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​(!Kali Kaula!)

The Divine Matrix

9/15/2016

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Movies like "the matrix" portray the illusory structure that composes our existence in a negative light. In addition, religion similarly expresses as such, where the material world is often negated for the spiritual. Hinduism, particularly with the Visnu leaning, fall into this category where one is lost in "maya" and that "maya" is a bad thing. In fact, in conversation with an ISKON devotee, he thought it odd that my niece was named "Maya". Hence, the "matrix" or the illusion that the ancients called "maya" is given a negative connotation which seems to plague the modern spiritual movement. However, such seems to be based off of ignorance and an attempt to point the finger externally to one's issues. 
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Mother of the World, Nicholas Roerich
In many of our ancient traditions, from Hinduism to Native Indigenous, the Goddess is praised as the weaver of our existence. In particular Hindu sects, the Goddess as Shakti, or in her Adi-Shakti form as Kali, is known as the MahaMaya, the Great Illusion. While Shiva represents the ability to be aware, as he is prakasa, the light of consciousness, Shakti gives us something to be aware of. Hence, it's through the illusory qualities that we're provided with the space-time fabric that consists of the Universe. Therefore, what many religions fail to realize, those that are of the anti-matrix breed, is that their deities or figures of worship would not exist but for the matrix. If you believe heaven to be a tangible existence, or something of the like in spiritual form, well, that would not exist but for the matrix. With the collapse of our Universe into what the Vedics teach as Brahaman, so would collapse every form, including every figment of worship that we have sought on this planet. The illusion we find ourselves in is crafted for the delight of Shiva and Shakti, the attractive positive and negative energy, which creates the ability for each of us to carry out our story, where we traverse our Hero's Journey. Hence, the illusion provides us with our existence, our forms of traditions, our forms of worship, basically our existence.
In Native American traditions, the Grandmother Spider, like the Greek Ariadne, weaves humanity's story and existence. Munya Andrews, The Seven Sisters of the Pleiades. Within that story, there is often a balance required, a type of path where judgment is used to keep matters progressing, or insists on an orderliness. Such is often the work of our judgment deities, mostly influenced by the Egyptian Ma'at (maatrix) where we have obtained our balancing scales. Id. Even the Catholics have the divine mother as expressed as Mother Mary, a figure not praised in later protestant traditions who sought to purge the pagan elements of Catholicism. Just as Siddhartha who became Buddha Shakyamuni was born of his mother Maya, so was Jesus who became the Christ figure was born of his mother Mar-y, where Mar implies the ocean of creation.  

Bringing this back to Kali, the mother of the cosmos is often defined by two terms, MahaMaya as the Great Illusion as expressed earlier, and MahaVidya as the Great Wisdom Goddess. Hence, the divine mother provides you what you desire, be it delusion on one end, or wisdom on the other. Therefore, the matrix can be seen as a computer program of existence. However, those that seek to attack the program are simply pointing the finger at the programmer as opposed to their own selves who have sought delusion over wisdom. Not to play-down any Archontic forces that may place a virus in the programming, but to ultimately conclude that we still have free-choice despite such influences, where substantial wisdom is to be gained from obstacles. 
Essentially, I'm exhausted from hearing "maya" is bad, etc., where our power has always lied within us, including the ability to give our power away and delude ourselves into thinking we're powerless. We really have no one else to blame but ourselves when we fall into our delusions, not satan, not demons, when we realize the power the matrix has placed within us to seek the truth and wisdom of each matter. As the great Mother of creation, she's given us the opportunity to get completely lost within our own delusions, or liberate ourselves and seek wisdom. In other words, we can't point the finger elsewhere, but at our own selves. 
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Shivoham; iShiva

9/10/2016

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Shivoham:
In understanding the "I Am That" presence, the "I", or as stated in Sanskrit as "aham", is cosmic awareness. Shivoham is essentially Shiva-Aham, or "I - Shiva". Shiva is typically defined as cosmic awareness (awareness of all that is), or the light of consciousness, where the statement of Shivoham seeks to bridge that awareness within our own faculties. The ultimate goal of certain sects devoted to Shiva is not essentially to devote oneself to Shiva and enter Shiva's domain/heaven, but to become Shiva.

