I've spent much of my life stooped in religion, mythology, esoterica, an obsession of mine to unravel the mystery's of the universe. Particularly in the last few years, I've somewhat studied ancient Indian Goddess Cults (Tantra), Pre-Creed of Nicea Christianity (Gnosticism), Hermetic Qabalah, as well as Ancient Alien materials including Sitchen's work and other materials about Sumer, etc. Though I was looking for the esoteric wisdom to push me further in my spiritual path, the historical context of such material unraveled a separation between mystical thought and religion.
All mystical schools, be it Tantrik, Qabalist, Hermetic, Taoist, Gnostic, Sufi, Troubador, etc., stress the importance of Self-Realization. Self-Realization is the unraveling of the ego-identity tangible universe, to recognize the essence, the atma, that resides within and permeates all that we perceive. It is to move beyond creation, to the absolute limitless light from which all that we perceive is a tangible transient dream. This is the practice of recognizing the truth within, where heaven resides as Jesus taught.
Religion on the other end, stresses the importance of the tangible transient dream, and the need to perpetuate such existence. As Brahma the creator is not worshiped, as he is the biggest Ego of creation who sought to be superior, similarly the Gnostic Christians did not worship Yadlbaoth, the creator God, who similarly sought to be superior. It is from these creator gods, these Prajapatis, that we have tradition, culture, the need to perpetuate a doctrinal way of life, where mystical schools have sought to dissolve such mental constructs and programming. Hence, the reason why Jesus conflicted with the Pharisees/Sadducees, who did things by the books written by the ancestors, and not by the essence found within.
In studying Tantra and the history of India, a different story unraveled than one which would be described by the fanatical religious. Akin to studying U.S. history from the eyes of the Indigenous, African-Americans, or Mexican communities, there is much to learn in studying Brahmanic India from the eyes of tribal/cult groups, many of which have become synthesized with or completely enveloped by Brahmanic standing.
In looking at the Indus-Valley and its lack of archaeological Hindu artifacts, sans what the religious describe, the Indus may be described as the first "secular" society (cited to the Brahmanic despised Wendy Doniger). The Indus-Valley has a water ditch which Brahmins have categorized as for ritualized bathing. Though such can easily be for water storage in an agricultural society. There are also numerous Shiva-Lingams allegedly found, or they could be mortar & pestals for, again, an agricultural society. Lastly, there is also a picture of a horned male, seated in what Brahmins deem a "yoga asana". However, one thing that I have noted from most religious depictions of this image, is that the undecipherable script is often not discussed or the size of the artifact, which is a mere 1"x1" stamp. Hence, the Brahmins could be correct, or there could be an alternative reason, but to decide now appears to be jumping the gun.
Further, despite what Brahmins have stated about their religious language Sanskrit influencing Indian languages, though Sanskrit has numerous similarities with European languages and maybe even Semetic, such is not so with Dravidian languages and the undecipherable Indus script. Such gives credence to the Aryan invasion theory, where the Brahmin tradition most likely invaded a country with a foreign people (Dashas?), with a foreign religion, and a foreign language. Though, the Hindu tradition today may really be a synthesis of numerous traditions, including Zoroastrian/Greek/Roman/Egyptian/Semetic/East African from the Hellenic period, a period significantly older than the earliest version of the Mahabharata/Ramayana (both conflicting Hindu and Jain versions), it appears most Hindus would not like to acknowledge such information and stories as having an outsider influence.
An interesting tidbit that the controversial translator Zecharia Setchin and the channeler Barbara Marciniak have discussed, is that the Sumerian Goddess Inanna was given the domain of the Harrapan Civilization. If such is true, ancient Indian religious traditions would be tied significantly to ancient Sumer. Further, archaeological artifacts thus far have shown Sumer to be contemporary with Indus, where Indus stamps have been found in Sumer as such societies traded with each other. Therefore, there could be much more influence on Hinduism from ancient Sumer than anyone has given credit, which has been thus far left unacknowledged.
The Indus Valley is the oldest civilization discovered in India, where Inanna would be one of the oldest traditions and influences in India. As she is associated with sex, mystery schools understand the correlation of sexual energy and knowing, or "gnosis", where kundalini is awakened. Hence, she would be the tantrik root of India. Also associated as a warrior Goddess, she would fit right into the Hindu pantheon, especially with comparable Durga. It is also interesting to note that historically, India has always been tied to the Goddess tradition, despite patriarchal Brahmanic traditions. The cult of yoginis which has been sought to be subdued is one such remnant, where such cults have been akin to salem witch hunts. Inanna is said to be the Queen of Heaven and Earth, who traversed into the underworld, who among her family, became an immortal, and hence, a Goddess. Just as the main yogini, Sati-Parvati, fell into the wheel of samsara and needed to find the Self-Luminous light, Prakasa, through yoga (union) to become the Goddess, Shakti. Though the stories may be different, the symbols/archetypes, seem to be common. Especially if Inanna is in competition with her patriarchal relative, Marduk.
