Given the advent of the internet and the widespread sharing of information outside of limiting media sources, there's a plenitude of individuals claiming to be "awake". Whether it is awake to the corruption of our social-economic structures ranging from our political circus to religious dogmatism, or spiritually awake in the sense to knowledge of the "third-eye". Given that I am first and foremost a seeker, particularly one that felt the qualms of society and religion at a very early age, I have never been quite satisfied with any information obtained, especially without resulting experiences. Even from the most followed gurus, I felt there is always more, and I want the fastest route possible. Nonetheless, I don't think there is an "awakened" state, other then from our current human condition. But, there seems to be a perpetual "awakening", a reason to spiritually exist. A desire that seems to never be quenched.
Meditation, mixed with decades of diving into numerous esoteric and mystical texts, has screwed up my psyche to the point where I don't really relate to much of the masses. Particularly beginning with my ego-death experience back in early 2015, everything my two-eyes seem to perceive feels illusory. It's like watching a movie filled with characters acting our their ego-script, especially when knowing one's astrology. The veil over my intuition, or curtain covering the "behind the scenes" is still there, probably so that I don't immediately give up on the script, and further keeps my journey relevant. Nonetheless, not only do I feel that those around me are acting out of script (either astrology, societal beliefs, or parental instilling, etc), but I have since sought to manipulate my own psyche, and potentially undo my ego-script. As Bentinho Massaro stated, in-line with our ancient metaphysical texts, "consciousness creates the body, the body does not create consciousness". Hence, I should be able to manipulate my own consciousness, where I seek to undo conditioning that appears to limit what I believe myself capable of being.
My meditation experiences have continually affected the way I perceive this dimension with my two-eyes. Because of such perception, I see people so engaged in their roles, in their beautiful desire to serve or manipulate, but I feel that many miss a bigger picture. This feeling stems from my perception of this engagement as an illusion. It's like waking up from a nighttime dream, do I sit and think to myself that I could have done better in that dream, or do I take whatever symbolism I can remember and try to gain wisdom and move on. It's a sense of detachment. Same with this dimension perceived with my two-eyes, is death a waking up from this dream? When I die to this dream, am I going to have regrets of not serving enough, or doing the best I can, or do I perceive it the way I would with my nighttime dream? With a sense of detachment.
Every mystical text and organization that I have found has stressed the "awakening" to be Self-Realization, or awakening the ego-identity to the Higher Self. To remove the "I" identity for a "Universal" identity, and quite possibly something beyond the Universe (Brahman). No doubt, my ego-death experience discussed above placed me in a position where I felt like I was a Universe of many different star systems, where my individual identity was merely a clay pot attempting to be something. In such experience, everyone that I attempted to remember and perceive felt like a moving clay version of a Van Gogh painting. To bridge that Universal identity with this clay pot seems to be the goal of bridging to Higher Self, or to be "aware" while conscious, sleep, and deep sleep (unconscious) as defined as Turiya in the Siva Sutras. Such state of being is placing one in a complete state of "awareness" void of thought, one which is brought about through the Goddess energy residing at the base of the spine who assists in clearing the delusory and limiting faculties of the psyche. To attain such clarity of the ever-present Now moment, is the pulling in of Higher Self energy.
Hence, to awaken appears to be so much more than the simple corruptions of our world, which are most likely there as obstacles to keep us desiring and/or striving for more. From a loving perspective, the evils we see are most likely a beautiful purging of our shadow side lost in our psyche that plagues our ego-identity, when truly viewing the Universe and all Her counterparts as a mirror reflection of our own consciousness. This is why Tibetan Buddhist stress compassionate loving for all, for to attain rainbow light body status, you must realize that all is a reflection of the one infinite Self, for the Highest Self is one. Therefore, to truly awaken seems to be defined as walking among the delusion as the Higher Self bridged with ego-identity, and thus creating a beautiful illusion, or a Lila as described in Hinduism.
To sum it up, we're either coming from a place of mindful pure "awareness", which is Higher Self energy, or we are coming from a place clouded by opinions, judgments, and thoughts, which is ego-identity. The more we bridge into the state of simple "awareness", we obtain clarity from the resistance of our ego-identity and expand our ability to be "aware", or awaken to so much more that can be described as "cosmic consciousness".
What's the next awakening beyond that? Well that beats me and I'm assuming that is something that can't be fully described through "human" faculties, but I feel exists. Nonetheless, allow me to take this one-step at a time.
When we dissolve the "I", the subconsciousness becomes consciousness.
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-James Wasserman, The Mystery Traditions