri Krishna. Melek Taus is also considered to be a "fallen" angel, a Prometheus who brought fire to humanity against the will of the creator gods. Hence, the neighboring groups who share the same heritage regarding angels have targeted the Yezidis calling them devil-worshipers as they go against societal traditions-culture and have practices such as gnosis contradictory to blind-faith religions. (See Russell, Gerard, Heirs to Forgotten Kingdoms.) Hence, to invoke Sanat Kumara is to destroy one's ego-self, our attachment to material existence, in order to return to atma-spirit, Father-God, God as the formless beyond Prakriti (ParamaAtma).
Skandamata helps those who are similarly walking the Dharma, like a Vajrayogini, especially for those that are lost in delusion. Like a "Lucifer", a rebel angel, Skanda holds the light and reminds those walking in the dark of the "Holy Father". Nonetheless, for the harsher energies that Skanda must remove, his mother Kotravi like most tribal Indian Goddesses loves red wine, the perfect duo. Because of the repetitive puranic lore of an Asura-Demon being given a powerful boon, and the Devi-Angels looking for help, Skanda's purport is quite similar to Durga's, to kill a demon. Hence, similar to Durga, Skanda is considered the Hindu God of "war", and is sometimes portrayed similar to Archangel Michael, in being the closest to God. (See Satguru Sivaya Subramuniyaswami, Lemurian Scrolls). Why the concept of a "fallen" angel? How else are these beings to understand the plight of humanity other than to attempt themselves to reconnect with the "Father" again. As the Yezidi's seems to articulate, a fallen angel is not "evil", but simply an essence that lost its connection, "fallen". Such angels hold the ability to reconnect as opposed to this perpetual hell which holds no Biblical basis. Should there be an actual "devil" or "archon" as called by the Gnostic Christians, the channelings of Napoleon Hill in his Outwitting The Devil best describe this energy and the way it works, in terms of manipulating well-conditioned minds by and through education, nationalism, and religion. For a real experience on archonic-god beings, have your "j/j-seals" psychically removed, disturbing energies that limit one's sovereignty, where I recommend Ellysa Campbell of "Dynamic Intention".
Actual "Satanism" does not rely with the hollywood philosopher Anton Lavey with his The Satanic Bible, but rather with cults such as "Fraternitas Saturni" who understand the astrological aspects of Saturn-Shani and its correlation with karma. As S. Edred Flowers states, Saturnus is the "governor of the revealed world and lord over life and death, and over the light and darkness. Saturnus is seen as the breaker of cosmic order and unity - thus he instituted death, causing regeneration and change to come into being. One of the ways in which he broke the cosmic order was in the revelation of divine secrets to mankind. For this he was punished. Thus in many ways Saturnus is identicial with Prometheus of Greek tradition, and is certainly to be identified as well with the Serpent of Paradise"(Fire and Ice). In Vedic astrology, Saturn-Shani is the student of Kala-Kali Bhairava, space and time. In Qabalist terminology, Saturn represents Binah, the sephiroth over the abyss and quite possibly the "mystery" of Da'ath. What may have been the "original" Sun, Saturn is prominent in most traditions including the noted holiday Christmas-Saturnalia where the Catholic church has used such symbolism since its inception rehashing the teachings of the masculine-era of the age of the dying god, Osiris, who was also cut-up and spread about (Sati). Nonetheless, such implies that all, regardless of the left-hand or right-hand paths differentiation, are attempting to be free of karma. Therefore, minimizing to ending suffering is the goal of every proper path, where the lack of a historical separation of a church and state, where priests were essentially politicians, has created a religion from the perspective that the masses should "humiliate" itself before a political egregore, regardless of the "religious" name used to identify such a thought-form.
