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ALLEN GINSBERG  

In Between Lucidity, The Crow Caws

11/2/2018

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My heart squeals in the dreadful morning, when I hear the caw of my black angels. Keepers of the “twilight” I should rather say, as I only hear them when the blending colors of the sun dance among the cloudy skies. These creatures are quite dreadful to the public, mostly of fear, ever scavenging among both the decay and decrepit alike. Who am I to judge which is which? It’s all meant to be transmuted into the purity of ashes and memories of dust.

I’m reminded of my perkier days, a budding child probably no more than five, untainted before the world psychologically broke in … I remember crows just being naturals among my habitat. They were always there, though minding their own business and not worth noticing, like a dim lit star lost in the midnight sky. But they were still there, just as they still are, and will continue to be, so long as the scent of rotting flesh creates hunger. Every morning and every evening greeting me with an unnoticeable cacaw, cacaw, cacaw. Who knew how old I was when this child had his “Edgar Allen Poe” epiphany, or why in High School he chose to express the beauty of such an avian in a void of color paper-mache project, contrary to the expressive colors of every other classmates comparable. Rather than get lost in the poetics, the child had always been surrounded by the black avians, even if he was ignorant of their foresight portrayed through their symbolism.  

Particularly, I’m being brought back to a time right about ten years, not yet of age, and still afraid of proper “mysteries”. A child who struggled with fiendish nightmares, barley capable of adequate night’s rest. The child developed a reserve filled with panicky neutrality just to hold the outbursts and enough calm to fill the night with some sleep, but it was quite enough to create muscular tension giving the expression “stiff neck”, which blocked the constant chills running up and down one’s spine. The night was filled like some of the worst of the worst tension, a cold sweat leaving one shivering under a hot a blanket, but too frightened to peek at what may be lurking within the dark corners of the childhood room.

The night-visions plaguing the child’s sleep were filled with fiery unspeakables that would shame Dante’s poems. All seeking to grasp hold of something that was me, though somewhat intangible as appearing through a blending colors of reality that would shame a Van Gogh painting. As a frequent childhood occurrence, I’ve gotten quite comfortable of such vivid dreams, that would rush me out of daze of delusions into a further toxic day of mentally conditioning myself into another brick in the wall. But this dream reached further than the other dreams, pushing the idea of “will I ever be able to sleep again”. Such a feat, I yet wonder to this day.

The evils of the night plaguing a mind conditioned into protestant fiery hells provides the atmosphere for the child’s nightmare. Though it is not the colors of this extremely vivid imagination that I remember, but the way it made me feel, and not ever want to feel again. Like my worst nightmares arising at my weakest moment, where all failed attempts at masculine chivalry are stymied by the paralysis that utilizes cognitive dissonance in moving beyond one’s fears. I couldn’t help myself to defend myself, or any others used as temptation for me to protect, but simply linger in the fright of panic and expectation for the worst.

As I was chased by these ghouls into depths of my subconscious sadly making my delusions more vivid, my panic forced the ever-so-vivid contours of a child’s imagination into a realized lucid dream. From becoming the watcher in the dream, to being awake in the dream, the child sadly realized he would need to face his worst fear, “that I’m on my own to make the decisions”. Once guided by the fluctuations of the Van Gogh like dream state, lost to whatever whimsy and fright that is guided by the night, I’ve now come to realize that my adequate follies are now exposed to my rational logic, screaming vehemently to my reptilian-brain, “flight or fight”?

Panicking, what is one to do, with a rational logic encompassing a ten year old. A child lost in a dreamlike distance,  but lucidly and vividly experiencing each fright, each pain, each horror … as if neurologically chained to the electric chair. Pure innocence attempting to attain a curious glimpse of the shadows, suddenly having the tables turned. The panic one can only experience, when one falls under the mesmerization of eye to eye contact.

Lurid beings conjuring all sorts of sensory fright, often condemned to the hells of forced submission, an image frequently programmed into our budding neurological life-forms. Enough disgust to allow for only a moments attention, is what caught this child’s eye. In breaths of panic, the child overcame and understood the magic of lucidity by increasing itself in proportion, to match every breath with breath. A gift from the heavens assured was the child, a not a moment to lose with the arrogance of a prince not yet knighted arising. With all might, the child charged forcing his way upon an unspeakable. With might and the power of religious creeds in one’s palms, the beings of fear shall be overcome, to never again return. The moment dawning near, the light ready to burst from the shadows within one’s own shadow. But was the child ready?