In reference to the symbolism of the Indus Valley, it is noted that not just the male was given horns, but every animal in depiction including horses. All such animals were males. The only female depictions emphasized fertility as shapely figures, another aspect of Inanna. Hence, with horned males and pregnant females, these images may emphasize a fertility cult, a common ancient theme. Therefore, I'm finding Inanna's presence in ancient India more and more believable.
The Abrahamic Traditions trace their roots to ancient Judaism. But from studying Gnostic Christianity, as well as the history of the Middle East to get the proper historical context and foundations, Judaism may simply be a derivative of the Canaanite religion, where the ancient Jews adopted not only one of the many competing Canaanite deities (probably El later becoming YHVH, or IAO), but even the Hebrew alphabet may be adopted from the Canaanites as described by Professor Jodi Magness (The Holy Land Revealed). And where did the Canaanites get their religion from? Ancient Sumer.
Just as India may not give acknowledgment to Sumer, the Abrahamic traditions similarly follows suite. Though that could be simply due to the historical context only being recently disclosed with translations of the Sumerian tablets. Nonetheless, it is interesting enough to know that these traditions may hold some root to ancient Sumer, and quite possibly, the religious confliction we've seen on this planet.
In taking a look at the Sumerian religion, it seems to be a royal family (bloodline), attempting to fight over territory on Earth. As children of the father god, Anu, Enlil is more practical and wants to wipe the project of creation clean, where his brother Enki, is fond of creation and saves Gilgamesh from the great deluge. The family of Anu needs gold to support their planetary atmosphere, engineered mankind to be miners who worship their creators leading to blind servitude, but overall, is completely at loggerhead with each other fighting over dominion. As many know these beings to be the biblical Elohim, they brought much to humanity as evidenced by the superiority of the Sumerian civilization, which included an astronomy that surpasses modernity and has influenced every current tradition to this date, though probably not through a direct chain of command. These may well have been the pyramid builders, who share commonality all throughout the planet, over many different civilizations, including South America. Yet, as a dysfunctional family, they also brought their problems.
Given the strong influence ancient Sumer has imposed throughout our traditions, cultures, knowledge, and the potential link of all of our religions to this family, it makes one wonder if this is the reason for our territorial/resource wars and obsession with gold, should such family have a continuing influence. In studying all of these topics, I many not fully-believe such material yet, but I do feel like humanity has been deluded from our historical past. It seems we think we have it figured out, when really, we don't have a damn clue, as I continue going down this rabbit hole.
What's important to me is not the religious, political, cultural programming that we all have seemed to have bought into, where contradictory information is fought over, suppressed, etc., but the realization of the truth no matter how much it hurts and conflicts with our beliefs. But can we handle this truth? We can barely handle the truth of our politicians, but what of our religious figures, beliefs, and customs? Sadly, we may simply have to wait for the return of Nibiru for the great revelation of our history, of humanity, of our truth. Could this be why the Jesuits, our Pope, have been looking at the skies with observatories for so long? The truth is definitely out there, and it's not what we as the masses have been propagandically fed. Again, the question is, are we ready?
I've spent much of my life studying esoterics. However, my intuitive process is infantile compared to my studies, where I have glimpses of my past where my intuition would be unknowingly providing me with long-ignored hunches. That may be the same for many of us who have been raised in a society ignorant of intuition, a society who has yet to begin to grasp the internal world of "know thy self". Nonetheless, we are all on our paths and all such occurrences and growth fall under divine timing, when we are ready to step up our mystic game, as plotted and planned by our expanded Selves. As I expand my own intuitive abilities, I'm left weary about the many intuitive that I once use to blindly believe. To sum it up, trust your own Self.
In following and communicating with others with intuitive abilities, ranging from astrologers, tarot readers, psychics, energy readers, among others, I noticed my constant inner shift has left me now ignoring many that I would have once followed and learned from. In fact, as I further my own growth, I'm constantly leaving teachers behind who I once thought were incredible. I feel that this is what many of us should strive for, or we will get lost in creating celebrities of these "gurus" which then leads to guru-worship, when really all these tools/permission slips should be forcing us to look at our own selves. Particularly when a teacher gets too cocky, stressing that they and their followers are the highest, that's usually my trigger to start seeking elsewhere. My Sagittarius roots has me constantly looking for deeper depths, my own true-essence, where I see many others attempting to emulate their guru or their gurus teachings as opposed to following their own inner resonance. Take what feels right, leave the rest in the dust, and explore as much as you can, particularly what feels to be the most blissful.