In addition, the occultist Crowley coined the often misrepresented motto, "Do What Thou Wilt" in addition to the often edited-out portion "Love is the Law", where the cryptic Crowley is simply saying to follow one's divine will after locating one's Higher Guardian Angel (Self-Realization; See The Book Of the Sacred Magic of Abramelin the Mage). In enacting one's "divine will", one furthers manifestation via the concepts of "law of attraction" by and through following one's heart, or Joseph Campbell's "follow your bliss". Mystical writings, in the hands of conditioned-minds produces riot, where Crowley's statement is still today often represented by orthodox dogmatics as a license to commit any expression, when truly such statement is simply a rehash of "the kingdom come, thy will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven", a common orthodox Christian prayer. In looking beyond religion into the many different aspects of society, a well-conditioned mind is quite easy to manipulate, including distracting from the Truth by demonization and other "NLP/MK Ultra/etc." tactics that have ingrained concepts of dualistic religion creating fears of hel(l)vegen, politicians pinning compassionate liberals versus pragmatic conservatives, race wars which appear to be following the script of Hollywood's companion "helter skelter", and gender separation having consistently embedded such archetypes into the human psyche repressing the feminine aspects of all of humanity. Such is reminiscent of the ancient Roman Stadiums, sports entertainment used by the Roman leaders to distract the masses away from a failing empire, where visual heroine appears to be the best arrow in the mind-conditioning quiver. Sedate the masses, pin them against each other, and those that created the conditioning walk away clean as the unknown players behind the global game of chess. Returning to terminology and dogmatic interpretations, here it is important to note that the concept of Hel(l) has been adopted by Christians, as Christian texts are moot in description. Further, even the term "Hel(l)" is an adoption from Norse terminology, where the concept of the Norse "Hel", meaning "grave", is drastically different than the Christian Hel(l) where the Norse were ignorant of a punishment in an afterlife (McCoy, Daniel, The Viking Spirit). An adept must ask, the animal-body is necessary for sensory stimulation, so how does one "suffer" without a vessel with the inability to release the required hormones for fear and pain, in a Hel(l). The adage, "think outside of the box" should apply here, but of course, some hold a belief-conditioning that corpses shall rise again, even with the understanding that Jesus traditionally did not return after ascension in his "recognizable" form.
Therefore, Skandamata represents the aspect of shakti that ensures what is ready to let go does not sow seeds to sprout again. She is the aspect of time that destroys to ensure constant evolution for an adepts intended goal.
Katyayani would be the one that resembles Durga the most, as in the buffalo demon slayer. However, Katyayani also plays a dual role where her mantras, as provided on other websites, are geared towards marriage. Katyayani is also found in the Vaisnava tradition, under the Srimad Bhagvatam, where Katyayani was worshiped by the gopis (cow-herd girls) so that the gopis may "marry" Krishna.
Katyayani is probably the fiercest form due to this being her battle image, with the following Kalaratri being the most frightening. In addition, the term "Katyayani" and the word "cut" as established through "Kolkata/Calcutta/Golgatha" shows sacrifice. In the yogic sense, this would be sacrificing the ego (finite consciousness), so that one may be a pure vessel for the divine (supra consciousness). Hence, Katyayani resembles Dakshina Kali in the Navadurga pantheon, as the Ego-Slayer, a saviouress who cuts our attachments/sins away.
A byproduct of yogic awakenings is the dance of the Goddess Kundalini. All shaktis are merely attempts to engage the Kundalini energy slithering serpent at the bottom of the spine. Firstly, the two (2) nadis should be cleansed, the masuline and feminine, where then the adept will have proper spinal flow in the susumna. The conclusion of such results in the "alchemical marriage" as articulated by western occultists and depicted by the medical caduceus also known as the Staff of Hermes (the Hermetic Tradition and the Upanisads are the same; Self-Discovery).
Therefore, Katyayani represents yogic completion with both "ego-death" and the "alchemical-marriage", which I feel is more properly portrayed as Chinnamasta (Mahavidyas). She would be a "twin-flame" Goddess, where her archetype invokes the balance and unification of the nadis, also known as Ardhanarishvara (unification of Shiva-Shakti; Consciousness/Spirit and Matter). Unification of the nadis would be marriage to divinity. In terms of an external romantic marriage, well "as within, so without", but that depends on one's soul expression and divine blueprint. Nonetheless, the reason why Ramakrishna would worship his wife Sarada Devi as Goddess Sodashi. For unification of inner polarities, I would recommend the activations of Jen McCarty (Mata-Hari Ji).
