Diwali night, October, 30, 2016, I left my night time meditation to sleep telling myself, "holy shit, you've just got a massive upgrade". I was left in awe and the knowing that nothing will be the same. I know my meditation has been more expansive, but to bridge the two worlds, of the seen with the unseen, it appears to be a pioneering experience for me. It's Diwali, we have the abundant materialist Lakshmi who is honored and praised in this tradition, to attract the fortunes available in the new year. As a devotee of Kali, I would like to transcend such attachments, but realizing her manifestations as Sodashi, or Kamala, the wisdom of the universe is beautifully abundantly there for our enjoyment. Nonetheless, after leaving the parental households of numerous relatives all paying homage to Lakshmi, I returned home to meditate holding a copper blessed yantra dedicated to the Mahavidyas, including the Lakshmi twin Kamala. Immediately drawn within with the help of my guides, my channels are flowing, and my mind is tied to the mantra vibrating from my third-eye as the vibrations echo through my body. As I pause to move into a state of being of no-thought to feel the connection between my crown and to a place beyond creation, I'm immediately slammed into a wave that forces my body to convulse. Lingering here, I'm immediately noticing the subtle sounds of my surroundings with no mental interpretations. My inner body is clear which can only be described as oxygen entering into new areas of my body, from my lower pubic area to my forehead. My skull is struggling to hold the energy within my head, as my body is stretching, spine cracking, muscles releasing, the only thing I can do is to relax into myself. As anxiety and stress is flushed down my grounding cord from my root chakra to the center of the Earth, I finally feel like myself, unbound by the external worlds wants and demands.
In my own psyche, I needed to forgive the worst of the worst, but first I needed to realize who that may be for myself. If Showtimes "Dexter" taught me anything, it was to enter the mind of a feeling-less sociopath and see life through a serial killer's perspective. "Dexter" is a show that leaves you supporting the serial killer, who becomes somewhat relate-able as a good-guy character as he targets hard-criminals as a way to manage his "dark passenger". So typical murders may not be so bad for me, I wanted to realize who really I think is unforgivable. I realized, that it would be anyone who does something to criminally harm children. In embodying the Christ energy, I needed to ask myself the more difficult question, "what if I did something this heinous in a past life?". As the panic attack developed at this sheer idea, I realized I needed to heal those aspects of me. In remembering the love of Christ, I felt his pain and humiliation on the Cross as I looked out at the shouting audience wishing his ultimate demise. As a God, I assumed Jesus could easily detach from his pain, the way yogis and taoists detach from their senses. Jesus could have been completely detached, the way we go into no-mind under meditation or hypnosis, but he remained present to experience the pain for the benefit of his accusatory viewers. I asked myself, how would Christ's suffering benefit his viewers? Immediately I was in the position of shouting profanities and the worst hells upon a fragile tearful figure spread out on the Cross. In that fury, I heard the Christ mumble, "Father forgive them". In that glow, I realized despite what I did to what appeared to me to be another flawed human being, that figure still loved me enough to have asked to have me forgiven. All the while moving through this, the mantra to Goddess Kali was being vibrated and echoed through my inner caverns. The worst of the worst all have one thing in common, fear. They work from a place of fear, instill fear, and find power through fear. The Goddess Kali has always been portrayed in a very fearful aspect, one that is suited to Halloween, which was the following day of October 31, 2016. In attempting to unite with Her, in her fearful form, I realized my own fears in doing so. In other words, She was my Goddess of Fear. In helping me with my fears and bridging love into parts of me I deem unforgivable, I needed to fall in love with the Goddess of Fear. The one thing more fearful than being a victim of heinous criminal acts would be to commit the heinous criminal act. But we need to recognize the wisdom of those circumstances, such as the wisdom gained from the act of the Christ Crucifixion, which is to completely love and forgive others and our own selves. Thereafter, the meditation concluded by seeing myself seated in lotus position in the center of an ancient court surrounded by the 10 Mahavidyas, all showering their blessings on me. However, it's not that we were separate, but we were all one. I could feel them outside me as I get to admire them, but I also felt them inside me, as me. As Tara I would feel fierce, as Sodashi I would be a teenage girl ready to rebel and forge my way into adulthood, as Chinnamasta I would feel balanced within, and so forth.