This is why Ma Kali has worked wonderfully for me, as my beloved she has me first and foremost looking towards myself as opposed to other gurus. She is the voice in my head that rings true by further asking me questions, and using my emotional body that truly navigates this ship. She is none other than the divine flame residing within our depths, dissolving the density of ignorance. Should I get too attached to a figure I find in separation/duality, something I find very often should a guru/yogi/magi display any special abilities (siddhis), Ma Kali will quickly cut those attachments for the brilliance of my own inner resonance. She is known as Adi Shakti for a reason, the first life force that permeates "All That Is". She is a wisdom Goddess first and foremost, that's in my head like Socrates asking questions as opposed to forcing me to accept something as truth. However, my interpretation of her may also be different since I sought her out beyond the typical Hindu belief structures, finding her in many differing traditions, and falling in line with my own expanded awareness through occult studies.
I see now why I was not born trusting my intuition for a reason, which was to develop my logic first. Though I was always scared of the dark despite being protected from horror movies, etc. (back then in the 80's, access to such was not as easy as today), my intuition would be chaotic knowing some-things are lingering behind the shadows as a child. Something I didn't realize and clear up until I conducted my first banishing ritual at the turn of the millennium in late high school. However, I do also realize that such fears may have been due to Christian fear programming from being raised in protestant elementary schools, who stressed the concepts of hell (most Christians adopt Dante's interpretation, since the Bible lacks description; even hel comes from the Vikings), or fear, guilt, shame of sin, enough limiting-beliefs to engage the law of attraction to manifest bullshit in one's life leading for one to beg for a messiah (a complete circle). Such has also permeated Hindu beliefs, and probably, historically strengthened by exoteric Islamic invading groups. Our Spirit has been ignorantly programmed by these exoteric groups, where in order to unleash more of our intuitive potential, a de-programming, a detachment to our limiting-shaming beliefs is required to truly grasp communication with Higher Self and proper guidance.
Hence, through my own seeking where I chose to move beyond what my educational systems, or major exoteric religious institutions were teaching, particularly dualist philosophies of separation, I managed to increase my logical abilities to sort through information that no longer resonates with where I am at in my spiritual development. Though, I understand such information may resonate with many others and are necessary for their growth, as they were once for me. Reading and studying as much esoterica as I possibly could in my short 32 years, yes, even as a child obsessed with the paranormal, I'm now noticing that I watch the plethora of youtube intuitives, teachers, gurus, all with their programming becoming more and more clear. For those who believe in separation, the concept of good vs. evil become clearly evident, where there is significant ego bashing as if it is the "new devil" to put one's blame. Similarly, they're plenty of light-workers in this category, who will tell you to be careful what you watch or listen with regards to the media, or will push the vegetarian/vegan agenda, without realizing that Spirit did not manifest into density to have limited experiences. We're not here to all fit within one box, but to hold numerous expressions for the expansion of Universal Consciousness. As Carl Sagan stated, "[w]e are a way for the cosmos to know itself". Hence, though such messages may come from attempting to better humanity, all should first and foremost ring true for the viewer before blindly accepting such information. What may be the correct way for one person's life may not be the correct way for mine, or others. Diversity is to be celebrated, even if it does not fit a particular agenda.
Hence, intuitives still grappling with these dualist notions tend to have their intuition limited by such programming, at least from what I feel. Particularly those that fall under exoteric limited religious organizations, where God simply cannot be a female for some limiting reason, or that which requires an opponent devil figure, such programming becomes easily exposed limiting the presenters ability to grasp a wider perspective ... and that's all "intuition" really is, the ability to see the bigger picture. Hence, with the intuition, the right hemisphere of the brain also known as the divine feminine (Christ the Sophia), is often limited by the divine masculine (Christ the Logos), the logical left hemisphere of the brain, because of beliefs including religious programming. Therefore, we have to be careful we don't fall into the "expert phenomena" where we render someone with a certificate to hold superior intelligence that turns off our own critical thinking and inner resonance. I am definitely guilty of such and it took me to become an attorney to see that, that a certificate doesn't render higher intelligence (especially in a world where "experts" can be bought), but I realize that it was a stepping stone for my own growth.
As an example, I use youtube "angel card" intuitive readers, particularly from those with a Christian dualist perspective. Even though such readers may be able to communicate with angels, I find the perspectives to be harshly limited by some individuals (not all) where the reader may not understand that the concept of angels and demons come from the greek "daemon", simply being a contracted entity. It is human notions that place these daemons, these gargoyles, into human dualist ethical standards. As a human is considered to be created in God's image and hold a position higher than these angels, it is because humans grasp the plethora of duality, both the light and dark, just as the unlimited One. Humans are a microcosm of the great macrocosm, as above so below. Even the devils of these religions are not necessarily all-evil beings, but are more likely the gods of the conquered cultures. Lucifer is the morning star, the lighted one, who later became the Christian opponent. Satan, or Sheitan, simply means "opposer", where again, this devil imagery is derived from Dante rather then biblical interpretations. In fact, from reading the Old Testament with beings (plural!) labelling themselves as YHVH who are constantly smiting groups and individuals to get their way, the "opposer" doesn't seem to be the figure to blame as expressed in the Lord's Prayer where you ask the "Father" to "lead us not into temptation", not the devil. Though one can explore the lower astral realms and find figures of "evil", my perspective for such travels is to understand why and what I was to learn from these experiences, as opposed to playing the blame game. Hence, from what I've found, logic must meet the intuition to see a wider perspective. It's a balance of the hemisphere's of the brain, wholeness, where your intuition will only take you as far as your logic can grasp.