Oddly, like Shiva's highest form as Sadashiva, Arhanarishvara is not widely venerated, where such worship was kept in small cults. Nonetheless, master Adi Shankara, wrote a powerful hymn known as the Ardhanareeshwar Strotam in honor of the divine union that is properly placed for Katyayani prayer.
Kala-ratri simply means time-night, or nighttime. Nonetheless, the metaphor runs deep as this phase is the "Dark Night of the Soul" an adept faces, well articulated by St. John of the Cross. [Collected Works; ICS].
After Katyayani shreds one's energy field to pieces, what is to come of all the remaining "blood". As physicists would state, energy is never destroyed, just changes in atomic structure. So how do we ensure that each of the drops relinquished from our chakra system, our vital-life-force, are not seeds waiting to re-sprout Karma? The divine mother voraciously devours our karma drop by drop to transmute.
Kalaratri is best suited as Smashan Kali, one who is fond of cemeteries. In terms of the three (3) vibrations that gather to create atoms known as gunas, such is how mother nature forms herself. Smashan Kali would represent the guna tamas, the harsher tones of existence. She is the kundalini turned on to the maximum, where you have to face your issues to move beyond tamas into sattva (Dakshina Kali). Balance of the two (2) results in raja (Maha Kali). Another befitting archetype would be the Goddess Bhairavi (Mahavidyas), who like Kalaratri seems to work on purging harsher energies within one's energy field-consciousness. While Sodashi is the most beautiful within the three (3) states of consciousness, well, you have Bhairavi on the other end.
The result of Smashan Kali is the removal of harsher energies from the energetic system that leaves one feeling fresh, with the heart of an innocent child. As Jesus said, "Truly I say to you, unless you are converted and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven." (Matthew 18:3; NASB). Moreover, the Kundalini energy under the guidance of this archetype burns away fear, allowing the adept to maintain "stillness" in returning to their day to day activities with a new "lease on life". In addition, one's autonomic nervous system associated with the "fight or flight" response appears to be minimized where one approaches circumstances from a place of objectivity as opposed to emotional projections. Though labelled as "lizard brain" by pop culture, Carl Sagan was more than intuitive (and a proponent of Cannabis). As Sagan reports, "[d]eep inside the skull of every one of us there is something like a brain of a crocodile. Surrounding the R-complex is the limbic system or mammalian brain, which evolved tens of millions of years ago in ancestors who were mammal but not yet primates. It is a major source of our moods and emotions, of our concern and care for the young. And finally, on the outside, living in uneasy truce with the more primitive brains beneath, is the cerebral cortex; civilization is a product of the cerebral cortex.” (Cosmos p.276–277).
Further, the goal is "ascension", which has been alluded to by mystics overtime preserved subtly throughout our diverse cultures and backgrounds. Even modern day pop culture attempts to assist in seeding such conscious evolution, such as the band Tool who in their song 46 and 2 allude to the "metamorphosis" occurring "within" due to "shadow-work" evolving human DNA.
Hence, Kalaratri is walking through the "dark night of the soul", where the Kundalini energy reaches the crown chakra, or at least works on the worst of the lower chakras, which can be an intense period for an adept. This is where Siddharta Gautama would be tempted by maya, or the dense aspect of illusion that creates delusion. Similarly, this is where Jesus faced his own inner demons as they are solely reflections of consciousness residing in the depths of our own subconscious, which is connected to the collective-consciousness. Such is the yogic path of transcendence, in order to rise above and be sovereign, or as Jesus would say, "I am the way ..." (John 14:6; NASB).
8. MahaGauri (White) & Kaushiki (Black)
Intuitively, it seems proper to place Mahagauri as the aspect of Parvati who has accomplished her "dark night of the soul". Just as Mahagauri helps those on the right-hand path, the dark skin of Mahagauri is said to become another Goddess, Goddess Kaushiki, which may be more on the left-hand path. The practice of Advaita is unity, hence, unification of the right hand and left hand paths, where I feel very little importance is provided to Kaushiki in puritanical dualist standards (and obviously fear of the dark-side). Nonetheless, the tantras clearly articulate the left-hand (vama) to be the stage above the right-hand path (daksina), which then leads to Siddhant. After all, enlightenment is not lighting a candle in broad daylight, but in the dark of one's own subconscious-collective unconscious.
