Healing of the Baphomet

In doing a guided meditation exploring healing aspects of one's own innerchild, I was met with a reflection that flared my spiritually rebellious college years, where I explored the world of Aleister Crowley. This is during a time where I was attemping to conduct banishing rituals (calling on the angels to protect my space), and other ceremonies, in the middle of the night in the bedroom of my parent's home. Sorry mom ... actually, not really.  Coming from a Christian education that was filled with concepts of fear, where certain followers condemned with the most judgmental tongues those of a differ creed, I was left with a distate for spirituality that would be labelled as "light" by an exoteric. Here I was, give the me dark, the Ozzy Osbourne themed flamboyance found in the darker shades of the beautiful infinite one, that was my outlook into the occult.  

The ancient Baphomet, though the original image is unknown, was the gift the Knights Templar brought back to the esoteric western world. A gift given to the Templars by the Mohammedan Hashashim, the esoteric group known as the Order of Assassins, cannabis dealers if you will. The Baphomet was an idea that was strong enough for the Catholic Church to condemn the Knights Templar. A symbol currently shown interpreted by esoterics, with hands showing the interrelation of the above and below, with the head of the master of nature who pursues the highest mountains aways from the herd, who has realized one's own dualist feminine intuitive  (Christ the Sophia) and masculine logic (Christ the Logos) androgynous psyche, where man essentially ascends into godhood as evidenced by the imagery of the masonic George Washington. Needles to say, the Baphomet holds plentifuls of esoteric wisdom that shakes the exoteric in their boots. 

Though I'm a bit different, where I also call on the lighter shades akin to angelic kingdoms of the most humble Christs. For that is my interpretation of nonduality, it is all one. My current spiritual practice looks more like peace-loving hippie vibes, as compared to my prior Crowley-style magick where I was trying to discover the truth of such material. Nonetheless, now I see that both paths hold the same aim, to connect with the Higher Self aka Holy Guardian Angel. The is the practice of Self-Empowerment, not empowering an external entity.

I consider Jesus and Christ teachings to be one of the greatest blessings I've received in this life, but I also consider the road of bringing light/wisdom to be my path. Basically, I see Jesus differently then the modern typical Christian, whose logic I cannot fathom. To love the beauty recognized in our separation where God is something more expansive than our human-selves, or to love the brilliance recognized in our connection to "all that is" showing us that we are more expansive than what we have thought ourselves to be. That's really the difference between the right hand (Dualist/Exoteric/Separation)  and left hand (Nondulaist/Esoteric/Unity) path. I do not subscribe to a "jealous" god, or one that demands that I call it a particular name, or face the infernal wrath of a hel(l). To me, that sounds like manipulative domination, as opposed to liberation. I subscribe to a path that uses guides to help me recognize the divinity within.

We see the humility and compassion that is Jesus, the one who asked for our karma to be forgiven. But, to feel the same with the opposer, sheitan, is another story where we've been raised to deny our darker shadow selves, our base-animal reptilian-brain complex, that was meant to really be synthesized with our higher self (Spirit+Matter). We don't love the opponents, those that make us heroes on our journeys, including the inner-opponent that we try to bottle up or deny. 

The aspects of the Universe that we find to be dark, are only different shades of the one infinite light. For a candle flame enlightens a darkened space, but the dark space doesn't harm the light. Knowing the darkness found within (and without), and bringing love and light to such, is to integrate the shadow side, ... you know, that thing Jesus taught, forgiveness. For one cannot heal one's own darkness, without shedding some love and light on it. That's the judgment that we meet when we find ourselves in deep reflection, you know, that place of our Cross-roads. It is the clearing of that which is hidden within our subconscious, which manifests as blocks that inhibit our full expressions. 

In my innerchild healing meditation, it was that 16-20 something early college self, where that innerchild wanted to be called "hellfire", a rebellion springing forth as a result of a fear based condemning Christian education. But this innerchild aspect wasn't some rebellious stage, it was my search for something more beyond the box of faith-based religion, something the masses could not understand and would possibly fear, as shown through historical persecution resulting in "secret" societies.

This meditation was a feeling of integration of two separate halves of myself. I saw and felt what it would be like for Jesus to hold and completely love Lucifer (the collective belief is that of an "evil" being, not the historical "light bearer", which can appear in our subconscious as it is tied to the collective conscious). I felt Lucifer in the form of Baphomet, protected by Anubis, where Lucifer actually felt loved by Jesus and shockingly returned the same.  Spirituality is a paradox, hence the highest is not some form, but it is "truth" only found in "wisdom". We are Spirit, and these characters are merely archetypes that we seek to unite psychologically, hence, yoga. It is a practice to truly understand who we are and what we are capable of doing with our consciousness 

In correlation to Hinduism, no wonder Shiva is worshiped by the Devas (Gods) and Asuras (Devils). Like the Baphomet, he is androgynous with his Shakti, master of the three worlds of consciousness. Shiva is the prototype deity who may have first adorned his horns in the Indus Valley, the Pashupati, tamer of beasts. Shiva is the original yogi, who taught humanity how to yoke  with God, tame the human beast, again similar to the Baphomet. He is the divine masculine using his yogic abilities to channel his will for devoted creation, the divine feminine, and self-upliftment.

My meditation concluded with visuals of Jesus and Lucifer in complete transparent embrace, as if they were actors playing a role, but recognizing who they were behind the character, one. For was not the being who tempted Jesus while Jesus practiced his meditation, none other than Jesus' own shadow emerging to be recognized and enlightened, just as we all face our own inner-"demons"? This is a teaching that will be difficult for many to embrace externally, as well as within themselves. ​This may be the reason why esoteric sciences have been kept hidden, for it is hard to love what is often feared, especially something lurking within ourselves. The goal is to integrate, transcend, and ascend to the next level, or what the masonic George Washington would say, apotheosis.

​Ascension. 

The Apotheosis of Washington