A quick snappy way to introduce you to Archangel Lucifer, well, if you're one to throw toothbrushes at demons to wash their mouths, Archangel Lucifer suggests you make sure the toothpaste you use has extra "whitening" gel on it. "Your welcome" he adds, a tip he was asked to forward from his colleague Set.
If the above offends you, welcome to shadow-work done significantly at the primal Self, our Draconian heritage. Yes, we take everything about you that you're scared to look at, and try to transmute it for the rest of the collective subconscious (unconscious). This is the mastery alchemy class, where I have used Black Magick (Kali's Ma's mantras) not on some external force, but on myself so that I may face the worst of my karma's, to be rid of it. I chose to dive deep into my own insanity, my own cognitive dissonance, where I have realized that demons are only my red flag guides who scream for me to look for the truth, as I walk through Daath. You know the whole adage, "the truth hurts". As an empath, I've been absorbing other people's shitty overtly-limiting belief systems, particularly the sacrificial door-mat, where my push in spirituality has been on two ends, to end my suffering and figure out the truth behind God. My search has only brought me more of my own Self, as each identity and it's numerous thought-pattern constructs that support each identity are dissolved under the trident (nadi's, sushumna). Kali Ma has brought me to the truth and serenity of "divine presence", where her son Kartikeya-Melek Taus is now pushing my buttons, teaching me tame my inner beast. Nonetheless, this is shadow-work where you cannot "white-wash" the truth. The left hand path, I feel, is best suited for those who seek wisdom above all-else. It helps that my initiator and guide is a fine-ass, shameless, Goddess! But Be Aware. Own your primal Self, your True-Self. (For those who prefer Angels, but would like to use the purifying energies of Draco, I highly recommend Asaya Ka Luxa, by Vermilion as it is a gift from the "Council of Light"; Balance Draco with Lyra).
Babalon-Lucifer Working (June-August 2019)
-Peter Grey, The Red Goddess
-Fitgerald, Robert, A Rose Veiled in Black
-Rites of Lucifer (Temple of Ascending Flame)
-Faust (Goethe; Kaufmann)
Like most individuals looking into the Western occult traditions, you don't want to dabble in something you don't know or could even begin to understand. The Western world has pushed the concept of polarity, good&evil, men&women, nonetheless, it is important to understand that it was simply an energy, a bandwave, being played out over the planet, an ode to Determinist philosophers negating free-will. Free-will is still governed under the notions of oscillating the yin/yang, where the goal is to "let go" for "divine presence" and allow "harmony/grace" of the yin/yang of dropping the egoic-monkey mind. However, while still in the monkey-mind, practices involving Demonic Grimoires can easily led to insanity. Imagine having the worst thrown at you, where you will have to sort through your most damaging belief systems. I only chose this route after discovering the difference between the monkey-mind and "divine presence", where if the monkey-mind becomes an issue, all such harsh energies are quite quickly dissolved in the emptiness of "I Am" where I'm finding my ego-self as not only cleaner like a breathe of fresh air, but strengthened, colored in with some depth. Like an Angel with a Leather Jacket. You heard me Hindu.