Very little is known of Kaushiki, and my estimation is based on very few websites lacking in proper citations, etc. Nonetheless, Kaushiki is referenced as Dhumavati (Mahavidya) on one website, though lacking in proper articulation as to why. Nonetheless, Dhumavati makes sense since it is MahaGauri who weds Shiva, not Kaushiki leaving Kaushiki as a widow. It is from the ashes of Sati that Dhumavati is created (and my belief of the inception of Bhutas, Preetis, etc. to dissolve Dakshas Yajna). Dhumavati is the miserable old hag archetype, the widow. Without Shiva (consciousness-awareness), Shakti (Prakriti-Physics-the Matrix-MahaMaya) has no reason to dance (lila) by and through the dance of the gunas. Hence, Dhumavati is pure matter, no spirit, the opposite of her grandson Skanda. My intuitive imagery of Dhumavati is quite like that of the Norse-Aryan Valkyrie, who may be warriorress' lost in battle or the widows of warriors taking the deceased to Valhalla. Like Skanda, the "guru of gurus", Dhumavati is the guru of the Das-Mahavidyas. Hence, to invoke Dhumavati, especially when one is "miserably" walking through the dark night, is to bring "wisdom" to your misery and help you achieve psychological "stillness", as Dhumavati is the void beyond consciousness (Shiva), the Upanisadic-Hermetic Valhalla. Such imagery is quite impressive given that the vahana-vehicle of Goddess Dhumavati is none other than Odin's ravens, one of Mother Natures greatest alchemists. It is also important to note that the bija of Dhumavati's mantra is the same as Durga's, Dhoom. Hence, Skanda is the guru of pure spirit, Dhumavati is the guru of pure matter or the black dot in yang.
Further, Kaushiki Amavasya (New Moon) is very important in Bengali tantra, as the day where heaven and hell commingle. Kaushiki Amavasya is important for the Goddess Tara (Mahavidya-Tibetan) who is black in India, but often white in Tibet (among other colors). Tara is specifically celebrated at the Tarapith during Kaushiki Amavasya accepting both Vedic and Tantrik rites, and is noted for it's own Ramakrishna counterpart, Bhamakhepa the tantrik madly sane-saint. Though Kaushiki Amavasya may not be related to Goddess Kaushiki directly, where Kaushiki may simply mean the "dark-new" moon, the dualist nature of black and white is befitting.
In addition, Kaushiki is also labelled as Mahasaraswati on certain websites, though without further articulation. It is established that Saraswati is often identified as Matangi (Mahavidyas), which can make sense to depict Saraswati as an archetypal "black" Goddess as opposed to an archetypal "white" Goddess, or both where she is the swan capable of extracting water from mud. Brahma is forever chasing Saraswati, like Orion chasing the Pleiades. For Brahma to reach the energy of perfection (Saraswati), there would be no point for Visnu (manager-beautifier) and Shiva (destroyer-transcendent). Hence, it makes sense if Saraswati hides among outcastes under the guise of Matangi, away from the Brahmins. Such dualistic nature describing the ebb and flow of existence, often depicted as the differing shades of the eternal moon, is consistently depicted throughout numerous traditions, including Goddess Pele who creates and destroys as the byproduct nature of a volcano. Nonetheless, the harmonious balance of dualistic forces in this sense produces "diamonds", which can be best expressed by the beauty of the heart of ancient Lemuria and her Children.
