The year began with me diving heavily into ancient tantrik texts, including Arthur Avalon's translation of the Tantraja Tantra. To complement, Mike Magee's The Magic of Kali (www.shivashakti.com) have been immense in assisting with this mysterious topic. The material studied pushed my understanding of Dakshina Kali and her consort Mahakala (Kal Bhairava), where the Kala-Kali dynamic is essentially an understanding of the time-space/space-time matrix of our egoic (jiva) existence. Though I have yet to make the parallels, I wonder if the Tibetan Buddhist Kalachakra Initiation transmits the same gnosis. Nonetheless, as per chance, the month of March held two full moons, March 1 and March 31, making March 2018 an interesting scheduling to work with the Nityas.
The Nityas represent the eternal aspects of the Goddess, represented as separate deities. As shown by the eternal, but yet ever-changing moon, the Nityas represent the transient nature of existence. Like the yin and the yang, the light and shadow transition upon the moon, but the moon remains the same. Understanding "as above and so below" with the moon representing the inner-domains, the depths of the psyche, the Nityas become energies that deprogram limiting beliefs (karma) and reprogram (harmony) the subconscious. Further, as shown as chronological phases, the Nityas may be described as a sexual dalliance, pointing to the psycho-mystical correlations of moving prana inwardly upwards, extremely effective should the nervous system be free from chakra-blocks (psychological issues correlating to each chakra).
Kali's Nityas represent the waning moon, where the shadow aspect of the moon increases until the complete darkness of the new moon. These Nityas resemble the terrifying aspects of Kali in imagery and vibration. Though the invocation mantras were highly effective in pushing my central nervous system and ending with a peace-of-mindfulness with new clarity and inner space, the first half of the month was essentially the dark night of the soul. However, as Kali's Nityas walked with me through my shadow, any and all limiting beliefs that arose were easily cleared away. Nonetheless, my body paid its toll, with the month beginning with a strange illness akin to "ascension-flu" like symptoms as described by others for this 2018 time-period. Overall, working with the Kali Nityas was an intense experience where everything else in my life was forced to slow down for the allowance of integration.
Kali strikes with popularity most likely due to her terrifying imagery. Nonetheless, one of the most important deities, though quite unknown in much of the Hindu world, is Lalita Tripura-Sundari. It is said that those that have been called by Lalita are in their last karmic lifetime. Lalita is described as Tripura Sundari, or the most beautiful in the three (3) worlds (states of consciousness). Shown as a sixteen (16) year old known as Sodashi, Lalita enters the glories of adulthood, but with the heart of a child. She represents the newness and freshness of the moment, viewing the world as a playful child ready to explore, without the heavy psychological programming that keeps one limited.
Moving from the Kali Nityas to the Lalita Nityas was a bit unfamiliar for me. Instead of feeling fierce energies ready to put me through work, I lingered in this calm playfulness which still had psyche clearing energies, but with a bit of sweetness. Nonetheless, there seems to more reprogramming then deprogramming with these energies, all of which pushed me into more expansive states of joy and bliss. Basically, it feels like my central nervous system has dropped significant baggage to allow sensations to freely flow through me. With Lalita, that energy is extremely loving, peaceful, and childlike playful.
Overall, working with the Nitya's helped me traverse my emotional-sensational boundaries. With new inner clarity and space, I'm mentally cleaner but feel more deeply. Moreover, sexual arousal is no longer a genitalia sensation, but a dance with my nervous system that releases long-held bodily tension particularly around my spine. Mostly, my ability to love has emotionally deepened, with the return of innocence provided that so much baggage has been let go.
In essence, working with the Nityas has been fruitful but physically demanding. I've used numerous successful energy healers-channelers to cleanse the subconscious, but none have been as fierce as the Kali Nityas that left a noticeable blissful space within my cranium. Not sure what is to come hereafter, or if I'm even close to releasing all the old baggage that has kept me limited. My only intention in beginning this ritual was to bring myself closer to Kali and deepen my experiences of Advaita. However, I feel the depth of this ritual to be far more reaching, to arise within me when it is relevant for my experience. Nonetheless, the greatest siddha probably derived from this practice, and probably any practice, is to bring your heart back to its natural childlike state.
This ritual with the Nityas was the one that really activated my high-heart chakra. Nonetheless, I'm blessed to have thirty (30) new energies to help guide me. March 2018 was exhausting but successful. Now to only hope for some flowering this spring.
Night of Lord Kal Bhairava
From Chaos man seeks to create Cronos.
But that which I seek is Kairos.
"Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand and Eternity in an Hour".
Overly educated and continuously exploring and revealing more behind the veil.
"It cannot be too highly emphasized that the mystic swims in the same waters in which the psychotic drowns."
-James Wasserman, The Mystery Traditions