The full moon of October 16, 2016 feels like one for the records. My morning are normally spent fighting off thoughts, an attempt to keep mental serenity so I don't blow my fuse early in the day. However, this super moon, I woke up with clarity and and blissful sensation of emptiness inside. Like a still pond of water, there were no typical ripples to create waves of delusion. I was knowingly still, calm, refreshed, a feeling that I hoped would appear for me every following morning.
At that time, and based on some miscalculation, I had believed the full moon to have past on the prior Friday. I found out I was wrong on my nighttime drive home, riding out into the massive luminous moon beautifully shimmering, surrounded by dark clouds attempting to hide her glory. A moon like none other that I've seen, I yelped at her first sight. She was massive to the point where I had questioned her existence, or if she was just a painted illusion somewhat like the civilization bubble shown in Jim Carrey's "The Truman Show".
The past two weeks post the massive full moon was an energetic roller coaster. I've been completely exhausted, the tank feels like it's burning low-grade gasoline, another sensation which has been foreign to linger this long. Nonetheless, my emotional body seems to be completely untied to the energetic roller coaster. The thought-emotional body is interrelated, where our emotional body will often dictate the level of our thoughts. Hence, the concept "don't make decisions when angry". But, I'm clear. The waters are still. Though my consciousness may take a dabble into the doubtful depressive moments, the air above the stench is luxurious.
Though still exhausted, I feel free, flexible, flowing, and my intuition has been given significant upgrades. My meditative visuals and abilities are expansive as I explore new avenues of human/spirit potential. Triggers arising from day-to-day activities are logically noticeable, but almost emotionally irrelevant like my emotional body has better things to do, like linger in the blissful presence created in each moment. Visits from hummingbirds, baby hawks flirting in a busy parking lot, to continuing signs and synchronicity all beg for my attention as I place more importance on vibrations as opposed to actions. Colors of nature are lit, like moving from VHS to HD. I've never seen such luscious greenery from plants and trees that I thought I once knew.
In early 2014, I had asked a Vedic Astrologer, all my searching and practicing, what is it for? That was a question only I could answer. Now, I feel the distance of the individual who has asked that question, to what I am now. All my spiritual definitions and outlooks have changed. I no longer feel tied to my body, or a persona, but realize the expansive all encompassing nature of Spirit, of consciousness.
With joyful dedication to my practice to the divine Mother, probably my One main Guru among many teachers, in an attempt to recognize and remember my Self, I've become emptied, I've purged many delusions, I've shifted and strengthened my spine, I've dived into the most brilliant philosophies felt more intuitively and meditative techniques meant to awaken dormant faculties, I become something I can only define as truly me. Brahman, Bhairava, Tao, Nirvana are no longer philosophical concepts, but are places I consciously call home. For once, finally, my question of the divine's existence is unquestionable and it is easily recognizable within me, where I go for effortless worship. For once, I feel truly blessed.
All such practice is for nothing. Though my external circumstances currently appear not much different than my 2014 predicament, it's as though I'm being prepped for a planetary shift in consciousness. I feel like I am one of many on this route, light-workers is the label, to solidify the change. The theatrics of the absolutely awe dropping 2016 including the panama papers, gravitational waves, oppressed groups uprising including the Dakota Pipeline protests that look straight out of James Cameron's "Avatar" film, government/whistleblower disclosures, which is all moving towards the catastrophe of an election where one can only grab some popcorn and watch the drama unfold, 2016 is one for the history books.
And it's not over. It's only just begun.
Obviously in taking a five second look at my blog, you can tell which side I stand on. It doesn't take much to realize that I'm heavily stooped in spiritual concepts. Nonetheless, spirituality has also what is typically deemed as pseudo-science by those who do not necessarily have the background to properly assess. As an example, the study of quantum physics/mechanics, often grouped into pseudo-science as it is usually new agers who reference such studies. But, quantum physics/mechanics is simply the study of the surreal world of subatomic particles, where we find metaphorically that one plus one doesn't always equal two. Einstein hated quantum physics for the mere fact that there was no hard answer, just unpredictable probable outcomes.