From a meditative perspective, I take note of a fellow Self-seeker Aleister Crowley (reincarnation of Edward Kelley, John Dee's skryer re Enochian Magick; also See Jack Parsons, and L. Ron. Hubbard by and through Jason Louv) who stated, "my adepts stand upright; their head above the heavens, their feet below the hells". Just as Crowley struggled through the dark, he at least passed the torch to his bretheren. The archonic-material-mundane-egoic-gods may condemn one to an astral hell, but the Divine Mother has always loved you, even at your darkest. If you understand that Bhutas-Ghosts are the Divine Mother's "Cult of Fire", you will understand that you have nothing to fear, for love is everything, like a rabbit safely playing in the dark. This is the invincibility known as nonduality, mastery over mindstates. This is Mother Goddess, the natural wonder, the master alchemist that leads one to Soma (One with Uma).
Similar in one's assessment of Skanda, one must remember these are not dualist schools of teachings plaguing humanity, of good versus evil, saint versus sinner, and the many colorings thereof. The devil, as shown in the tarot, a complete divination system holding universal archetypes, is simply one's obstacles or delusions while in egoic-material (qliphoth) existence that exist for one's conscious evolution. The devil is simply your karmic-mental attachments externally showing up for you to alter your perspectives to reach a higher wisdom. The true "evil" in the world, is the conditioned-consciousness, where one's true-vibration and alignment can easily be manipulated by external fanatical influence. It is where logic is subdued through mental conditioning and belief systems, blocking the intuitive hemisphere of the brain to truly speak and guide logic, where one is then on a cyclical-habit lost on the wheel of Samsara-Wanderings. (See Napoleon Hill's, Outwitting the Devil.)
The Divine Mother is Kaushiki veiled as Saraswati, the Goddess Isis veiled as the Madonna.
She is love of thy Self.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mind enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever."
Siddhidhatri is granting of siddhis-accomplishments. Siddhis are yogic "achievements" or psychic abilities where one understands Self (Self-Realization) and manifestation through Self (Self-Actualization). Nonetheless, Self-Realization is the goal, where people normally stop their growth at the development of basic Siddhis, inappropriately portraying themselves as "masters" and "gurus", which becomes a karmic attachment. Hence, the reason Patanjali stressed transcending the siddhis in his Yoga Sutras.
Nonetheless, Vianna Stibal in her incredible Seven Planes of Existence, properly describes "virtues" that one must attain in order to enact such "siddhas", including the virtues of compassion, service, tolerance, and forgiveness. It appears that such virtues can only be established when the adept is challenged in "walking through the valley of the shadow of death". Such is notable given who Jesus actually frolicked with, as opposed to the religious scholars of the time. Like Saraswati-Matangi, where will you find Jesus today, in the Church? Further, it is typically when one faces hardships in their life where growth and progress is forged, often astrologically found through the aspects of Saturn-Shani in one's chart, showing that contrast exists solely for conscious development.
Therefore, the ability to actually obtain and manage siddhas goes back to, Bhakti Yoga, as I've best found in the Vaishnava Bhakti movement, particularly Swami Prabhupada's ISKCON who follows the lead of Chaitanya Mahaprabhu. With the occult concept of an egregore, and the understanding of the evolution of such a deity through tantrik practices, the character of Krishna has evolved to embody the highest philosophies of the Upanisad-Hermetic Self-Realization schools, where like Shiva the yogi, Krishna is turiya-awake to the three states of his consciousness. In addition, he embodies the most beautiful shakti of the three states of consciousness as Sri-Vidya, the flowering of the most beautiful wisdom. While Shiva-Moses-Jesus-Siddharta-Padmasambhava-Mohammed and countless others taught us to raise our consciousness into "unity-consciousness" and thereafter the formless beyond, to reconnect humanity's consciousness to the original state before the "fall", Krishna-Dionysus-Jesus (the Peter "Pan" of Ancient Lemuria) shows us the flowering of such consciousness in material existence. Shiva is the formless, Krishna the form as the evolution of the multidimensional oversoul known as Visnu. If one cannot love "all that is" being lost in the dualist concepts of heaven and hell, good and evil, one creates a God. But in developing Bhakti for that God, one falls in love with "all that is", and realizes that there is nothing but God, consciousness. Like the the fanatical bliss of the Hare Krishna's chants, or the Sufi Dervish swirling in bliss, how else does one awaken the high heart other than consistently implanting the image of the divine within such quarters. How else does one take a proper breath bringing one into stillness, without breathing from the root into the topmost of the lungs of the high heart chakra. When the high heart is cleared with the divine beloved firmly implanted, with also a crown open to the light of one's higher wisdom and expression, such produces avatar consciousness.