As a background, Shiva is considered to be the ultimate dreamer, where for the infinite to dream and actually have a story-line, there has to be some mystery as the story unfolds. That mystery is produced by the curtain we know as Shiva's Shakti, MahaMaya, or the veil of illusion. To become Shiva is to acknowledge and peel that veil to recognize more and more of one's cosmic Self, where Shiva's Shakti is MahaVidya​, knowledge. 
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Law of Attraction:
Law of Attraction teachings disclose that in order to attract an object or circumstance into one's life, one has to match that frequency. That frequency is found through our own vibrations indicated by our emotional body. In other words, FEEL like you have already accomplished obtaining the object or circumstances, and FEEL into as much as possible. In other words, imagine the life you desire, and FEEL into it to trigger your emotional body. Emotions tends to follow thought patterns, where if one feels angry, angry thoughts will follow, if feeling happy, happy thoughts will follow. Hence, when you FEEL into what you are trying to attract, your emotional body will also trigger your Psyche, including any blockages that inhibit manifestation. 
​Mantra:
Shivoham is also a mantra, where mantra is derived from the word manas or mind. Hence, the use of mantras triggers a re-calibration of thoughts, and directs focus. To place the Law of Attraction technique above with the chosen mantra is a powerful tool to becoming closer to Shivoham, or another deity of choice. To vibrationally match the deity of choice by understanding and embodying His/Her mythology and maintaining focus through the use of mantra, well, you're bound to at least feel something shifting. 
Blockages:
To embody a deity through the use of imagination can raise all sorts of blockages. One such blockage as found throughout our societies is a manipulative and domineering understanding of humility. Raised in a Hindu household, we've bowed to everything, honored numerous external things as sacred, and certain things can create offense such as trimming a tulsi (holy basil) plant to some. Raised in Christian education, we were constantly told to repent because we are sinners, told that we're unworthy, etc. Under the Law of Attraction, if you're holding a sense of sinful unworthiness or the likes, you may be just further distancing yourself from your divinity, where such ideas and emotions arise when attempting to embody the feeling of the divinity. When such blockages arise, it screws up the meditation where thoughts of unworthiness from a false understanding of humility arise. 
Meditation:
Nonetheless, there are techniques to bypass the blockages. For example, in my meditations to Kali, the divine Mother, I would initially approach her as a child. She's called the Mother for a reason where under this symbol, she's been very easy to approach. It's much easier to imagine oneself as a child then it is to imagine oneself as Shiva. From what I've found, approaching Kali with an ego-identity is the quickest way to trigger her fiercer aspects, though it has its benefits where she assists in clearing. Though to approach her as an equivalent, as Shiva, and vice-versa, to approach Shiva as Kali, well, I'll just say that's a climactic vibration, one that can be felt in the spine. After writing this, I probably should say to approach her as a child, then your ego-self and let her do her work, then Shiva. 
Hence, in approaching the divine, if it's difficult to place worth on the ego-identity, then choose the divine within, the self-luminous light of consciousness that remains unblemished, to shine forth and match that vibration that you're trying to bridge. Be forewarned, this technique is powerful, so I should provide a warning. To reach for the divine is to unravel the ego-identity, which is everything that you thought you were.  iShiva!
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Uniting Shiva With Shakti