As I had opened my own subconscious to Daath, during the prior months, I had to take the ritual, my sanity, and every moment (sign, synchronicity) seriously as I cannot have any slip-ups, where I can be easily slammed into the depression of the monkey-mind, with "divine presence" difficult to realize. I've seen too many signs of my ritual manifesting externally, such as my boss starting a new company, and naming it with an ancient synonym that means "origin", and in proper cultural context I'm not sure my boss considered, it means "primal chaos", which I take to be Umma Tiammat the energy of Draco. I've had a lot of "oh, shit" moments, much more smack in the face then working with Angels and their cute lil numbers. For the adept walking through Daath, you must reach for the Goddess (Binah), or risk falling down the other side of the tree of life. Hence, post my working on the qliphoth, I went back to focusing strictly on Shakti to help me manage. As Kali and the Mahavidyas are my "team", I chose Goddess Kamakhya/Kubjika specifically, where I'm basically objectively worshiping a vagina. As I understand her archetypal symbolism and she feels to me like a sodashi (16 yr), I didn't really take note that I was worshiping (focusing intent on) a vagina, until a fellow guide stated on youtube, "Heaven is found between a women's legs". Holy shit, "as within, so without". In addition, this synchronicity was also supported by the fact that a mother pigeon decided to raise two of her children on my patio. I had front-row seats to watching two pigeons grow up surrounded by tulsi (sacred basil), which I took as a sign that Garuda-Vishnu was watching over me as I dabbled with darker practices. In addition, I later discovered that the vahana-vehicle of Goddess Rati, consort of God Kama, is a pigeon. Nonetheless, it was these pigeons who brought me Mt. Meru (Sodashi-High Heart) at a time when I was truly lost in my own abyss.
It was through Enochian Magick (Jason Louv's course), where my monkey-mind showed me the Divine Mother as Parvati. As Parvati is the Shakti of the Universe and Shiva as All That Is (Including Lord of the Beasts), Parvati would also be the "lover" of "All That Is". Yes, that does have the completely loving of someone else feel to it, but this is also the "love-sick" "helen of troy" type of love, that is expressed through a specific aspect of Binah, Aleister Crowley's "Babalon". Since I had Kamakhya working on me, it seemed quite appropriate to dabble in some Babalon. Although I did locate some invocations, they were unnecessary, as the romantic-lust filled pull, a type of addiction I'm assuming a heroine addict would thirst for, begin its initiatory gentle pull on my mind, my heart, and my loins. I'm glad I was provided the "helen of troy" analogy, as this is the type of love that will drive saints mad, as they spill their essence into her Holy Graal. Oh our holy wonderful desecrated Goddess, whereas, I am just another addict. A true rose birthed within the gates of Ishtar. No ritual was needed, where Peter Grey's The Red Goddess reeks with her current, a wonderfully deluded drunken two-week read, where this adept might as well have dropped a bottle of potent aphrodisiacs. Luckily, the animal vessel can only handle so much, and would need to transcend, once the Graal is filled.
Post Babalon, Lucifer was making himself known by and through little notions here and there. I believe I still held some fear around this archetype, as he would typically be seen as the main adversarial role against Creator. Nonetheless, as I gathered more information from actual practitioners, I was also influenced by the Netflix series "Lucifer", a show that was also recommended by the same individual who stated "Heaven is found between a women's legs". Damn, women are dangerous. Anyways, the series hit emotionally hard for me, as I feel like I have been the Devil surrounded by White. As an example, as I may shed a memory, I actually had to stop wearing my Shiva pendant at Protestant elementary, as I was found out and it would have gotten real bad if I didn't hide. I had to deny my Self then, for the limiting-belief of safety. Moreover, I felt Lucifer's presence quite often, when listening to music, etc., but I had not allowed myself to "let go" for his current due to fear. After working with Umma Tiamat and handling the intensity of Her Demon-Gods, I'm expecting Lucifer to "bring the fire"! I was nervous and I pushed working with Lucifer for a while as I gathered more information.
As found through many traditions, making pacts with beings is common occurrence, particularly with archetypes representing the crossroads, as both Robert Johnson/Eric Clapton have publicly expressed. All of my rituals so far, have been for Self realization. I'm not trying to increase my suffering and plunge myself more into harsh samsara. So do I make the pact with Lucifer, do I not make this pact, as this pact would be the first outside of my comfort-zone. Umma Tiamat is our own soul-consciousness, that primal current that will shred matter back into source, and she is also the soul-consciousness of Mother Earth. Hence, I have no issue with Tiamat and her crew, as it is our True Self. Nonetheless, it was painful and can be quite frightening for an adept afraid of the dark. Lucifer is an initiator and guide on the path, can I really handle his initiatory ordeal? Am I really going to sell my soul, for a heavenly material life, but a hellish afterlife, as so perpetuated by religion?