"Truly, truly, I say to you, he who believes in Me the works that I do, he will do also; and greater works than these he will do; because I go to the Father." (John 14: 12; NASB)
Siddhidhatri is the understanding that the divine feminine principle known as Shakti inherit in all of us, which holds the ability to grant gnosis, or telepathic realizations and unity consciousness. With the cleansing of the two (2) nadis, you have a proper balancing of the masculine and feminine brain hemispheres, the marriage of logic (Christ the Logos) and intuition (Christ the Sophia). You have inner-completion where the adept becomes whole.
Therefore, Siddhidhatri is the final marriage and balancing of Shiva-Purusha-Spirit and Shakti-Prakriti- Matter, and the Kamala-Lakshmi (Mahavidyas) who grants blessings to her devotees by and clearing away blockages to intuition by and through one's own Kundalini shakti.
Siddhidhatri is the bhoga after yoga, when one is consciously lost in God-Consciousness and manifesting thereof.
...the core task of Sadhana is to bring about the union between the individual soul and the supreme soul. And the primary rule in order to effectuate this object is Vayu Dharana, which is practically accomplished through breath-control or pranayama.
Like the ancient Sumerian Inanna (predates the Rg Veda by roughly 2,000 yrs) who went down into the underworld and came out an immortal after facing seven (7) judges/gates of underworld, and just as Mary Magdalene was cured for her seven (7) demons as stated in mark 16:9, we have Parvati who teaches humanity to follow suit. Also, a Goddess of War, Inanna was stated to have authority over the Harrapan Civilization (See the works of Zecharia Sitchin; Barbara Marciniak). That make sense when you see the vahana-vehicle of Goddess Inanna.
My gratitude's to the historical collective-energy who has kept these symbols alive with a passion. Though I may have offended plenty with my anti-establishment, pure atma-expression moksha-liberation ideals as embedded most beautifully in the shakti of MahaLiberty, crafted by an organization that is attempting to climb thirty-three (33) steps on that inner-stairwell as depicted in the apotheosis of Washington akin to the Goat of Mendes ... as the masculine, there is only one that I hope to have done justice to, that is the divine feminine principle. Our beloved High Priestess, through stillness she proved she was invincible, even after she cast herself into the fires after the priestly caste, the gods and goddesses, and the alleged warriors, akin to Salem, disrespected Her beloved Guru who Loves All of Creation. What really happened at the Tower of Babel, where Humanity tried to Ascend? Who is the real "Nimrod", the mighty hunter and Lord of the Beast, and why is this other god, afraid of such? Though I prefer blueprints, what were the masons, not "free" to build? Did the real masters give us commandments, or did they teach us the way the universe works through Karma so we can logically understand what we have intuitively always known? What would Jesus do, smite someone, or Forgive when the status-quo humiliates Him the most, and then usurps His Holy Name. Someone doesn't want you to know the Truth when Humanity's Towers fall, but do not forget that from such pure-atomic-dust, can evolve a Star.
The ceremony of Navadurga is the ritual act of showing that it is through stillness that we become invincible. It is the reminder that the Goddess never left us, even after Her great sacrifice. As Sri Vidya-Pistis Sophia, she will return again and again to bring wisdom when consciousness is struggling as an individuated-ego-identity lost in her maya-illusion-matrix. She is the love that the sacrificial dying god of the Age of Pisces has been searching for, to birth a new age where we take the best of all of our traditions, the Tanakh/Bible/Quran studied with the Qabalah, the Vedas studied with the Tantras, the Exoteric studied with the Esoteric, and individually empower each sovereign human being, an individuated aspect of highly evolved consciousness. Intellectual intelligence meets emotional intelligence, the yang and the yin.