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In many of our ancient traditions, from Hinduism to Native Indigenous, the Goddess is praised as the weaver of our existence. In particular Hindu sects, the Goddess as Shakti, or in her Adi-Shakti form as Kali, is known as the MahaMaya, the Great Illusion. While Shiva represents the ability to be aware, as he is prakasa, the light of consciousness, Shakti gives us something to be aware of. Hence, it's through the illusory qualities that we're provided with the space-time fabric that consists of the Universe. Therefore, what many religions fail to realize, those that are of the anti-matrix breed, is that their deities or figures of worship would not exist but for the matrix. If you believe heaven to be a tangible existence, or something of the like in spiritual form, well, that would not exist but for the matrix. With the collapse of our Universe into what the Vedics teach as Brahaman, so would collapse every form, including every figment of worship that we have sought on this planet. The illusion we find ourselves in is crafted for the delight of Shiva and Shakti, the attractive positive and negative energy, which creates the ability for each of us to carry out our story, where we traverse our Hero's Journey. Hence, the illusion provides us with our existence, our forms of traditions, our forms of worship, basically our existence. In Native American traditions, the Grandmother Spider, like the Greek Ariadne, weaves humanity's story and existence. Munya Andrews, The Seven Sisters of the Pleiades. Within that story, there is often a balance required, a type of path where judgment is used to keep matters progressing, or insists on an orderliness. Such is often the work of our judgment deities, mostly influenced by the Egyptian Ma'at (maatrix) where we have obtained our balancing scales. Id. Even the Catholics have the divine mother as expressed as Mother Mary, a figure not praised in later protestant traditions who sought to purge the pagan elements of Catholicism. Just as Siddhartha who became Buddha Shakyamuni was born of his mother Maya, so was Jesus who became the Christ figure was born of his mother Mar-y, where Mar implies the ocean of creation. Bringing this back to Kali, the mother of the cosmos is often defined by two terms, MahaMaya as the Great Illusion as expressed earlier, and MahaVidya as the Great Wisdom Goddess. Hence, the divine mother provides you what you desire, be it delusion on one end, or wisdom on the other. Therefore, the matrix can be seen as a computer program of existence. However, those that seek to attack the program are simply pointing the finger at the programmer as opposed to their own selves who have sought delusion over wisdom. Not to play-down any Archontic forces that may place a virus in the programming, but to ultimately conclude that we still have free-choice despite such influences, where substantial wisdom is to be gained from obstacles. Essentially, I'm exhausted from hearing "maya" is bad, etc., where our power has always lied within us, including the ability to give our power away and delude ourselves into thinking we're powerless. We really have no one else to blame but ourselves when we fall into our delusions, not satan, not demons, when we realize the power the matrix has placed within us to seek the truth and wisdom of each matter. As the great Mother of creation, she's given us the opportunity to get completely lost within our own delusions, or liberate ourselves and seek wisdom. In other words, we can't point the finger elsewhere, but at our own selves.
In studying the mystical aspects of numerous exoteric religions, I'm often left wondering why such teachings do not have a wider audience. I was never satisfied with the basic, thou shalt do this, thou shalt not do this, or the whole accept this into your heart and heaven is automatically yours, which seems to plague all major religions and lead us fighting over left-brain doctrine. What's worse is that these concepts are derived more so from blind-faith, not legitimate experience. Those that have experience are often thrown to the wolves, especially if they contradict strict doctrinal understanding. Hinduism doesn't have as much of a strict notion, but when the threat of conversion arises for the strict Vedic tradition, the Brahamanic tradition has attempted to claim dominance. Though it can be seen as complimentary, the Tantric and Bhakti movements were counter to the Brahamanic caste system, where such teachings permit those on the bottom to achieve spiritual success. Nonetheless, other major religions have either sought to eliminate the mystical and even scientific (physics), reminiscent of the Medieval ages where such understandings could only be expressed in secret societies. Such persecution resulted in limiting the understanding to strict man-made or man-influenced doctrine, which still plays a major role in religions today. As an example, the Hebrews may interpret their holy books through an oral tradition known as the Qabalah. With such an understanding the literal interpretation of doctrine isn't as important as the psychological development, or in other words, consciousness expansion of an individual. Coming across and meditating on certain ideas, or archetypes, does something to the psyche that quite cannot be elaborated with the symbol of human language. I experienced such in studying the Sephirot of the Tree of Life, particularly the supernal triad, where the creation story of God, Adam, and Eve is pre-school compared to Kether, Chesed, and Binah. Modern day Christianity lacks the Qabalah or other meditative elements, sans the Gnostic, Swedenborg, and others I will not name. Hence, the modern Christian takes a limited logical approach to doctrine, knowing full-well that Jesus was raised listening to Rabbi's. Such was most likely the doing of the Roman empire, which crafted a religion more akin to Mithraic Roman sentiments, though argued to be done in order to convert pagans, but removes much of the mystical Hebrew elements that meditatively allow an individual to perceive deeper into spiritual realms. Two Thousand (2000) years later, you have a religion