There is a particular meditation that I practice to help connect with certain entities, or vibrations rather. Originally used for embodying more of my Higher Self, I've found this technique effective for getting closer to any entity. Essentially, once grounded, maybe cleared, you visualize the entity in front of you and your chakras link-up one by one, including any chakras above your body. Linking with different entities feel different, which supports my belief system that the technique works. On the night of the super blood moon after the eclipse, I chose to link my chakras with a Moon visualizing her through anthropomorphic means. In comparison to the above mentioned Goetic Work, I was warned of the dangers of a lunar eclipse. One advice went so far as to say that we should remain indoors, which is understandable given that the moon is a reflection of our emotions and the eclipse may have something to do with the shadow side. But, I thought myself to be some sort of badass, so what the hell, why not?
Overall, the day had been going well, spent mostly with family. I had no reason to be in a bad mood and was actually delighted given how much I've read about this particular blood moon, or a wave of ascension that was purportedly scheduled for this particular day. Nonetheless, all hell seemed to break loose during my meditation that lingered throughout the following days. Unlike fearing spirits in the Goetic practices and the havoc they may wreak, I probably should have considered what invoking an eclipse moon may do to my psyche.
As it happens, the one planet in our solar system that is no longer actually a planet could be the most powerful of them all. This is because it is unconscious and anything that remains unknown or hidden, by its very nature, holds power. The Black Moon encapsulates what Carl Jung called our "shadow side". It represents the unconscious part of the psyche that drives many of our choices and actions. Our lack of awareness of it keeps us trapped in cycles of self-defeating behavior. -Laura Walker, The Astrology of the Black Moon
The meditation took me deep into my life, showing me aspects of my childhood that all pinpoint to my sense of self worth. Although these emotions are typically something we run from, either through some form of medication, or other social involvement, they are rooted into our subconscious where it manifests itself into our world causing disruption. This quite possibly could be the reason why certain type of events tend to reoccur within our lives. Worse is when we emotionally throw ourselves into the raptures of these delusions, which may end up attracting more of the same.
You will attract what you judge, until you no longer judge what you attract. -Matt Kahn
As with the teachings of the channeled entity Lazaris, we're all born with equal amounts of worth. Such amounts are always carried with us and never shift. The problems arise when we analyse how much of our worth we can sense. Nonetheless, having an understanding of having worth from simply being is liberating, especially in the western "yang" world obsessed with doing. Once that is established, I am assuming I can further clear areas within myself to manifest the life that I desire. In essence, this blood moon lunar eclipse meditation shed some light into areas within myself that need some work.
What are we telling ourselves each and every day? Are we just beating ourselves up, and judging ourselves? Are we too hard on ourselves, and are we our own worst enemy? That's the real work!! I feel we must start by changing that inner dialogue, by loving ourselves more and more, and then, even without having to say or do anything to anyone, the whole outer world changes to reflect that inner world. -Anita Moorjani, NDE Experience.
Although this meditation felt devastating, I can count this meditation as a success in helping me acknowledge and deal with aspects of myself. The week after was exhausting, my sleep cycles were off, and I spent much of my personal time assessing areas of my self-worth. Nonetheless, even the phoenix has to burn before spreading its wings. Hopefully, September 27, 2015 marks the beginning of a whole new era for me, one that is full of adventures with a new understanding on how to approach life with my shadow-self.
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"It cannot be too highly emphasized that the mystic swims in the same waters in which the psychotic drowns."
-James Wasserman, The Mystery Traditions