That's just me, everyone's on their own path, and these readers are here for a particular group of individuals. Again, I take what resonates and leave the rest behind, where I guard myself from falling victim to the "expert phenomena" concept. Those intuitives that I trust the most are usually those whose majority words are aligned to my own inner resonance (logically built up from years of studying), leaving me at the edge of my seat with further anticipation. Piercing the veil is another game, another discernment, that we're forging, where it behooves us to not be quick to simply accept what is perceived, but remain in critical assessment to ever increase our understanding about these provided messages, as they are expressed through our filters, our programming.
Nonetheless, the intuitive to trust the most is your own Self, where the real Guru resides in the hidden energy center within the cranium, the Guru Chakra, the destroyer of ignorance. However, the energy flowing through from these external intuitives may be the real deal that you can also energetically tap into their frequency, but again, the wording expressed may be significantly filtered. Hence, always ask yourself, does it ring true for you. Follow your own inner guidance.
Diwali night, October, 30, 2016, I left my night time meditation to sleep telling myself, "holy shit, you've just got a massive upgrade". I was left in awe and the knowing that nothing will be the same. I know my meditation has been more expansive, but to bridge the two worlds, of the seen with the unseen, it appears to be a pioneering experience for me.
It's Diwali, we have the abundant materialist Lakshmi who is honored and praised in this tradition, to attract the fortunes available in the new year. As a devotee of Kali, I would like to transcend such attachments, but realizing her manifestations as Sodashi, or Kamala, the wisdom of the universe is beautifully abundantly there for our enjoyment. Nonetheless, after leaving the parental households of numerous relatives all paying homage to Lakshmi, I returned home to meditate holding a copper blessed yantra dedicated to the Mahavidyas, including the Lakshmi twin Kamala.
Immediately drawn within with the help of my guides, my channels are flowing, and my mind is tied to the mantra vibrating from my third-eye as the vibrations echo through my body. As I pause to move into a state of being of no-thought to feel the connection between my crown and to a place beyond creation, I'm immediately slammed into a wave that forces my body to convulse. Lingering here, I'm immediately noticing the subtle sounds of my surroundings with no mental interpretations. My inner body is clear which can only be described as oxygen entering into new areas of my body, from my lower pubic area to my forehead. My skull is struggling to hold the energy within my head, as my body is stretching, spine cracking, muscles releasing, the only thing I can do is to relax into myself. As anxiety and stress is flushed down my grounding cord from my root chakra to the center of the Earth, I finally feel like myself, unbound by the external worlds wants and demands.
In my own psyche, I needed to forgive the worst of the worst, but first I needed to realize who that may be for myself. If Showtimes "Dexter" taught me anything, it was to enter the mind of a feeling-less sociopath and see life through a serial killer's perspective. "Dexter" is a show that leaves you supporting the serial killer, who becomes somewhat relate-able as a good-guy character as he targets hard-criminals as a way to manage his "dark passenger". So typical murders may not be so bad for me, I wanted to realize who really I think is unforgivable. I realized, that it would be anyone who does something to criminally harm children. In embodying the Christ energy, I needed to ask myself the more difficult question, "what if I did something this heinous in a past life?". As the panic attack developed at this sheer idea, I realized I needed to heal those aspects of me.
In remembering the love of Christ, I felt his pain and humiliation on the Cross as I looked out at the shouting audience wishing his ultimate demise. As a God, I assumed Jesus could easily detach from his pain, the way yogis and taoists detach from their senses. Jesus could have been completely detached, the way we go into no-mind under meditation or hypnosis, but he remained present to experience the pain for the benefit of his accusatory viewers.
I asked myself, how would Christ's suffering benefit his viewers? Immediately I was in the position of shouting profanities and the worst hells upon a fragile tearful figure spread out on the Cross. In that fury, I heard the Christ mumble, "Father forgive them". In that glow, I realized despite what I did to what appeared to me to be another flawed human being, that figure still loved me enough to have asked to have me forgiven.
All the while moving through this, the mantra to Goddess Kali was being vibrated and echoed through my inner caverns. The worst of the worst all have one thing in common, fear. They work from a place of fear, instill fear, and find power through fear. The Goddess Kali has always been portrayed in a very fearful aspect, one that is suited to Halloween, which was the following day of October 31, 2016. In attempting to unite with Her, in her fearful form, I realized my own fears in doing so. In other words, She was my Goddess of Fear. In helping me with my fears and bridging love into parts of me I deem unforgivable, I needed to fall in love with the Goddess of Fear. The one thing more fearful than being a victim of heinous criminal acts would be to commit the heinous criminal act. But we need to recognize the wisdom of those circumstances, such as the wisdom gained from the act of the Christ Crucifixion, which is to completely love and forgive others and our own selves.