Navadurga is the liberation-moksha of one's spirit-consciousness while in prakriti-material existence, despite your creed, caste, gender, etc. It is the discovery of one's own conscious-Self, the kingdom within, where “to not let the kingdom become a desert within you ... and those that believe in this kingdom will never leave it, not even if the Father wants to banish him” (Secret Book of James, Nag Hammadi texts). Such is how information is to be revealed, inspiring awe-like reverence, as a remembering, and realizing, leading one to their personal Apokalypsis.
When one brings in more and more conscious awareness into the ego-identity that is the human vessel sans its numerous identifications, including the lighter photons that make up the lighter layers of one's subtler forms coined as the "noumenon" of "phenomenal" existence, by detaching from material-transient-samsara-matrix-physics-atomic existence, one realizes that it is one's own Vibratory Unique but Connected Self that Generates from your lower chakras, Operates from your middle ones, and Destroys with your higher ones, both material and intangible transient existence. Despite what "permission slip" you use on your journey of Self discovery, remember that the goal is to remember who you really are and who have always been. True spirituality is not learning something new, but the hatching of the hidden gems within you in your journey of discovering your highest and best version of you. Bringing your True Self and its Expression into the animal-human body and its entrapping within transient existences, is to do what Avatars do.
Navadurga is the Harmonious Connection between "Spirit and Matter", where "Thy Will is done on Earth as it is in Heaven", where "as Above, so Below", for in the Cosmos, every Man and Woman is a Star.
Navadurga is the Guru of the Avatars, for it is in Stillness that we become Invincible, a message for the Children of God and Goddess. After All, Her Secret Name unknown in the ancient texts, is to be Invoked First before the Masculine, His Most Beloved "Sri Radha".
Feel Her Seed-Bija of ruthlessly cutting Away Your attachments via your Own God-Given Kundalini. Feel Her Vibration Enveloping You and Reminding You that You have Always Been Invincible! Whether She's holding a sword to Protect You, or Cut You, Remember that She Always Loves You! If You're afraid of the sword, do Not worry, Her Students Taught that Compassion and Forgiveness is the Best Way to Karmicklly Let Go. But Be Aware, for the Tongue is Mightier than the sword!
Om Kring Kalkiye Namah!
(I Cut away All of material forms and transient existences that keep me away from the Truth of Wisdom).
Om Dhoom Durgayai Namah!
(In my own egoic-death of losing my identity to any form, in being one with the formless, I realize that my Consciousness is Invincible, as I meditatively linger in Sat-"Conscious of Existing", Chit-"Having some feeling of Presence", and Ananda-"Bliss of Letting Go and Letting God").
(I Am Pure Unblemished Consciousness ,an Aspect of Infinite Awareness! I Am The Multidimensional Holy Spirit and Much More Than ... That!)
(Please do not mind, the numerous amount of name-dropping in this piece was from personal study and experience, not for commercial purposes. Therefore, in my citations, I did not ask anyone for permission. All apologies if harm was done, and a simple request will have your information removed. It takes a village, well, at least it did for me. Blessings and a very warm thank you.)
I chose to brush off working with the angels for some time, as I didn't have a proper understanding of their lineage. Angels are mostly associated with the Judeo-Christian-Islamic traditions, and I didn't know enough about Judaism to really want to work with these beings.
From my research, Judaism is quite similar to the belief systems surrounding the ancient Hebrews during early times, particularly the Canaanites. In fact, according to professor Jodi Magness in her coursework Holy Land Revealed (The Greater Courses), the Hebrew language comes from the Canaanites aka Phoenicians. It is my current understanding (more than subject to change) that much of the Old Testament is simply ancient Jewish politics, where the ancient Hebrews had issues with the Samaritans (hence, the "good samaritan" concept) and of course, the Babylonians, among many neighbors. The deities of the neighboring traditions are either incorporated and syncretized in Judaism (included in the different names of god), or become the demons, the adversary (Satan) of Judaism. Hence, the reason why the oral tradition (mysticism) becomes extremely important in Jewish spirituality.