that praises Jesus' birth on Mithras's birthday, still blames the Jews for Jesus' crucifixion instead of the Roman empire, swears an oath to the Roman creed of Nicea established doctrine inhibiting sovereign thought, and considers the Qabalah/Gnostics to be evil. It's not enough that such groups convert others through the concept of blind-faith, but they have driven those that seek more from their spirituality underground. Hence, the information that was once accessible to the many have become mysteries in the Age of Pisces. Here, one had to become an initiate of the mystery schools, or leave society for solitary experience, in order to pierce beyond the veil. The creation of the internet ushered in a new age, the age of information. At the palm of our hands, we basically now have access to a limited Akashic record. Information that was once retained in secrecy is now widespread, one that organized religion cannot hide though still manages to fight against. Information regarding once occult knowledge is now easily accessible, though too accessible where now one has to sort through vast amounts of coal to find diamonds. Words and concepts such as yoga, chakras, the third-eye, law of attraction, infinite intelligence (source energy), are much more prevalent as compared to pre-internet. Even pre-internet, those within such traditions would still have limited knowledge where a Guru was required, though a Guru (teacher) probably still should be required to help navigate through information/experiences. According to the Advaita Vedantic text, the Tripura Rahasaya, it's one's desire that is the driving force behind his/her level of spirituality. From accumulating good merit, one will then be born with the desire to worship God. From worship, one will then be born with the desire to dive deeper into the mysteries, to find a way to unite with God. Hence, it appears that an individuals desire is the level of initiation that they will proceed in life with regards to spirituality, where much of the world may still be solely in the worship and good deeds stage. The worship stage is where the universe appears separate, or dualist (dvaita), where God is worshiped externally through numerous forms. The uniting stage is where the human understands him/herself to be a microcosm of the macrocosm, as the Universe, or nondualist (advaita), where God is simply a level of universal consciousness to be experienced and drawn upon. Knowing that we are all different and hold different desires, there are those that may solely be interested in accumulating and working on good merit, others may solely want to experience God as separate, and those who want to dive into the rabbit hole of infinity. For those that only desire good merit or to experience God as separate, the rabbit hole may be a dangerous route as it is an unraveling of the ego-identity and a complete change of one's life where they may not desire such. In fact, I would highly recommend the ego-identity building a personal relationship with a Higher Source (duality) before taking the plunge, for it's not fun to walk through the valley of the shadow of ego-death alone. Nonetheless, all paths seem to be molding the ego-identity into something more wholesome, like how a flower goes through numerous phases before blooming.
However, those that have wanted to pierce deeper into realizing the power held within, were required to unravel the ego-identity for which many simply do not desire. Many are happy with their lives and would rather engage in typical material pursuits and leave spirituality for the mandatory religious gatherings. Many are also happy in bringing in religion more and more into their life, with daily prayer. And of course, there are those who seek material, and possibly spiritual aspects for self-interest. But for those willing to empty the ego-identity to serve on a larger basis, and challenge societal/religious norms and deeply held beliefs, in order to expand and connect one's consciousness with a higher version of Self, those are the one's ready for initiation into the greater mysteries. Like success in any pursuit, it's the degree of your desire. One question that I often hear by those with a spiritual leaning is discovering one's purpose. It seems proper for those seeking something spiritual to seek more out of life, so purpose seems to fall into play. Even those that are into self-help material or some sort of entrepreneurship seem to fall into this category, as opposed to those who attain a certificate and move through life with a typical 9am-5pm. It's, what can we do that will provide the most out of our life experience. It's asking, what is the purpose for our current existence. Taking a look at mainstream society, I've often mentally rebelled at the economical-societal construct established, which our educational system desperately squares us into conformity. As soon as the ability to communicate and further assess information is formulated within a child, that child is then forced to spend year after year into adulthood within walls that stress societal information. Through meditation, we're taught the strengths of residing in oneself in a silent harmonious manner. However, the educational system has us constantly plugging away information into our minds, with short breaks to enjoy each others company, where exercise is minimal and spinal columns are damaged through incessant sitting. Having a well-adjusted spine has scientifically shown to raise IQ, where our lifestyles of constantly slouching while sitting has stymied intellectual prosperity. In addition, the brightest minds did not seem to fit in our societal educational system, be it Leonardo Da Vinci or Albert Einstein, these intellectuals were educated in a different route than the majority of us who have spent most of our lives memorizing. Albert Einstein is even quoted with "Never memorize what you can look up in books", where Da Vinci only studied and learned what he wanted to learn being forbidden from a formal education due to being an illegitimate child. Much of formal education for me was a drain, though I managed to do well. Not that I wasn't interested, and there were plenty of classes that I'm glad