Thereafter, the meditation concluded by seeing myself seated in lotus position in the center of an ancient court surrounded by the 10 Mahavidyas, all showering their blessings on me. However, it's not that we were separate, but we were all one. I could feel them outside me as I get to admire them, but I also felt them inside me, as me. As Tara I would feel fierce, as Sodashi I would be a teenage girl ready to rebel and forge my way into adulthood, as Chinnamasta I would feel balanced within, and so forth.
One of the greatest teachings I was provided in viewing societal structures and life in general, is that, if you want to find the root of a client's problem, don't necessarily listen to what the client says, but more importantly, follow the trail of money. Take that teaching and move it into every aspect of society. You'll find corruption, conflicts of interest, and a plethora of issues in almost every aspect of society. To get to the heart of the problem, follow the trail or money.
In prior presidential debates, candidates would be asked "is healthcare a right, or a privilege". Essentially, candidates were being asked, should everyone have healthcare, or only those that can afford it. Of course, the answers were divided between party lines, where either it's shared, or there was the fear of limited resources being presented indicating that only if you can afford it should you be able to receive it. In an economy where wealth perpetuates wealth, where those who have the financial resources are able to obtain the lower interest rates so they would never have to use their own money for risky ventures, as well as the continual divide between the social classes with the middle class being squeezed out since the George W. Bush administration, healthcare has become a financial issue more than ever. In every political debate discussing healthcare, the finances are what is discussed, not necessarily the quality.
Politicians are not medical doctors nor scientists. Though most are attorneys who through their profession, must learn about different non-legal areas in order to provide proper representation, such representation is done through a narrow lens where you look for individuals in the represented industry who will say what you want them to say. When politicians address healthcare, they address the costs and who should be able to obtain healthcare. None, at least within my purview, have addressed the issue of healthcare in a capitalist environment. Basically, is our medical industry looking for cures or are they looking for repeat customers?
Let's face it, we've all needed finances in order to survive in this man-made collective arrangement we call society. Take it one step-further, most of us have a little bit of Donald Trump fantasy in us, where we would like to have the finances of a business tycoon and walk around like some wall-street fat cat. Especially when inner work hasn't been done, when all can be found and sourced within, where we choose to look to external circumstances to dictate our happiness, we get caught up in this rat-race trap to find our happiness. Such is found through probably every CEO or Board Member of a medical non-profit that I've witnessed, whose driving around in a luxurious tax deducted company car, and living a lifestyle that many have only dreamed of, again with many luxuries such as fancy restaurants being written off. The taste of power and money is all too enticing, and I'm far from saying that such is bad. It's when others are manipulated and trodden upon to attain such that I pose some issues.
The biggest threat to Western Medicine is Traditional Medicine, or what is deemed "alternative" in the Western world. Basically, if you provide someone with a cure, the medical industry no longer has a client, or a dependent who needs to keep coming back for assistance. Second, if the cure is natural product, as often provided under traditional medicine, the medical industry cannot put a patent on the product. As evidenced by the pharmaceutical industry, where a majority of their profits do not go into research, but marketing, natural products are an extensive threat to a major profitable industry. Hence, in order to survive, these guys need political representation, lobbying, with the intent to stop traditional medicine from flourishing.
Growing up in the Western world, we go to the doctor for health concerns, and we place a significant amount of trust within our educated for assistance. This is something coined as the "expert phenomena" where individuals will subdue their logic and place full trust in someone who has an "education" or a "certificate". However, we now live in the age of information, where a wealth of information is just a few clicks away, where the average individual can now research their own issues and have a better discussion with their health practitioner. Nonetheless, provided the amount of traditional medicine information available, the Western Medical world has had some trouble addressing such issues, especially when the trail of money begins to flow elsewhere.
Growing up in an Eastern household, a few relatives took the alternative medicine route, studying Oriental Medicine and Indian Ayurvedic Medicine, practices predating much of even basic cultural development in the Western wold. Hence, I've seen and obtained the benefit of acupuncture/cupping and proper nutrition. In order to properly discuss these topics within the Western world, it was pivotal to understand the Medical communities views on these topics. Hence, I've done the research a few years back and the National Institute of Health had even stated that there was something more to acupuncture beyond the placebo affect, where clients had more benefit from actual practitioners as opposed to individuals that were randomly sticking needles on one's body. However, when the National Institute of Health released that information, a plethora of Medical school furiously opposed the research arguing that such should not even be studied as it's an "old wives tale". My legal mind expected a better, more scientific argument from the Medical community, one that would refute the non-placebo affect of acupuncture. So why would an educated community make such a "poison the well", and extremely arrogant, type of argument I asked myself? Well, just follow the trail of money. This type of argument reminds me of when attorneys go into Court bragging about what big law school they attended, what big firm they are employed at, or what ground breaking cases they've worked on, as opposed to actually arguing the merits of the presented moving documents.
