Lost In Meditation
I had a rather interesting experience meditating a few weeks ago. One that has left me contemplating not only it's merit, but the possibilities of actually experiencing who we really are. I mean, it's one thing to read the books and logically assess "yes, we are the universe attempting to experience itself", but it's another thing to experience being something beyond what we typically believe ourselves to be.
Now, again I'm still assessing the merits of this particular experience. Under the Vipassana/Mindfulness practices, should you see anything, it's most likely another thought distraction that you need to address as such. No doubt, when I do feel like I'm getting close to focusing on the void of thoughtlessness, my mind grasps any images no matter how irrelevant these images are to my daily life. Hence, faces that I don't remember, animals I typically don't think about or see (I've since been very attracted to Jaguars because of this), or distant memories that I haven't considered all seem to typically arise at these moments, once I'm able to cease my thoughts of the day. Nonetheless, "when you see the Buddha walking down the street, kill him!" Another words, should you see such images no matter how spiritual you may think it may be, get rid of it for the sake of the void.
This experience left a lasting impression, almost delusional where it appears that my day to day ego is trying to challenge this event. I remember feeling anxiety and fear when addressing my, we'll call it "identified (i.d.) self", or even coming back or be-coming my i.d. self again from the, we'll call it "galactic self". We're just so embossed with our i.d. agenda that we tend to forego what spirituality has taught us as true reality. Although my critical i.d. self is attempting to demolish any merit this experience may have had on me, I know it has created an awe of intrigue and at least it was a step in locating the answers to the critical "who am I, what am I, where am I".
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-James Wasserman, The Mystery Traditions