were forced upon me, it's just that, I look back now and ask how much of it was relevant for my life experience. In addition, I'm more interested in biology and other subjects now, then back in High School, where studying such topics then was premature. When you start weeding away the time spent on irrelevant material, significant time arises that could have been spent pursuing other more enjoyable matters. As an example, history prior to college was mostly a practice on dissecting propaganda, where due to self non-curriculum studies, I quickly understood that High School history was significantly limited and designed to mold future voters. In studying numerous success stories, I've found that if the educational system was a support system to strength children's passions, we would raise geniuses instead of conformed ants for the workforce. Not only are geniuses raised, but when following passion, especially when the seeds are allowed to sprout during an individuals youthful stages, such an individual is purpose driven. Finding purpose, or what we're on this Earth to accomplish, is a question asked in the spiritual community, and in the self-help community. Rarely have I ever found this question raised in formal education, where educator were simply satisfied upon hearing a student was college bound. Though counselors will help in sorting through information to help a student choose a route, so very little time is permitted for such discovery. I guess summer break would be the time-frame permitted, but how many students actually choose to look for self-education during the summer, after having accomplished the stressful consistent workload of the educational system. In fact, I think I narrowed down my college major through quickly doing the I-Ching in a High School comparative religious studies course. However, in searching for my "life purpose", the reason why I've incarnated on this earthly terrestrial body, I realized that I'm a different person when I go inside and remove societal beliefs and standards. It's the asking of, "am I doing this because society wants me to do it (education, social class, marketing, etc.), am I doing this mainly to make money, am I doing this because others have told me to do it, etc.". Finding purpose is to go back into the untainted childlike state of being and figuring out what is the most exciting for an individual. When a child dives into something, it's because he/she is curious. If the child sticks with something, it's usually because of passion. Hence, a child is often not driven by capitalist endeavors where a job or social status is most likely far-placed from the child's mind. In such purity, the child is better able to discover passion, the main key in establishing purpose. As Jesus said, "... Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven". Matthew 18:3 (KJV). As spiritual teachers have vehemently described "follow your bliss" (Joseph Campbell), "follow your highest excitement and joy" (Law of Attraction Teachers), are meant to place an individual on the highest path to fulfillment in this life. Charles Darwin followed his childhood bliss of discovering, collecting, and cataloging biological specimen, despite what his father wanted for him. Carl Jung followed his childhood intellectual curiosity of understanding consciousness, where he questioned whether or not a rock that he sat on carried consciousness. Leonardo Da Vinci followed his childhood passion of drawing, something he utilized to spend his time as he was forbidden from formal education. In following a purpose, there is a significant passion, a bliss that arises that when one is absorbed in one's work, time is lost. Such is a stark contrast from the majority, who most likely look to when they can clock out. Something I think we all first discovered early in our school system waiting to go home. Though most in our society, including myself lately, will often spend their time looking at the clock for the next bout of freedom. Nonetheless, it is important to note that our life experiences all have a purpose in establishing ourselves, where pertinent information is obtained, skills are developed, and we have the ability to move into purpose understanding what we're not passionate about. Hence we can move into purpose at any juncture through seeking our passions. For example, obtaining a legal degree was not blissful, but writing is, where I've been provided numerous opportunities to work on my style. Take a look back throughout your life into your early childhood and rediscover your passions and proceed with the talents and knowledge that you've since obtained. Seek to combine your passions with your skills and further proceed to unite and develop the two. As the Bhagavada Gita (2:47) elaborates, one should not look towards the fruits of one's labor. Though I've contemplated that statement to mean that one should humbly serve, especially when viewed from a strict religious sense, I now understand that statement to mean that work should not necessarily be done for the rewards sake, but should be done for the sake of purpose. In other words, the work in itself should be the blessing, not the fruits of work. The only way that is to make sense, is to passionately work. To do things that excite you, to follow one's true bliss, is to honor the curious being within that only seeks to learn and grow in the most enjoyable way possible. We have to ask ourselves, did we come onto this planet to add to the economy, where I've often heard from others that those in monasteries are driven by self-interests as they do not provide to the gross domestic product, or did we incarnate for something so much more than our man-made societal-economic structure. Through society, we've defined success through monetary value as opposed to intellectual curiosity, though financial security is strong driving force. Nonetheless, to follow one's bliss, one's passion, one's purpose, seems to be one of the biggest rebellious acts in conformed society. It's seems to be one that leads to a purpose driven life, one that geniuses have pursued to either rebel against conformity, or reach significantly high statuses in society like the Steve Jobs types.