With the recent Olympics in Brazil, the global news and social media were astonished at the many athletes, including the prominent Michael Phelps, using "cupping", a traditional Asian practice akin to a deep tissue massage. I've used cupping myself numerous times, all which throughout the days thereafter have led to release of significant muscular tension, in addition to the numerous marks. Hence, it makes sense to me for athletes to receive cupping. A quicker fitness recovery leads to better performance. Though most fitness and nutritional blogs came out in support of cupping, again, the scientific community placed the practice into the category of a placebo while admitting that much research (in the Western world) needed to be done to discuss the benefits. Again, such arguments resound with how the Western Medical community responded with acupuncture. If much more Western research is to be desired in the very ancient practice of "cupping", why are they so quick to group "cupping" into a placebo affect, as in, inferior to Western Medicine? Especially in a world where it is much healthier to receive "cupping" as opposed to taking a pill, even if it is over-the-counter pain medicines, you'd think the Medical Community would either be more receptive, or actually attempt to study the merits thereof.
In a nation that is extremely hocked-up on pharmaceuticals, you would think the Medical industry would look for better options, as opposed to fighting them. The Eastern world takes a deeper holistic approach, using many modalities frowned upon by the mainstream Western world. From using astrology to find an individuals ailments, to discovering someone's body type and providing a nutritional/fitness approach based on the assessed information, to analyzing someone's lifetyle, the Eastern world has attempted to assess someone inside out, in a preventative manner. The Western world is slowly grasping prevention, where the Western world has focused on after the fact of disease or injury, and only on the disease as opposed to the cause of the disease.
To take this one step further into the realm of odd for the Western practitioner, the Western world will never be able to fully understand the Eastern modalities without attempting to understand the source of all, Consciousness. Psychology has a long way to go in the Western world, where individuals like Carl Jung extrapolated much from Eastern Philosophy and Western Esoteric. In addition, the next generation of rebellious psychologists were censored, such as Wilhelm Reich whose later students developed bioenergetics. In fact, Wilhelm Reich is the case study of the most censored individual in U.S. history, not Nikola Tesla. Reich discovered the ability to manipulate prana, chi, etc., though he named it orgone based off of orgasmic energy. Such healing modes are directly involved with an individuals state of consciousness, of mental psychological health, where the dissonance in one's life manifests as dis-ease. Such is further found by individuals who have been involved in hypnotherapy, traditional ayhuasca ceremonies, or other esoteric psychic healing modalities, where the disease in one's life is directly related to that individuals thought processes.
Though, because of the "expert phenomena", many will continue to refuse their own reasoning when it comes to "established" Western practices, and much Eastern practices will require an understanding of Eastern philosophy to understand what is really going on inside oneself. The traditional modern Chemist (not ancient alchemist like Isaac Newton) or Biologist, will have many issues in resolving Eastern practices as they will always look for objective evidence. Nonetheless, the Eastern Philosopher, and Physicist (particularly those studying subatomic particles/quantum mechanics) who understands how consciousness affects objective reality (double-slit theory), should understand the power of Eastern Traditional Medicine. But before the Western world can even grapple with Eastern modalities, psychology, and philosophy, we still have the issue of the trail of money within the Medical industry. If it's not profitable, in fact counter-profitable, how is this industry going to handle these issues?
In Robert Greene's Mastery, he lists numerous individuals who seemed to develop a passion as a child. The famed Leonardo Da Vinci was one such individual, where due to being born out of wedlock, he was forbidden from attending the University that would have led to a noble profession. Left to himself, he would traverse the woods where he began his drawings. From an early age, his perception of organic material led him to the question of what makes things grown and transform where he developed the desire to figure things out and do things for his own self. In apprenticing with an artist, Da Vinci would continue to do things his way, through his own passions. His personal drive and nonconformity led his teacher to somewhat despise him, the same sentiment probably shared by the local community who all were looking for the same patterns in their artwork. But, Da Vinci had a drive to do more, and to do things his way, to express regardless if anyone took note. Hence, moving to Milan, he setup shop and continued to do his work the way he wanted. As an example, Da Vinci would attempt the first paintings of Angels with realistic wings. He would study aviary, the geometry and mechanics of flight, to push his artwork further. To do so without fame or profit, Da Vinci was moved solely by his own personal desire, his own passion, what Robert Greene described as his "inclination".
From Da Vinci's path, as well as many others described in Mastery, seems to support the "follow your bliss" sentiment. Being in the Vortex as Abraham Hicks would say, you simply take a step forward in the direction that seems to have the most "inclination", the most love, the most joy, the most bliss, and keep proceeding from there. This process is substantially different from what typical conformed society has consistently propagated, where from an early age, children are placed in a boxed room and force fed information society expects them to learn to keep the wheel of society turning. Looking back at my own schooling, how little time was actually provided to absorb and process before the next batch of factual information would be forced unto us, and I mean forced given that it was expected to be memorized and understood in someone else's allotted time-frame. How much of the curriculum does the child get to dictate based on his or her own "inclination". Further, I have often felt that every parent/teacher should know their child's natal astrology to discover their interests, and psychological way of comprehension, to help push them in the direction they would desire. Nonetheless, our society seems to be driven on practicality, we need to financially support ourselves, and even a worse belief, we need to find emotional support outside of ourselves. Hence, though one may have an "inclination", they may seek another route that would lead to more finances, or more fame or social status that would bring in love, respect, honor, etc. We're taught to seek these things from outside of ourselves, as opposed to following our own inner resonance and inclinations.