Prior to the victorious thrust into the bliss of returning into emotional stability, if not harmony, the child’s arms pulsing with the muscles of a Goliath remembered his sheer stature as David. In a moments grasp vividly occurring with details of slow motion, the child’s arms went limp weak as the sword simply pounced on such corrupted entities. There was no strength to the child’s pride as if the wretched opponent seized control of the child’s central nervous systems flooding the babe’s emotional body with hospitalizing hormonal cocktails invoking the psychology of vivid blood rushing fears. All logic subdued while that child gazed within the aura of what can only be considered, the great devil himself, and yes, you too would call him “great” should this experience for you ever prevail, the child through panicky asthmatic gasps echoed in one’s cranium attempts to scream, “for the love god, someone help me”. It’s the working of the reptilian-brain. “Fight or flight”.

The lucidity of the occurrence rendered some brilliance with the forethought of needing to wake up. Hence, quite probably why I chose to mentally scream, though I definitely intended to be vocal given the panicky state of the experience. For a moments glance, I realized I was staring at my ceiling, eyes wide open. I begin to take awareness of my breath and bring myself away from having a heart attack. I remember my name as I slowly began to consciously grasp the surrounding of my childhood room. As my breath aligns, I quickly realize I need to physically readjust to allow proper blood flow. My breath immediately ceases as I realize, despite my desperate conscious attempts, my physical body simply will not move. I’m lost in my head, conscious of what I believe to be the material state, but with the inability to interact with it. I realize my predicament, especially with a calming breath serenading the child back into sleep. As memory of the prior dream returns, the child returns to the cranial screams begging mercy from the depths of one’s own imagination. Could he face such horrors again, where the return to the vegetable state of material consciousness was a devious match, requiring the child need for untimely logical assessments. What could be worse, than this poor child’s fantasy, conjured in some ungodly hour of the wailings of the night. In facing the child’s inner Necronomicon, names unnecessary for invocation when the words already echo through one’s inner temples, under the vision’s sedation into neurosis paralysis, the child chose the other reptilian option, run. 

Fleeing from the shadows that internally required exorcism, the child again glances the stalemate of the material world, again binging on the sedation of neurological paralysis unable to engage anything other than visual awareness of the childhood bedroom ceiling. Though, this time with the agenda to move, the child’s vivid internal bursts commanding movement were met with slight actual physical adjustments within the childhood bed, while the child began to realize that his neurons were still controlled by some inner beast of fear. Though eye’s wide awake, staring at the ceiling, counting what still shimmered of glow-in-the-dark stars cascading through the childhood bedroom of a child afraid of the dark attempting to move beyond the dream state, the child began to hear the beast of fear growl, not louder, but closer, much closer, as if standing directly behind. Paralyzed with fear, while gasping the freedom of the external world only a few adjustments away, the child began to feel the stench filled breath of the beast of fear, as the beasts growls sent shivers on the child’s neck already tinging with the sweat of cold. Even with logical time-consuming analysis, the only option was to surrender. To let go, and let the beast of fear devour what was left of my childhood sanity.

​How can I not continually comprehend my sanity after that night within my childhood bedroom. It’s the same reason why I comprehend why my heart softens, hearing the call of the “caw” bringing us into and out of the shadows always at twilight. How can I not decide what is in fact reality, given that both holds on either side of my cranium that night and it’s charade over my central nervous system, danced as if they forge and embed neurological memories of actual phenomenal experiences within my psyche. Let me ask you as the reader, dare I say to the public, that “I remember waking to manifestations of slightly reddish slashes drawn on the child’s neck” … or reader, do I say to the public, “such manifestation, is simply the authors continued lucid dream”. 
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    is Chaos (Yin/Tiamat)
    is Order (Yang/Apsu)

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    "truth is
    what you make it",
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    "ego inflation"
    without
    the wisdom of
    "ego death"
    or "know thyself,
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    Is Transient!

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    who reads this,
    explain "Freemasonry"
    or Get Your Shit
    Off The Fucking Planet!

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    When The Qabalah
    Is Proven True,
    What Do We Do,
    About The Jew.

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    "Benson Turner Memorial".
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    (Manifest Destiny)

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    Jewish/Mason-Lawyer
    Answer
    For Benson Turner's Brother,
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    A Law Firm,
    That Hid.
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           analytical minds who showed us an evolving-model attempting to right-societies-wrongs and maintain an
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    promises and covenants, conditions, conditionings, programming's, restrictions, contracts, signed executions, purchases, whereby are thwarted or controlled by "occulted" mechanisms, known and unknown, including "entity" manipulation, are hereby realized, thwarted, neutralized, exorcised, harmonized, managed, converted, uplifted, expanded, for my own benefit!
    -As Within,
    So Without (No Reverse) 
    (Revocations)


    Intent:
    I'm going deep within myself as I can go, from self to Self, then back to self again. Where "presence" is as important as "absence".
    -Play The Game,
    Of Life