Overall, be as children in discovering and following your passions, and enter your own kingdom of heaven by following your purpose. For to follow purpose seems to be an unraveling of one's own passions. "In the beginning was the word, and the word was with God, and the word was God." John 1:1. Christian thought has taken a logical approach to the statement of the word being God, and of course, stressing the importance of their doctrine using this statement to emphasize the "word of God". But, the Eastern world has taken a different approach to "words", with the understanding that the first word, through its emanating vibration, created the universe, Aum. Hinduism stresses the original language to be sanskrit, a language meant to be felt through singing. The importance not necessarily on the interpretation as the sanskrit based Vedas consist of hymns as opposed to philosophical discourse, but the vibration felt within uttering such terms that leave remnants within one's vibrational field. The vibrations are to be felt within each molecule pervading one's being to the point where one is completely absorbed in the vibration being left in a trance, like some drug induced raver experiencing every note musically displayed, or a churchgoer lost in the eloquent hymns of the choir. Though we often look for interpretation and understanding when provided some religious or philosophical concept, such is only part of experiencing mantras. We're too logically induced in the patriarchal upbringing, where the rebels are considered the ones who are moved by the feels of feminine intuition and go against the grain while looking insane. In the East we are provided with a plethora of mantras, often towards different entities, or to bring in differing fortunes. But, even in the East, the logical mind seems to want to grasp onto definitions and reasons, where the realm of mantras is a realm that is beyond the realm of the common senses that leave us engrossed within the maya based illusion creating delusion. In other words, mantras are meant to be experienced and consciousness shifting, before they are to be logically understood.
I've practiced mantras on and off all throughout my childhood. Though at that time, I was too engrossed with the thought of the practice, what it could bring, and what the mantra means. I picked up the mantra practice again in 2014, where blended in with bouts of mindfulness, the practice evolved on it's own course where I feel like I've been internally guided on how to do the practice correctly. I still use the same japa beads that I've had since I was a child as a reminder of where I've come from, but now, instead of the number of times that I do a mantra being important, what I stress is the ability to feel into the vibrations of the terms, which often leaves me with the inability to even do one round with my japa beads. I sometimes now feel extremely stressed in the practice, like my body is attempting to hold and handle too much feels. From feeling tension within my head to my body feeling extremely exhausted, I noticed that the practice is like strength training. I'm all for it, since it's all about expanding our own abilities, and mostly, our own consciousness or ability to be aware and perceive new insights. Provided that I use entities as guides to bring me towards expanding my consciousness, there are two entities that I have settled with, Kali and Padmasambhava. I've been intrigued with Kali since I was a child, and she feels to represent the highest feminine for me, the Adi-Shakti. Her fierceness is what I believe has helped me clear away and pierce into the heart of the matter. Overall, she's a great thought-clearer who helps me get into mindfulness. One would think that the other entity would be Kali's counterpart, Shiva. However, I define Shiva as Higher Self, the cosmic consciousness, the state of mind that I wish to obtain in my practice. Shiva's mantra appears to be calm and relaxing, and if Kali gets too intense, I turn to Shiva. However, Padmasambhava is my choice, where, as an enlightened master above the wheel of samsara, he appears to provide all sorts of shocks to my consciousness and an overall feeling of upliftment. I've done mantras to many of the entities within the Hindu pantheon and the Christian Lord's Prayer, where the two above-mentioned feels right for me, for now. Kali is intense and would rather not disclose her mantra here. However, Her Mahavidya form of Tara, which I believe is also within the Tibetan Buddhist home where she appears more compassionate, would be a beautiful expression I would recommend. Om Tare Tu Tare Ture Soha is a beautiful calming resonance over the fiery Kali. In addition, the Guru Rinpoche mantra for Padmasambhava is also highly recommended, which can easily be found on youtube. Overall, I feel the feminine will help you deal with circumstances, clearing, and is an overall blessing to walk life with clearing the way for the masculine to adjust consciousness. Hence, I wouldn't recommend jumping around with different mantras, but dedicating a practice to a chosen few, if not one mantra. In proceeding to do a mantra, enter the meditative trance by whatever means you see fit. This