9/8/2016

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The ancient teaching spoke of the unification between the opposites. Not of the good and evil variety, but of positive and negative magnetic forces, of the masculine with the feminine, the yang with yin, the lingam with the yoni, Shiva with Shakti. Within that balance flows harmony, Ananda, the Tao. Within our subtle body lies the ida (feminine) and pingala (masuline) nadi's, energetic channels that separate and combine with each chakra point leading to the third eye. Our third eye is positioned centered between the hemisphere's of our brain, that would be our masculine logical left brain and our feminine creative right brain. Here, we meet the balance of our polar opposites, where we meet ourSelf that feels like a rush flooding downwards through the crown chakra, redoing, remapping, reprogramming everything that we thought ourselves to be. It's where we deconstruct the paradigm instilled within us from being engaged with our senses, and meet something that has been lingering within us beyond our mental facilities.  
The divine couple is Shiva and Shakti, the magnetic attraction between the positive and negative electrical charge within us that our ego-identity has forgotten and has accidentally attempted to separate. Not only has the divine couple manifested itself externally through magnetic forces, through animalistic attraction, through our ancient stories of divine couples, but also through our own psychology as further articulated in the ancient traditions of Shiva and Shakti.  
Shiva:
Shiva is defined as prakasha, or the light of consciousness. In other words, Shiva is the psychological ability to be "aware". Awareness is mental virginity, or Kumari, the ability to be simply "aware" unstained from any thought-constructs, which include ideas, opinions, beliefs, formulations, etc. Awareness is to be in the complete state of Now, fully present to your experience without clouding it with any ideas and perspectives.  To be fully present, is to be able to engage with what you perceive from a completely fresh perspective. To be fully present with everything occurring externally and emotionally internally, we recognize our existence (sat) within the universe. Shiva is our ability to perceive (chit​) within the universe. 
Shakti:
Shakti is defined as Mahamaya, or the grand illusion, which is, all that which is perceived. Hence, she is the Mother of our universe. Our universe is created through matrika (term used to identify Sanskrit), or motherly vibrations that creates and destroys universes. Everything is energy, where energy is simply mass multiplied by the speed of light squared (E=m c2) . In other words, that which we perceive, mass, is simple energy divided by the speed of light squared (E/c2 = m). It's because of this energy, this shakti, this prana/chi, the way she moves and vibrates through space-time that we have the Universe and all within it which we perceive. 
In the Tripura Rahasaya: Secrets of The Supreme Goddess, Shiva is defined as "awareness" and Shakti is defined as "witness". Shiva is our ability to perceive, where Shakti gives us something to perceive, including our faculties of perception. One is the light of consciousness where the other is the vibration of consciousness, for the two are actually one. To worship a divinity is to bring oneself closer to that divinity through what we call love, hence, our concepts of bhakti, devotion, etc. To worship Shiva-Shakti, is to understand and bring oneself closer to understanding our own abilities of being "aware" and "witnessing" the universe, to bring devotion/bhakti/love to that which we perceive as well as our ability to perceive. 
In worshiping Shiva, embody the Mother of the Universe and attract the attention of Shiva for She is constantly trying to attract our attention with her Illusion. In worshiping Shakti, embody Shiva, the ability to be aware and fall in love with the present moment that the Illusion has provided you. For isn't this what we are, a psychological dance between our mental/sensory faculties and things that we perceive. Isn't that what it means to be the divine couple internally, to fuse the opposite mental faculties within us, and engage our paradigm from a higher perspective, one with cosmic awareness and cosmic creative abilities. Isn't this accomplished through what we call divine love?
To unite Shiva with Shakti is part of the tradition that believes in romance of the divine couple. To understand the romance that we ourselves create with that which we perceive. It's the ability to be at an emotionally vibratory state of complete love and completion within. It's the sensation of fulfillment, where nothing more is required. It's to realize that you are the Dance of the Universe occurring within the Universe. 
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Sovereign Manipulation; "Thou Shall Not..." 