As interesting observation of the scientists in the West, I've been told that it's a rarity that you would see a collaboration of different fields. In other words, you typically don't see the chemist collaborating with the biologist, especially in forging new ideas and theories that would not necessarily produce monetary values in one's lifetime. Moreover, you don't see the majority of scientists collaborating with the physicists, especially those who seek to understand the sub-atomic realms.
Throughout different fields, we have the scientific method where theories are put under the test and are published for peer review analysis. Growing up, we were taught the importance of such, as that was the only way to discover truth, a non-religious philosophy where exoteric religion relies heavily on faith. But the physicists model presented the double-slit theory in attempting to understand whether photons were particles or waves. It was found that the observer of the study is what effected the outcome of the study, not the test in itself. If the observer had a particle belief leaning, the study would show particles, and vice-versa. Hence, it is the consciousness of the observer of the study that effected the outcome, not the scientific method. In connecting this study with the scientific method in general, I'm left pondering how much of our sciences is actually dictated by the scientists belief system, and not the scientific method study itself.
Knowing the above and the crazy world of subatomic particles, whenever I come across an atheist who touts science over spirituality, I'm further left pondering if these individuals have actually taken a look at the sciences, and a look beyond the limitations of one-field of science. I believe people should be free to believe in what they want, but I stress that one should be educated in what they choose to believe, be it spirituality, religion, or the sciences. I've since understood, with the help of individuals like Brian Greene and Nassim Haramein, that only a few can grasp what has been tested in the world of Physics. Physics is a field on its own, where much relies on ideas and theories to push forward, where many theories posed by individuals like Einstein are still being tested today for its accuracy. Nonetheless, with my understanding of the numerous subjects, I believe only three individuals can relate to the physical world and our position within nature, the Physicist, the Psychologist, and the Yogi, all of which one way or the other have questioned the nature of the one doing the observation, the observer, consciousness.
As Sergio Toporek of Nasa has stated, "[c]onsider that you can see less than 1% of the electromagnetic spectrum and hear less than 1% of the acoustic spectrum". In other words, the human senses can't perceive shit of what is actually out there. Nonetheless, the majority of our sciences attempt to study what our senses can perceive and propagate science as if is a new religion, when really, in light of the double-slit theory, science falls into a belief structure.
The day science begins to study non-physical phenomena, it will make more progress in one decade than in all the previous centuries of its existence. -Nikola Tesla
For those who still tout sciences over spirituality, let's take a look at some of our greatest scientists. What did Copernicus, Newton, Einstein, and Tesla have in common? They were heavily influenced in mysticism and stressed the power of imagination. In fact, if you were to ask Copernicus to prove his theories, like the heliocentric nature of our planetary positions in a world under the Christian belief that the world is flat and man is the center of the universe, Copernicus wouldn't be able to give much since his ideology arose from contemplation and meditation. It wasn't until his successors of Galileo and Bruno where his model began to be accepted, of course at the deathly cost of Christian domination. Newton was a straight up alchemist and Einstein was a broke-ass who had to dream his theories. Tesla outright noted that he tapped into other frequencies to gain information. These guys, probably the most brilliant minds on this planet that have changed the way we look at ourselves and the universe, tapped into something and did it through a means not typically found in modern science practitioners. Another example is the uneducated Srinivasa Ramanujan, one of the most brilliant mathematicians on this planet who challenged his western counterparts to the point where the racially charged western world had to accept him for his greatness. Having no formal training or education, Srinivasa Ramanujan gave credit to the village Goddess for his abilities.
These great ideas came to me as an inspiration from the Divine. The Divine gave me these ideas; they rightfully belong to It. The Divine granted to me an understanding of Cosmic laws and ideas; therefore, they do not belong to me, so I will pass them along to others for their use and benefit as a gift from the Divine." -Pythagoras
With that said, it triggers me to hear "I don't believe in religion, I believe in science". I can only respond with, "there's more to this life then what is dreamt of in your philosophies Horatio". We are beings with limited senses attempting to explore and understand natural phenomena. Moreover, very few in the field of sciences have attempted to understand consciousness, a subject left to the field of psychology, another field that has been placed in the pseudo-sciences for much of the western world. Again, it seems the only one's that can understand are the Physicists, Psychologists, and the Yogi, all of which attempt to understand ourselves in the natural world. But really, we're left understanding how much we really do not know.
