For the last half of this year, I spent quite a bit of time using the resources of energy healers, guided meditations, etc. I've noticed my ability to be induced into necessary hypnotic states to actually feel and see shifts has expanded over the last three years, including the ability to make my imagination feel more and more real as possible.
The first prepatory step prior to this meditaiton was to list five likes and five dislikes that I hold regarding money. From this list of ten, I would choose three to focus on and heal "karmic" cycles, with "karmic cycles" being energies that are still running and holding influence on our current ability to manifest. From each of the three chosen, I felt like I was looking into a prior experience, with thoughts and feelings from another life, another ego-identity that held different beliefs.
The first karmic cycle that I chose to glimpse was from the "like" category of money, where I had expressed that I like the fact that money allows me to "spend time the way I want", which is my definitition of wealth and abundance. In taking a look into this concept, I felt like I was an Italian prince at my castle surrounded by vineyards. Italians and Italy have played that role for me since my college obsession with Italian culture, the La Dolce Vita that plagued cinemas in defining the Italian way of life. Or, it could be the Roman Caligula, decadence that leads to gluttonous consumption, including that of power, often resulting in treachery. But most of all, this way of life was bought, and the healing occured in hearing the Beatles in the background piping out "can't buy me love", closing off this karmic cycle.
The second karmic cycle was taken from the "dislike" category where I described that money brings out the greed and thievery inside of us. From viewing the Italian prince, I was shown the need to create an army to protect the acquired standard of life. A little wealthy family, rising into the ranks of politics, to control and manage the kingdom's wealth, particularly the shadow side behind our governments. However, this slight glimpse vanished into another story, one where I was a vicious cut-throat pirate, chasing after all forms of booty. It was all for self-gratification, the only way I could feel love in this lifetime. Though we have all learned that material wealth is but a fleeting momentary increase of endorphins, which needs to be upkept and expanded by the next experience. It is not the sensation of completion, fullfillment, and resting in the utter perfection of the moment, the way love should feel. Here I concluded sitting in a chair adorned by my pirate facade, flinging a gold coin in the air with my thumb, with beggards bowing below my boot. The healing began when I looked into the pain of those I robbed and disempowered through the catalyst of money and realized the falsity of this form of self-gratification.
The last karmic cycle was from my "like" options, where I liked the ability to use money to express love. We can use this catalyst to support each other, nuture, and care for each other and our own selves in positive light. Here, I was led to some sort of Les Miserables setting, where I was shacked-up with one beautiful wife, but in dirt poor poverty. Because of my own financial inability, she would sell herself on occasion to keep us above starvation. She had placed herself in such circumstances to show me that love can exist without money, where she was more than eligible for a wealthier suitor. A suffering endured due to lack of money, to understand love. This type of love without material wealth felt almost like unconditional love, or at least it is a big break in a huge barrier, a major condition and belief we place in our consciousness that closes up our emotional heart-space.
One of the last meditative exercises dealt with holding a dollar in the palm of my hands held in prayer position. Outside of the meditative guidance, I felt significant issues, blockages in just holding the dollar. Firstly, it was like I was praying to money, I had major issues with that. Second, I remember that I typically don't hold onto money for long, as I was taught to wash my hands afterwards when I was growing up. Not necessarily because the concept of money is a dirty thing, but because it may have exchanged so many germ infested hands, that's enough to get an empath riled up. However, I realized deeply held blockages in just attempting to hold a dollar for a few moments. Old beliefs given by others and maybe my own past karmic influences arose for me to see and release and hopefully move on building a better relationship with money. A relationship where money is not used to manipulate and enslave, but to express love in every moment of time as in my definition of wealth and abundance.
Hopefully the wisdom gained from these three separate experiences will assist in helping me forge a more prosperous future.
Overly educated and continuously exploring and revealing more behind the veil.
"It cannot be too highly emphasized that the mystic swims in the same waters in which the psychotic drowns."
-James Wasserman, The Mystery Traditions