Through the law of attraction teachings, the idea is to stay in the resonance of your bliss, your "inclinations", which will lead you to what you need in the moment. Such philosophy is contrary to societal beliefs, where extensive childhood and adult education is required to prepare for a "future", as opposed to living in the Now, or accepting presence-energy, and acting out of inclinations. It pulls us out of truly living in the moment, where intuitive impulses will assist in directing. Like spending an hour just listening to music, we often shuffle through our music looking for songs that best suit the current mood or uplifts it. Same with our lives, it seems like individual like Da Vinci, Mozart, Darwin, Marie Curie, Albert Einstein (named in Mastery), and other individuals like Nikolai Tesla and Carl Jung, all followed an inner drive that was discovered within them from an early age, where they simply fed it to expand those interests.
Though the law of attraction sounds a bit new agey, in fact, it appears to be the preeminent teaching to enter into the Age of Aquarius, or "freedom" from the mystical mysterious Age of Pisces, there appears to be numerous elevated individuals who have this common unity. However, this material is not taught in formal education systems, and many of us are still clinging onto paths that were given to us by others (parents, education, sociology, politics, etc.), going against the grain and following your hearts' desire seems to be the key to enter the realm of genius, not necessarily a proper education.
So get into a feeling of bliss, take steps that will further that bliss, and perpetually drink of the Universe till your heart is content. If you have a passion for something, feed it impulsively like there's no one watching/judging.
Given the advent of the internet and the widespread sharing of information outside of limiting media sources, there's a plenitude of individuals claiming to be "awake". Whether it is awake to the corruption of our social-economic structures ranging from our political circus to religious dogmatism, or spiritually awake in the sense to knowledge of the "third-eye". Given that I am first and foremost a seeker, particularly one that felt the qualms of society and religion at a very early age, I have never been quite satisfied with any information obtained, especially without resulting experiences. Even from the most followed gurus, I felt there is always more, and I want the fastest route possible. Nonetheless, I don't think there is an "awakened" state, other then from our current human condition. But, there seems to be a perpetual "awakening", a reason to spiritually exist. A desire that seems to never be quenched.
Meditation, mixed with decades of diving into numerous esoteric and mystical texts, has screwed up my psyche to the point where I don't really relate to much of the masses. Particularly beginning with my ego-death experience back in early 2015, everything my two-eyes seem to perceive feels illusory. It's like watching a movie filled with characters acting our their ego-script, especially when knowing one's astrology. The veil over my intuition, or curtain covering the "behind the scenes" is still there, probably so that I don't immediately give up on the script, and further keeps my journey relevant. Nonetheless, not only do I feel that those around me are acting out of script (either astrology, societal beliefs, or parental instilling, etc), but I have since sought to manipulate my own psyche, and potentially undo my ego-script. As Bentinho Massaro stated, in-line with our ancient metaphysical texts, "consciousness creates the body, the body does not create consciousness". Hence, I should be able to manipulate my own consciousness, where I seek to undo conditioning that appears to limit what I believe myself capable of being.
My meditation experiences have continually affected the way I perceive this dimension with my two-eyes. Because of such perception, I see people so engaged in their roles, in their beautiful desire to serve or manipulate, but I feel that many miss a bigger picture. This feeling stems from my perception of this engagement as an illusion. It's like waking up from a nighttime dream, do I sit and think to myself that I could have done better in that dream, or do I take whatever symbolism I can remember and try to gain wisdom and move on. It's a sense of detachment. Same with this dimension perceived with my two-eyes, is death a waking up from this dream? When I die to this dream, am I going to have regrets of not serving enough, or doing the best I can, or do I perceive it the way I would with my nighttime dream? With a sense of detachment.
Every mystical text and organization that I have found has stressed the "awakening" to be Self-Realization, or awakening the ego-identity to the Higher Self. To remove the "I" identity for a "Universal" identity, and quite possibly something beyond the Universe (Brahman). No doubt, my ego-death experience discussed above placed me in a position where I felt like I was a Universe of many different star systems, where my individual identity was merely a clay pot attempting to be something. In such experience, everyone that I attempted to remember and perceive felt like a moving clay version of a Van Gogh painting. To bridge that Universal identity with this clay pot seems to be the goal of bridging to Higher Self, or to be "aware" while conscious, sleep, and deep sleep (unconscious) as defined as Turiya in the Siva Sutras. Such state of being is placing one in a complete state of "awareness" void of thought, one which is brought about through the Goddess energy residing at the base of the spine who assists in clearing the delusory and limiting faculties of the psyche. To attain such clarity of the ever-present Now moment, is the pulling in of Higher Self energy.