From my perspective, much of modern science is touted in the same manner as faith based exoteric religion. But for those who realize the connection, well, as evidenced by the individuals above, that's where geniuses have been made.
“The notion that science and spirituality are somehow mutually exclusive does a disservice to both.” - Carl Sagan
Because of my spiritual practices, mainly meditation and attempting to en/invoke a sensation of something higher than what I've considered myself to be, I've realized that truth is found within. The truth of of the falsity of what our typical senses believe, and the ability to control one's own inner sensation or vibration by using the imagination to manipulate the emotional body to reach for a higher feeling, leads to an inner cleansing, or rather, an unplugging from the crap-shoot story-line that we've been externally programmed into.
As I progress, more and more of what I would have typically believed to be "real", what I can perceive with my senses, especially my eyes, has now held the feeling of watching a cloud pass by and dissolve before me. So much has been programmed into us, from our parents who were just trying to survive in the system, our education which was designed to keep us turning this broken wheel of a system, and religion which usurped the magick of the individual in exchange for mass spiritual manipulation, very few individuals within this collective have sought to unplug from the external programming. From the likes of Jesus, Mohammed, and Siddharta, the desire to leave society and seek truth beyond the collective evolution and seek the wilderness or the empty caves and clear one's own psychology is slowly being brought forth to the masses through concepts of presence or mindfulness. To be mindful of the virginal moment sans opinion/belief/memories/reactions, to rest in the sensation of spirit known as the one that observes is the only spiritual practice that seems to be worth a damn, as it personally unites you to the divine Higher Self, the definition of Yoga.
While so many, under the assumption that what they perceive with their senses as "real", like an actor lost in his role while filming a movie, like Spirit (Shiva/Father) lost (Maya/Shakti/Mother) in his role (Jiva/Son) within the theater of the divine's womb (Mahamaya/Shakti/Mother), many are fully engaged in their roles and are currently lost in the chaos collectively expressed through American Politics. You have two candidates who despite what they verbally articulate to the masses, have been completely exposed for who they truly are behind closed doors, are expressing the underbelly of what is psychologically being purged within all of us. With the latest cosmic planetary movements, from the eclipses to the numerological portal openings as 8/8/16, 9/9/16, and 10/10/16, to the religious festivities in numerous traditions all falling towards the end of the year, my meditative practice has left me drained facing my darkest fears and everything that has held me back in life. In addition, I'm recognizing the triggers that I feel arising within myself, in dealing with characters I simply cannot fathom due to being from completely different worlds and expressing sentiments I would normally despise, as parlaying into significant psychic attacks leaving me further drained and well into panic attacks.
Consciously, I seek the divine, I seek presence, I seek inner fulfillment to the point where nothing externally found through my typical senses can effect my inner harmony. I seek to tap into the ultimate reality that the Hindus called Brahman, to blow out all thought and reach beyond mind as the Buddhists call Nirvana, to tap into the indescribable as it something not of this world known as the Tao, or the nonexistence of Ain of the Qabalist Tree of Life.
To turn off the biological form, to turn off logic for the greater feels of intuition, to feel consciously into something that is unknown and cannot be known through logic, that is to unplug. To unplug is to allow the form (Jiva/Son) to rest, rejuvenate, and replenish. To unplug is to allow one's inner vibration (Shakti/Mother) to de-connect from the sensory role and play and allow her to bring us to fulfillment. To unplug is to allow one to re-connect with Spirit (Shiva/Father), Yogic completion.
The Self of the self-realized yogin (experiences itself as a sheer) actor (in the drama of life in the world playing various roles in his outer being but remaining absolutely detached from the entire play essentially).
Something is brewing on this planet, a major catalyst for change that will shake everything up. It's time for a new direction for the story-line. My only question is, are we ready to lead in the new direction, for those of the light who work in the dark?
Overly educated and continuously exploring and revealing more behind the veil.
"It cannot be too highly emphasized that the mystic swims in the same waters in which the psychotic drowns."
-James Wasserman, The Mystery Traditions