means, get into a state where you're deeply relaxed, your breathe is deeply moving in (towards lower spine) and out in a natural manner, and you may be getting slightly sleepy in an almost hypnotic state. One technique that I'll occasionally use is to focus on each body part from the top of my head downwards (or vice-versa) with the intent that each body part is relaxing. For me, telling each body part, or sending it some sort of relaxing imaginary light works to release significant tension. In fact, use some hypnotherapy techniques, like swallowing an imaginary relaxing pill and feel it dissolve immediately into your blood stream relaxing your entire body. In doing this practice, thoughts will naturally subside the deeper one relaxes. And the closest you can get to higher self is the closest you can get to subduing the monkey mind of thoughts. When you proceed to do the mantra, the goal is to feel it. Hence, use the imaginative abilities to move the vibration from the mantra around your body. I typically use my internal mind voice to chant mantras, which then can go through numerous phases within my inner cavities. 1) I typically begin with visualizing my pineal gland as numerous loudspeakers pointing in every direction bursting out the mantra into my inner body. Just like you can feel the bass from loudspeakers, so do I feel the reverberations within myself. 2) The stronger those vibrations get within myself, the more chaotic it becomes to contain. Hence, I will then see my skin as like a stable "bell" attempting to hold the vibrations within. The stronger the vibrations get, the "bell" begins to also vibrate and pulsate outwards into the world. 3) When the intensity of the vibration becomes too intense within, I imagine that the top of my head opens allowing the vibration to shoot upwards and out of me. Do note, that I also perceive a grounding cord from my root chakra into the center of the Earth. Like an electrical shock, grounding is necessary. 4) The crown opening usually helps release a significant amount of intensity, where I then rest in the lingering vibrations of the mantra within myself, where I attempt to have each of my molecules absorb the vibrations. 5) Thereafter, I proceed to not only have each of my molecules absorb the vibration, but also become loudspeakers and pulsate the mantra outwards. This has a dual affect of emitting and absorbing the vibration. 6) If your mantra is based of an entity, imagine yourself as that entity. It's important to note that the symbolism behind that entity of your choice is important, as that is what you are attempting to embody, to bring in to help assist you. My practice is constantly evolving, and I allow myself to listen within on how to proceed when I do my mantra meditations. My goal is to use whatever entity I choose to expand myself, to allow more Higher Self to flow within with the help of the entity. The feel of it is like blissful breathing within my body, and mostly within my head, where the darkness of closing my eyes begins to "light up" as if there was a light bulb on top of my crown. Occasionally, I'll perceive different insights, or will immediately write a blog post thereafter knowing I'm embodying something special. However, my goal is to remain in this field of energy as much as possible, which can be depressing and doubtful thereafter as I fall back into my Earthly circumstances. Again, it's like fitness, take in higher light and let that dissolve your current way of thinking into something more expansive.
Spiritual development appears to be divided into two-paths, which have opposed and conflicted with each other from what appears to be the beginning of organized religion. The two paths are often separated as the puritanical right hand path consisting of most organized religions where a deity(ies) is(are) propagated as saviors from what is often deemed to be the dirty occult (hidden) left hand path. Even in the mystical we still have that separation as evidenced by the Qabalist Tree of Life where one seeks to know, as opposed to the Qabalist Qliphoth where one seeks to become. Nonetheless, the left hand has been historically used to cleanse oneself, and is thus considered filthy, like Tantra which seeks to unite a Yogi into cosmic self realization as the main goal, as opposed to propagating a deity. Nonetheless, the two aspects have often been at war with each other, where the left hand path is often considered "evil", where organized exoteric religion has historically sought to exterminate those of the left establishing secret societies. Though, it is my belief that the higher ups in organized religion practice left hand path, but expound right hand path in order to create submissiveness, such can be found through the numerous symbols used in Catholicism, the root of the majority forms of Christianity (not Gnosticsm, where the Cathars were eliminated to make way for Mithraic Romanism...ahem Catholicism via creed of Nicea). Numerous symbolism of the subtle body can be found within Catholicism, though the masses are still clueless, and/or call it the "illuminati". The left hand path has always been a home for those persecuted by the higher ups, like the Tantric