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goddess kali drunkenly holds this adept's head,
as i spill all into the holy graal/kapala
​(!Kali Kaula!)

"Who Are You? Who, who, who, who?" - The Who

7/31/2015

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I first started questioning the concept of a god at a young age, where I was raised in a Hindu household and attended a strict Protestant elementary school. I would ask myself, "which god is real, etc?", which was only natural given the vehement opposition Protestants have to any other religion.  I would also have the whole superman vs. batman rivalry with Vishnu and Shiva. As a Sagittarius Sun, the adventurous characters of Hinduism would win over Christianity, although the humility of the Christ figure is unsurpassed and has stayed with me. As I grew older, individuals like Paramahansa Yogananda would win over anything provided to me in Protestant Elementary or Catholic High School in terms of philosophy, spirituality, and magick.   
Then came along good ole' Nietzsche who made me question the importance of a god. Instead of god, one should aim to the level of an Overman/Uberman. Although Nietzsche is the beginning of my Self-Help era, there was no fun without the magickal stories. Moreover, Self-Help books like Napoleon Hill's "Think and Grow Rich" as well as hypnotherapy such as "The Silva Mind Control Method" carried spirituality within their text, but I still felt something was missing. So I returned to the gods, but view them as mental Jungian archetypes to appease the raging desire for answers within myself. 

After exploring the occult world came the real kicker. . . Mofo Ancient Aliens! I don't know whether it was something that I always knew and just kept hidden within myself. But, the idea that those we've worshiped as gods/goddesses may be simply extra terrestrials highly resonated with me. However, my first approach was simply to group the deities as nothing more than something in common with the aliens of our earthly entertainment. Grasping this concept was probably as close to atheism as I would get, with my limited understanding of what could possibly be an "advanced" extra terrestrial. 
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Even today, I still fathom the idea that maybe my beloved Hindu deities are nothing more than simply the fallen angels, the nephilim, the annunaki, the prometheus (light bearer). The notable Zecharia Sitchin discusses briefly the similarities of many ancient cultures with the belief that they were derived from ancient Sumerian culture, including the similarities between the Vedas and Greek Mythology. The Aryans of India are considered to be the Hurrians, another Mesopotamian group. Sitchin points to the idea that even one scholar (B. Hrozny) has  considered the Hurrians to be the "oldest Hindus" based on his study. (Sitchin, The 12th Planet).  
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Considering your beloved deities with some possibility that they may be simply nothing more than slightly smarter entities, whose agenda may not have always been positive, can be heartbreaking. As Sitchin and other Ancient Astronaut theorists have expressed, the fallen beings came to Earth essentially to mine gold that was to be taken back to their home planet and used as a planetary shield (think Chemtrails) to prevent their planet's global warming. In order to mine gold, our dna was drastically manipulated making us attracted to gold as well as making us worshipers of our genetic manipulators/creators. (We can also site Tom Kenyon's work with the Hathors here).  
Moreover, ancient history can be so diluted where any honorable figure can be mistaken as a "god", especially if there is a backdrop supporting story. The United States is a perfect example, where it appears that the founders have attempted to create an esoteric landscape akin to Egypt in Washington D.C.  A land most likely influenced by Francis Bacon's "New Atlantis", and further embellished with the esoteric story of George Washington who was alleged to be in contact with a guiding female entity, the beginning of U.S. history has been expressed to something more spiritual, or at least that is what our masonic brethren have instilled. George Washington can be further found in sculpture doing the "as above, so below" salute as well as ascending in the "Apotheosis of Washington".  Now I ask, should there be another catastrophic shift, and a civilization hundreds of years from the shift begins to discover the remnants of Washington D.C., would they not think that we worshiped our Presidents, etc.?
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn't know I was lost.

-Aloe Blacc, Wake Me Up
With that in mind, I sought externally/internally who was it that I was actually looking for? To answer that question involved diving into the world of Aliens via Alien Channelers to get a better understanding of ... who I am. Luckily, the teachings seemed to be in line with the root teachings of our religions, showing at least that our organizations were seeded with "our truth". However, was not most of our highly valued scriptures channeled?
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I continue to ravel in the pantheon of deities such as the greatness of Krishna and Christ in that I believe both taught the impermanence of the Self, whether you want to call it Atma or Soul. It's simply empowering as what our connection to Source should be. Although it was the modern channelings that expanded my conception of the Self/Soul/Atma into a multidimensional timeless facet of our being, its the tidbits of information from our religions expressing our own divinity which keeps me thinking highly of certain deities. Krishna teaching Arjuna about the immortal Self, Christ teaching the love of your brethren and also the ability for all of us to conduct Christ's miracles (John 14:12; Mark 9:23), are all examples of why I would still glorify such entities. However, as opposed to viewing such entities as god(s), I think another term would be more appropriate such as Ascending Masters (as in teachers for us to ascend) where such entities are simply elder siblings who are guiding the way to become more and more of who we really are.
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With viewing deities/archetypes as simply Ascending Masters, suddenly, these entities become much more approachable. In doing japa/mala mantra meditations and focusing on a particular Master, I receive a different sensation. In invoking Ganesha I receive this bulky bloated feeling, a Shepherd overtook my body while doing a healing meditation, Krishna is akin to a brilliant happy adventurous citrine stone, Lakshmi and the Hathors are completely loving like a child in his/her mother's arms, Kali makes my blood boil which needs to be cooled down with Shiva. Although I can easily dismiss these sensations, it does leave me with the feeling that as opposed to a bodily figure, these are essentially energetics (strengthened by our Collective Consciousness) that we attempt to invoke within ourselves when we face certain situations in our lives. For is not the sensation of each of the entities raised a particular frequency of our Source? Hence, the Ascending Masters have essentially become different frequencies that assist me on my path, but are not necessarily the end game of our return to the Source, if there is such a return. 
I now see the communion with God of the right hand path as becoming God of the left hand path where since you are God, you have the ability to manipulate your environment. I think our evolutionary process, especially evolution of our consciousness, is to ever become more like God. 
If I am to cite to a scripture for a proper religious definition of God, I would point to one of the master teachers of the esoteric tradition known as Shiva in the Hindu pantheon, who gifted the world with the remembrance of union under Yoga. As elaborated by the ancients in the Siva Sutras, Shiva described as god is none other than an individual subject to sat (Self) and cit (Consciousness) or consciousness of self (Self-Awareness) which then arises ananda (bliss). Consciousness is "I", and awakening to that fact becomes "I Am!". In elaborating the 17th Sutra, "unwavering awareness (that I am Siva) constitutes the knowledge of Self". Hence, Siva is to be depicted not as a separate entity, but our Higher Self (Turiya), which is our link to the divine as Consciousness. However, I believe that once we come to understand God as Consciousness, God would be so much more as an ever expansive "something", something we cannot quite grasp with our limiting comprehension in that any definition of god would also place limitations on God. In coming to that realization, we will have a better understanding of who we really are. 
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When the mind is united to the core of consciousness, every observable phenomena and even the void appear as a form of consciousness. Siva Sutra v.15, Jaideva Singh Translation. 
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Peek-A-Boo

7/14/2015

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The ancient Hindus greeted each other with the sacred mantra Namaste, which means "I bow to the divinity within you". The brother culture to the Hindus, the Mayans, greeted each other by expressing In Lak'ech meaning "you are another me" as in we all reflect each as a mirror. With that in mind, are our souls really just playing an extravagant game of peek-a-boo with each other?
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