Hence, to awaken appears to be so much more than the simple corruptions of our world, which are most likely there as obstacles to keep us desiring and/or striving for more. From a loving perspective, the evils we see are most likely a beautiful purging of our shadow side lost in our psyche that plagues our ego-identity, when truly viewing the Universe and all Her counterparts as a mirror reflection of our own consciousness. This is why Tibetan Buddhist stress compassionate loving for all, for to attain rainbow light body status, you must realize that all is a reflection of the one infinite Self, for the Highest Self is one. Therefore, to truly awaken seems to be defined as walking among the delusion as the Higher Self bridged with ego-identity, and thus creating a beautiful illusion, or a Lila as described in Hinduism.
To sum it up, we're either coming from a place of mindful pure "awareness", which is Higher Self energy, or we are coming from a place clouded by opinions, judgments, and thoughts, which is ego-identity. The more we bridge into the state of simple "awareness", we obtain clarity from the resistance of our ego-identity and expand our ability to be "aware", or awaken to so much more that can be described as "cosmic consciousness".
What's the next awakening beyond that? Well that beats me and I'm assuming that is something that can't be fully described through "human" faculties, but I feel exists. Nonetheless, allow me to take this one-step at a time.
When we dissolve the "I", the subconsciousness becomes consciousness.
In Hinduisim we have a saying, "when the student is ready, the teacher will come". Since I was a child, so many alleged teachers have stepped into our family households. We've had brilliant Vedic practitioners, devotional monks, fundamentalists (from numerous religions), and sometimes a few esoteric oddballs that don't seem to fall into a category. Overall, even if the "teachers" had some legitimate teachings, I was really turned off by spiritual car salesman pitch. Because of my refusal to submit to any particular teaching, mixed with the desire to know that there is more out of life, out of spirit, I can feel that I've been divinely guided. In my search for higher truths, or beliefs that are more-in-line with spirit, I've since realized the Universe herself is my teacher.
I've had a natural inclination to devote to a divine entity upon walking this earth. Hence, our ancient spiritual stories ring true in my heart. My search is for the highest, which I felt as a child was Shiva, our Transcendent Lord. It was not until I seen a woman standing on my guy, that I had to realize that there is always another level. Nonetheless, reaching for the great Divine Mother of Illusion, Mahamaya, the Goddess known as Kali, the space/time fabric of our Universe, to help me seek wisdom has been the only main submission for me.
Though I still seek "gurus", and revel in numerous teachings crafted by humans, I cannot submit to one guru, one philosophical concept, one community. Though I also have a natural inclination to despise hierarchy and authority figures, as depicted in my astrology chart, my path is to follow my own resonance. I seek the blessing of my divine Goddess, and from there, I follow each of my intentional seeking moments with a synchronistic pull. Instead of following one teacher and going step by step, I simply follow my own inner feeling into what seems most spiritually elating. Hence, though with numerous teachers, I follow my own path in sorting through what's out there.
In doing this work without a set guru, a set community, a set boundary spiritual system, I've realized that it's painfully lonely, emotionally debilitating, and psychologically chaotic, but I see results. I'm not recommending this route for others, where it's much safer to walk a path that already has some guiding footsteps. In fact, even my path has many much older footsteps, it's just that I'm choosing which direction without care to my sanity.
I've since realized that I could have fallen off the deep end psychologically with the practice that I've done. After all, most people live their life never giving a second thought to having a "shadow side", and what could possibly be hidden in such depths. I've recognized that having devotion to a divine entity was my saving grace, who was able to cut through the dark vines to help me gain clarity when consciously lost in the dark.
In following my own inner feels, in my lack of submission, I feel deeply accomplished differing from other spiritual individuals who cite to other individuals for guidance. I mean, I do that too, but only when it feels right with my own inner resonance which I make sure I churn with analysis. If a guru tells me to stay indoors during a lunar eclipse without rationale, I'm the type to say fuck that, and invoke the moon as I have done written in a prior post.
Given that my practice is all about trial and error, the numerous synchronicities, the substantial changes both physical and within my psyche, as well as having the ability to tap into somethings that don't feel like my own identity but higher, all I can say is the Universe is the greatest teacher. When you allow her to be, when you're ready, she will be your greatest Teacher. Given the Universe is the illusion we see, she provides you with teaching in many ways, for those with eyes to see and ears to hear. Stay true to your inner resonance, be guided by what feels right for you.
We need to love our diversity. We're not all meant to wear the same shoes, and walk the same path. Regardless of what differing path we walk, we're all in this Universe together. We're all just trying to discover the truth about ourselves, about our spirit.
Overly educated and continuously exploring and revealing more behind the veil.
"It cannot be too highly emphasized that the mystic swims in the same waters in which the psychotic drowns."
-James Wasserman, The Mystery Traditions