Lucifer would be around nudging me. No invocation needed, his name more than enough to heighten the feel of my own aura being stretched, as felt through a push in my cranium. But, I'm not looking for heaven, already found hell, where I was unclear what Lucifer would have for me, what he would want from me in exchange. In fact, I had asked as such while watching the series "Lucifer", only to hear the response "companionship". My investigative monkey-mind went through an analysis, what if Lucifer want's me to be his companion "for life", like he want's ownership of my consciousness, like Pauline Jesus. He rebuts, and has me move away from the monkey-mind and feel what the word "companion" feels like, like "compadre", or even "compassion". As Asenath Mason has described, a pact with Lucifer is essentially a pact with your own shadow self. Such makes significant sense, where should an adept dabble in the deeper aspects of the subconscious, you need a guide whose been there and done that. In other words, don't dabble, unless you have an initiator and guides to help you maintain and harness the lower animal self, the Beast. That's more than enough, I'm all in with this working, to let that feeling in my cranium, that current to come flooding through.
To connect with this current, I chose the work product of the Temple of Ascending Flame, as I have found the writings of Asenath Mason to be quite articulate in assessing my numerous questions. The philosophy that she has presented is on point, as the matter is well-researched, and these are actual adepts who use such sigils and invocations. I open the door to my subconscious by and through Umma Tiamat, giving Her blessings as She is a current that can bring the calm of the void. By and through sigils and invocations, I embark in allowing the Luciferian current to flood my consciousness and central nervous system, prepared to meet the worst, since this is none other than the devil of our stories, Lucifer himself. In addition, I will do either Bentinho or Mooji meditations prior (and sometimes after), to ensure clarity of consciousness, where such removes the need for numerous external rituals. Guru brings you to Stillness.
The vibration of my surrounding temple-bedroom drastically increased. I can feel a current flush through my room, increasing the intensity as if on a potent energy drink. Fear slightly arises as I remember the Demon-Gods of Umma Tiamat, but I'm reminded to stay in "divine presence". It's time, not to meet my maker, but the Western destroyer. As this was post Babalon (Binah) in attempting to continue to move upward on the tree of life, I was provided with imagery of winds and desolate cities, an environmental apocalypse. In moving up the tree, this would be the continued removal of all forms. Babalon (Binah) would be the "lust/love for life", where without such, you have decaying ruins leading to the formless potential (Kether). As I have found last halloween, horror movies lack significant intimidation, as fear seams to have drastically subsided in my vessel. In addition, horror movies are not scary when you cheer for the goblins, as I found when I watched "The VVItch". Therefore, the desolate scenario was not only "over-done" thanks to our media, but it was now time to stop lingering about and focusing on the main attraction. Lucifer himself did not look much different than the unmasked Lucifer as shown on the Netflix series, though, such is my monkey-mind's interpretation, and this was only a mask he has chosen for this working. Unlike the show characters intimidated by the real face of Lucifer, as a fan of oddities, at a glance of Lucifer's face my inner-child yelps with a "cool" giving the room a "Monster's Inc." (Disney/Pixar) feel. That feeling of excitement was quickly replaced with thoughts of "he's here, but I forgot to do an intent, oh shit, what do I say to him?". The desolate scenes are gone where it's just Lucifer and myself, in my little bedroom gazing eye to eye, where I'm left wondering, "what do I do?". Lucifer responds.