9/4/2016

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Growing up, out of love and safety, our parents provided us with a plethora of "do this, don't do this". Even under our education system, we're also taught "do this, don't do this" in order to become effective members of an alleged educated society. Going into religion, we're also taught "thou shalt not do this, and do this". Hence, right from the get-go, a child's experience and ability to make it's own choices is overwhelmed by the trinity: parents, education, and religion. 
Parents, schoolteachers, religious instructors, and many other adults unknowingly serve my purpose by helping me to destroy in children the habit of thinking for themselves.
- The Devil, channeled by Napoleon Hill, Outwitting the Devil
Children are naturally curious. They are going to fall, their going to make mistakes, all the while learning to navigate themselves in human form. Though, most of us were punished for making the mistakes, or intellectually degraded by being provided a lower grade, or condemned to some sort of hell. In other words, the penalty, not the natural injury provided from making a choice, is often provided to force a child, a budding individual, in a certain direction. Though a mother may yell at her child coming closer to a hot stove, there is a difference in the child being told that the stove is hot and can burn, as opposed to the child having even the slightest experience of the heat. Though provided as a metaphor, that is the difference between knowing and (g)nowing something, knowledge and wisdom. 
Though it is good that certain direction is pointed especially by someone who has walked down a similar road, the penalty of choosing otherwise may pay a significant and debilitating psychological role in manipulating an individual. Right from the beginning, a child is moved from his/her curious scientific experience, into the realm of having to do what he/she is told. Parents, education, and religion take on a dictatorship where significant manipulation is provided into the efforts of molding a child into a type of conformity. When such conformity is provided, the child grows into an adult holding to such psychological barriers or habits, which further continue to dominate the individual even under a subconscious level. As modern psychology has shown, parents are typically the ones capable of psychologically harming a child the most, which gives new meaning to the concept of "parents are a child's first guru". No doubt, the parents religion, politics, nationalism, etc., all play a major role in influencing a child, as opposed to the child's own intellect. 
Religion is probably the pivotal example, where much relies on faith, not necessarily a natural cause and effect outcome. If certain conduct is followed the outcome will be found in the currently unprovable afterlife, either reincarnation or a spiritual heaven/hell. Most exoteric religions fall into this category, where at least in the East we have the concept of Karma. Karma provides a more scientific or philosophical approach, where certain conduct/attachments produces certain results. One can use a decision-tree to make decisions, see the available choices and probabilities of the more likely outcomes, and proceed to make a choice. Nonetheless, even in the East, outright prohibitions have even arisen in the "thou shall not..." category, which the masses in that group are expected to abide by. For example, the eating of a certain animal in India, as if this animals life is more holy than the next animal, is continually propagated, most likely due to the result of an over-extension of religious symbolism. Under such understandings, a free-sovereign spirit is placed on this planet, and is quickly provided with beliefs, not experiences or choices, and quickly molds into a collective thought process as opposed to thinking as a sovereign being. 
Such molding into conformity without logical assessment is provided throughout our society. Parents mold us into their beliefs, politics, religion, culture, as well as hereditary addictions. Education has been mainly memorize and regurgitate, where it was only in law school that I was forced to analyze, given that law schools framework is different using the socratic method (asking questions to find the answer). In addition, education has significantly sought to instill blind-patriotism, where much of the history books are written with a strong slant in a nationalist favor. Lastly, religion has probably been the worst, where much of an individuals soul growth is based on faith, a belief in someone/something else. In personal assessment, it appears all three have sought to significantly provide further limitations on an individuals expression.

Let's face it, society as we know it has sought thoughtless conformity as opposed to sovereign expression. But, are we here to be worker ants? What separates humans from the animal kingdom is that humans are psychologically capable of asking questions and pursue curiosities beyond the basic animal instincts. But what is the use of having the human intellect if it is to be subdued back into its animalistic state. What's worse is that many of us don't even know that we're in this psychological state given that we've been provided with these impressions and habits since early childhood. 

I'm all for advise and learning from the prior generations, though the goal should not just be to know, but to (g)now. I mean, what is the purpose of our human lives if we cannot learn and grow from our experience and we're expected to conform to a societal belief structure. How are we being true to ourselves, when we've adopted and just accepted so much from external sources. 
I live in fear the at someday some courageous person will reverse the present system of school teaching and deal my cause of death blow by allowing the students to become the instructors, using those who now serve as teachers only as guides to help the children establish ways and means of developing their own minds from within.
- The Devil, channeled by Napoleon Hill, Outwitting the Devil
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