tradition from exoteric Brahmanic rule, Gnosticism/Knights Templars (the source of the Baphomet in correlation with the Hashashin/Order of the Assassins) and really a whole plethora forms of esoteric Christianity like the teachings of Swedenborg/William Blake from the majority forms of Christianity. Though, it took me decades to really discern the practices between the two aspects, and feel that both are necessary for proper development. However, that train of thought is eluded by those on the right hand as evidenced by the following parable often expounded by devotees. As a common devotional parable goes, there was once a devotee and a yogi, who practiced their techniques with many years of earnestness to have a glimpse of the divine. Krishna appears to the yogi, where the yogi asks, "how many years before I am liberated"? Krishna responds with "you've done very well, you will only have three more life-times before liberation". However, the yogi wanted immediate liberation, where three more lifetimes was too much. The yogi gives up his practice in disdain and returns to common life. Krishna thereafter proceeds to the devotee where the devotee asks the same question, "how many years before I am liberated"? Krishna responds to the devotee, "though you have lovingly served me, you still have as many lifetimes as there are leaves on this tree". In excitement, the devotee thanks Krishna elated that he has many more lifetimes to worship his divine. Upon seeing that elation, Krishna immediately brings the devotee to Krishna's heaven. Though the parable shows the strength of devotion, in my belief, such is required to open the heart chakra. Without such opening, one cannot advance into the higher realms, or even properly open the third eye, which would open the rainbow light body/merkaba. In addition, that's how you purge Karma and keep it off, by being unconditionally loving no matter the crucifying life circumstances to the point where you can energetically forgive and love everything. That might bring liberation on its own course, but another angle is the left hand path. Those on the left do not necessarily seek to just be with a divine of choice, if they have so chosen one, but they seek to be that which is divine, which still requires the opening of the heart. Even those working with lower entities, the way to subdue them is to love them, the way Lord Padmasambhava shifted the negative entities into becoming the protectors of Dharma. As indicated above, the devotional right hand path seems to be a stepping stone the dangerous left hand path. I say dangerous as this is a path where one integrates the shadow self by facing one's inner demons (lower emotions), which can create dangerous inner vibrations that via law of attraction manifest in the external world requiring clearing. Having devotion, having guides, will make this process much less dangerous, which without such, can do a number on one's psyche. As indicated by the parable, it's the fast path route that can get you to spiritual completion, though a guide can also work wonders. Nonetheless, it appears that the left hand path is the proper inclination for the next step of spiritual evolution, as the phases are laid out within the Advaita Vedantic text, the Tripura Rahasya (Secret of the Supreme Goddess). As stated, "One learns true devotion to God after a meritorious life continued in several births, and then worships Him for a long time with intense devotion. Dispassion for the pleasures of life arises in a devotee who gradually begins to long for knowledge of the truth and becomes absorbed in the search for it. He then finds his gracious Master and learns from him all about the transcendental state....The inner Self is realized in advanced contemplation and that state of realization is called nirvikalpa samadhi." The right hand path is that of the dualist who seeks God outside of himself. Such consists of the majority of religions, and in Hinduism, is found under Dvaida Vedanta with the belief that the soul (atma) is separate from the ultimate reality (Brahman). When one longs for Truth beyond devotion, one seeks the left hand path of nonduality, recognizing the God within. Such consists of what esoteric traditions have sought to learn, and in Hinduism, is found under Advaita Vedanta with the belief that the soul (atma) and the ultimate reality (Brahman) are identical (like the air outside of a jar and within a jar, it's still air). Brahman, the ultimate reality is simply "Brah" or expansion, and "Mana" or mind. Hence, expansion of mind/consciousness/awareness. Such individuals have faced persecution by those on the right hand, where it is blasphemous to be a God, to act like a God, to feel like a God, even provided that our ancient traditions told us who we really are. As Jesus said in John 10:34, "Jesus answered them, Is it not written in your law, I said, Ye are gods?". Acknowledging this power is not "evil" where all such beings should be grouped into an evil left hand "illuminati". What makes such power evil would be what is done with it. Hence, it may be time to recognize that both hands belong to the same being. And that being is the only one in existence, the Cosmic Self.