Though more evidence is needed to be gathered, I'm under the impression that the traditions of the Middle East that help influence Judaism are simply derivatives of ancient Sumer. In fact, some factions of the early Gnostic Christians, the Essenes, believed the creator gods of the Old Testament to be false mundane deities (Yadlabaoth), who tried passing themselves off as the "Absolute". Mix the Gnostic Christian view with the understanding that Judaism may be a derivative of ancient Sumer, you essentially have belief-systems crafted by the extra-terrestrial family of Anu, or Annunaki.
So the idea that "angels" may be minions for the Annunaki is definitely a logical concept I've been grappling with, in choosing whether I should be working with these energies. I'm unsure if these beings are derived from Sumer, or if they are the "daemons" that Solomon worked with in his temple. Nonetheless, the only way to really know, I assume, is to dive in and meet them.
As I was meditating on Archangel Michael, asking him to heal me and clear my space, help me let go of what no longer serves the highest and best, a couple of people popped into my imagination. I felt the urge to provide them a with a healing, particularly a technique learned from one of my mentors, Dr. Lauren Cielo (Golden Rose Psychic). I imagine a rose symbolic of the individual requiring a healing, grounded that rose to the Earth, and asked the Absolute to bring a healing cord down onto the rose before I ask one of my guides to take that rose to the intended individual. I prefer this method of healing, as the Absolute decides what is required, not the practitioner.
I've practiced Dr. Cielo's techniques, including the above-described roses technique since 2015, and was not expecting anything unusual from this morning's healing session meditation. However, as soon as I imagined the cord drop down from the Absolute on to the rose, in seeing the beauty of this cord that had an electric flare, Archangel Michael's essence vehemently bolstered "BE IN AWE, FOR YOU ARE IN THE PRESENCE OF THE DIVINE". Though it sounded like a command, as soon as the Archangel stated "...AWE..", my body naturally released the hormonal chemical cocktail that put me in significant AWE of that shiny electric cord that dropped from the sky onto my "imaginary" flower. It wasn't just like a command you would here in the military, but it was a direct statement to my intuition where my body immediately submitted. This was an experience that I can't deny. This Archangel is bold with a voice that commands to be heard.
This experience with Archangel Michael was a game changer for me. I have a new appreciation for Angels, as well as my practice of working with the Absolute. The Absolute being the energy behind the form of our masters, Krishna as Brahman consciousness, Jesus as Kether consciousness, and the realms above Brahman and Kether, it is essentially the Kingdom-Within Jesus spoke of in the Nag Hammadi texts. Archangel Michael is said to be the closest to God, and can bring one to the "face" of God. Hence, I think Michael would be the Archangel that brings one extremely close to Krishna-Buddha-Christ Consciousness, also known as Self-Realization.
HARK! O YE CHILDREN OF MEN! BOW THINE HEADS, YE SONS OF MEN; FOR THE GLORY OF THE LORD IS THINE, WILL YE BE FAITHFUL TO THE TRUST THAT IS PUT IN EACH OF YOU! KNOW IN WHOM YE HAVE BELIEVED! KNOW THAT HE IS LORD OF ALL, AND HIS WORD FAILETH NOT TO THEM THAT ARE FAITHFUL DAY BY DAY: FOR I, MICHAEL, WOULD PROTECT THOSE THAT SEEK TO KNOW HIS FACE!
There have been two traditions that have affected me the most in my spiritual seeking. The deep wisdom of Advaita-Saivism with an adoration for Goddess Sri Vidya (Wisdom), and the deep mystery of Essene-Christianity with an adoration for Goddess Sophia (Wisdom), glued together by the Qabalist tree of life.
When I think of Jesus, I see Shiva, the most accomplished "yogi" who has completely "yoked" with God. Essentially, an adept, vira, who has completely conqured their animal self, pasu, and has become divine, divya. Someone who is no longer run on karmic-psychological programs, but a pure-vessel for pure-divine-conscious-awareness. Someone whose consciousness has become Kether within Malkuth, Shiva within Jiva, Infinite Consciousness within Individual Consciousness, God within Ego.
Theologians may quarrel, but the mystics of the world speak the same language.
Overly educated and continuously exploring and revealing more behind the veil.
"It cannot be too highly emphasized that the mystic swims in the same waters in which the psychotic drowns."
-James Wasserman, The Mystery Traditions