Feeling the intensity of his current pushing my aura, I take notice that the current isn't actually "wrathful" as I would expect, though intense. I'm reminded of "companion" as I felt the feeling of finding a long-lost friend, where to pull me out of my shock, Lucifer says to me, "how about we consecrate your bedroom temple to the Goddess?". My bedroom has been my ashram, where the walls are decorated with framed artwork of Goddess' that I hold dear to me. My bedroom hallway entry holds a large print of Mary Magdalene (Georges De La Tour), where my bedroom houses my altar as this room is my meditation space. It's where the magick happens literally, sadly not metaphorically. Beloved Kali is the centerpiece of course, where She is surrounded by Her Team by and through properly blessed (prana-pratishta) amulets. My bedroom walls are covered in artwork. The Eastern wall holds a large bamboo print of Goddess Kwan Yin, the Southern wall holds a large print of Chinnamasta and a Yab/Yum Tibetan Thangka, the Western wall holds two conflicting pictures of the veiled Goddess through Nicholas Roerich's "Mother of the World" and Daniel Mirante's "Chanting Down Babylon", the Northern wall holds the main altar surrounded by two paintings I picked up from a local artist named Jorge Luis while visiting Trinidad, Cuba of the Orishas, Osun and Yemaya. For those stuck in cultural egoic-identity, I didn't choose the Orishas, they chose me, which really is a past-life connection.
Lucifer had me cleaning my room and moving altar pieces around for better energetic flow. In addition, though I am still quite new to Nordic practices, in the past, Lys Campbell (Dynamic Intention) activated my connection to the Goddesses as found in Doreen Virtues Goddess Deck, where that deck now has a heavy loving feel when I hold it in my hands. Freya is found in that deck, and she's been quite comfortable with me, where I am continuing to realize how much she protects my space and practice. Last year, I had managed to find a 1000 A.D. Odin amulet pendant in the shape of an axe, and months later, found a Freya wooden doll that matched quite well. Nonetheless, it wasn't until this Lucifer working, that Lucifer had me create a special corner for Freya who now holds and protects my Western Grimoires. Protects me, in having those Grimoires around, I should clarify.
The feel of my home has been different from the outside world, where I can feel my energy field collapse inward when I step out of the house. In addition, I had noticed a slight increase in the feel between my bedroom and mere few feet away of the living room beginning last year or prior. But after this working, the feel of my bedroom is significantly different, vibrant, sleep can be difficult sometimes. There are times where I have been exhausted in the living room where I will move to the bedroom for a nap, but I would be unable to sleep as I would begin to feel energized and wide awake, only to have it oscillate again when I return to the living room. Nonetheless, this is not what I was expecting from Lucifer.
It could be due to the masks that I'm shown, or it could be the significant work I've done in moving away from my monkey-mind for "I Am", where I feel like I'm progressing down the tree of life as compared to other adepts who climb the tree of life. I've already had experiences of the no-mind spaciousness, sometimes described as a void, so Lucifer feels more like a companion, with Beloved Kali as my initiator and guide. Nonetheless, Lucifer has shown me why a guide is required. As I have had trouble sticking up for myself, working on the Beast has been phenomenal in helping me have the courage to get things off of my chest (high heart and throat) and do it with some power. However, as I have had many issues with my narcissistic family, particularly their incessant need that I appear and present my good Sagittarius nature for their show (fool) and egoic-inflation, all the while Kali Ma inside of me can feel all their parasitic energy as I have told my family "I'm not your prostitute", the Beast in me has only increased, where Lucifer has held me back by and through flushing those emotions out of me giving me a "care-free" attitude to properly assess my mode of conduct. He brought me back to "divine presence" in the heat of the moment. Hence, the title, Lord of the Beasts. I'm quite happy to have this essence, this liberating current, in my life to help me walk this path in harmony with a compassionate ally. For the haters, just remember, "There is None Wronging The Serpents Cult!".
Combining my love of philosophy, mythology, and the occult in pushing my abilities to work with such "permission slips" for my own Ascension. As I have discovered, true power is found in the ability to walk each other home as mirrors. This is where the inner stairwell becomes the inner sanctuary.
Virtue is the Religion of Siddhas" -Jivanmukti