I've been into paranormal and oddball spirituality all my life. Part of that includes conspiracy theories, where such theories point to the gaps in what much of society and religion deems to be true. So, I already have a bias towards such theories. However, as an attorney, finding gaps in the evidence to support mainstream thought only strengthens my passion in exploring alternative theories. To begin with, I don't dive into such theories the same way others seem to grapple with such ideologies. Think Alex Jones, who've I've paid slight attention too on and off for almost two decades. He's exposed much of what the government may be doing behind closed doors, government secret occult meetings, and certain wealthy/powerful families, which I am being led to believe control the major democratic party candidate. Though, Alex Jones comes from a "right-wing conservative-christian perspective", where he throws his support on the major opposing candidate believing that he may be an "outsider". My main critique of this theory propagator is that he fails to look at the gaps in one of the biggest theories on our planet blinding him in the political arena. He fails to look at the gaps in his own religion, which creates a bias on all of his theories. Hence, much found within the conspiracy theory arena fall into this category, including the flat-earth theorists. But hey, thoughts/beliefs create reality, and so if a flat-earth is something you need to have dire faith in like the Church in the dark ages, then you'll place yourself in a parallel universe where that is an expressed truth, since that's how the law of attraction works. Just don't Giordano Bruno the rest of us that like to a more expansive nondualist approach to the universe. My exposure to conspiracy theories has been to discover and redefine my spirituality. To really discover who I am, my roots on the Earth, and overall, my roots within the Universe. In addition, to remember what I am really capable of, if there is something more than our animalistic human story. In studying spirituality, metaphysics, the occult, I'm led through authors who hail from different hidden organizations, where such organizations are often labelled by the above-mentioned group as "satanists", "illuminati", etc., where I receive a completely different interpretation in studying such material, something I'm assuming the above-mentioned crowd has not done. Hence, certain biases arise in interpreting these theories. Though it's been much easier for me to grasp such information coming from an eastern background where material like the Gnostic teachings resonate very well, but if you grew up in certain sects of Christianity where duality is the only experience, let's just say it's very difficult to comprehend as evidenced by the numerous pastors I've heard attempting to articulate and negate Gnostic teachings. In other words, studying/researching conspiracy theories should not be done from a fear-based perspective, which is how I feel most people approach such information. When lingering in fear, well that creates a vibrational ripple throughout the emotional body triggering the law of attraction, which would lead towards a downhill spiral under the fear-love based emotional body. In fact, I'm finding most individuals are now looking at such theories to point fingers, where I remember a decade ago, it was rare for someone to even know the word "illuminati" outside of the "killuminati" Tupac theories. As someone that has looked at this information for much of his life, for almost three decades, conspiracy theories are layers upon layers that need to be peeled to discover the truth (if that's even discernible), where most individuals are parroting very limited information, and are viewing and articulating what they find with dark lenses of prior limiting belief systems. Hence, though I still keep an eye-out for Alex Jones type material, I guess I'm more in the David Icke category, who seems to blend new age thought with his theories. If you didn't know, those two seem to be the biggest parrots for conspiracy theories, but come from opposite ends in the conspiracy theory spectrum. In first discovering David Icke, I thought he was nuts. Now, well, his theories seems to be more and more on point from what I've been discovering. Again, many many layers have to be addressed for this material to even seem plausible. David Icke is the individual whose written the "bible" of conspiracy theories, where his theories seem to be the most extravagant. Overall, my approach to conspiracy theories has been a "healthy" one I suppose, where the material excites me as opposed to placing me in a downward spiral of fear. Such ideologies place me in the position to unplug and not be tied to the societal delusion, to not be tied to the political theatrical circus (well at least without a comfortable chair and some popcorn), but to recognize that my Spirit is the only thing I should be pushing for. It seems those on the higher ups and within certain organizations knew something with regards to spirituality, where the religious counterparts provide us with a dumbed down dribble. I seek to recognize the strength of my own inner-being, a liberation from the delusion away from my animalistic human story that is engaged with the circus. For those of you researching such theories, I plead with you to not get tied up into fear. Moreover, I've found that once you come across a theory that makes sense, you will find more information that challenges such theories into deeper and deeper avenues, like peeling an unlimited onion. Unless it is bringing you closer to understanding who you really are, I would recommend not paying much heed to such information as it would be irrelevant to your own growth. From looking around at the political circus, where it appears one candidate is begging the U.S. audience to vote for the opposition, which appears to be the only way to get the opposition elected due to this candidate's inconsistent background but consistent support for a particular wealthy family, I feel we're awakening to how much we've really been duped. Such theories depict politics like a game of rigged chess mainly to make the pawns feel like they have a choice. As it appears more and more people are becoming aware to such fraudulent undertakings creating a shift to a societal breakdown, we need to become aware of our own inner strength to proceed. While society around us may be crashing down, it's only because it's time to recognize our own truth, and not the "truth" we've been told. Such truth revolves around not in looking to our external circumstances and external society for our solutions, but to look to the strength of our own inner-being. Let conspiracy theories unfold the delusion that we've been set-up to believe where only a few have gotted a glimpse of the truth behind the mystery (Pisces) in the past, but let your Spirit shine through to manifest our freedom (Aquarius).
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AuthorOverly educated and continuously exploring and revealing more behind the veil. "It cannot be too highly emphasized that the mystic swims in the same waters in which the psychotic drowns."
-James Wasserman, The Mystery Traditions Archives
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