    Courtroom Upanishads

    A. Hindu v. Zoroastrian
         (Oneness v. Dualism)
    B. Mesopotamia v. Israel
         (El: Ineffable Name)
    C. Gnostic v. Church
         (Materialist: Demiurge)
    D. Sabians v. Qabalists
         (Ishmael v. Tribes)
    E. Muslims v. Rosicrucians
         (Assassins v. Knights)
    F. Nazis v. Freemasons
         (Vikings v. Celts)
    G. Protestant v. New Age
         (Source: Freemason)
    H. East v. Psychologist
         (Meditation v. Pact)
                  -Kali / Kaula

           Amit Prakash, Esq.
                (CA: 274572)

             "Cult of Golgotha"
       -Dedicated To Socrates
    ​
                    (NOBILITY!)

    I. Brahma v. Abraham
       (Hobby Lobby)

    Seal of Solomon

    In the Name of "Wisdom" sourced from "Self", which hopefully was the true inspiration for King Solomon

    Under the occulted control mechanism, sigils, of Druidic-Freemasonry utilizing Djinn, Shedim, Angels, Demons, and other Entities

    May all such entities return to their home, or Israel, until the "Desert" religions are historically assessed with occultism, not "Blind Belief". 

    In Israel, may such issues be resolved prior to any governance or spiritual ascent, limiting psychic and occult gifts provided not by selfless "ego-death" but by selfish "pacts" and "covenants". 

    A. Ugarit: Old Testament
    B. Hyksos: Real Exodus
    C. Genesis: Mesopotamia
    D. Assyria: Zoroastrian
    E. Shasu: Ineffable Name
    F. Gnostic: Demiurge
    G. Assyria: Zoroastrian
    H. Persia: Torah
    I. Greek: Gematria
    J. Qabalah: Medieval
    K. Qayin: Occultism
    L. Solomon: Occultism
    M. Yechudim: Yoga
    O. Ahiram: Language 
    P. Language: Occult
    Q. Occult: Ruach-Enchant
    R. Zionism: Egregore 

    May the Seal of Solomon, from the Merkava Mystics to the Freemasonic "Tanit", help adepts with their own "Leviathan" before egoically calling their Sim's character and nationality "chosen". 

    Or, as the Gnostic Master stated, "Pick Up Your Own Cross".

    ​           -Exodus 34:7,
                BAAL CYCLE!

    Benson Turner
    (March 16, 2023)

    (2:55pm ... You Better Keep Record of Where You Are And What Your Doing At These Dates And Times. Sincerely, FUCK YOU!) (Seriously, make the world a better place by beating the shit out of your asshole children, instead of raising them to be Kike-Krackers in the world!)

    MAY EVER FREEMASON WHO CAN'T ANSWER FOR "BENSON TURNER" GET A BULLET-BETWEEN THEIR EYES IN FRONT OF THEIR CHILDREN SO THEY KNOW NOT TO GROW UP A SELFISH PIECE OF SHIT.
    -Ded. To White Mike

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    (Pharaoh: Moses)

    Set-Apophis
    (Egypt-Hyksos)

    v. 

    Book of the Dead
    (10 Commandments)

    -The Ineffable Name,
    Ask A Freemason?
    ​
    (Ark of the Covenant)
    (Book of Revelations)

    ---

    -Dedicated to Yochai
    (Binah - Yesod)

    -Dedicated to J. Parsons
    (Ave Babalon!)

    -Dedicated to Onita T.
    (Marcellus and Hannah!)

    -Dedicated to Truth
    ​(Can't Believe My Eyes)

    Eugenics

    For at least 2500 years of Western history, white people can never be trusted. That includes "medicine" including the racial agendas behind "vaccines", as historically witnessed, but continuously ignored. 

    Such continues, from religious indoctrination, propaganda education, social engineering, entertainment NLP, "spiritual" businesses, and of course the unexplained Mk Ultra and Tesla's HAARP with Cabalists Rituals at Bohemian Grove. 
    (Ex.: Wonder Woman)

    As such, for proper Eugenics sans racial or religious superiority, decisions regarding the next seven generations needs not only to be assessed, but needs to be put on trial for proper compensation of damages, and punitive damages to cease such conduct disguised and supported as "religious".

    Therefore, all hidden "Eugenic" agendas, should be thwarted towards "Disclosures".

    a. JUDAISM
    b. Christianity
    c. Islam
    d. FREEMASONRY

    Children:
    If you cannot answer for the many discrepancies and hierarchal enslavement that has historically plagued humanity in these resource conquistador "pact" religions that has sought selfish "heavens" over diligently caring for "nature", remember on an overpopulated planet, your parents should have been neutered. 

    Any occultism used towards "Eugenics" may first start with the above mentioned-groups, until they learn how to "wipe their ass", for the sake of humanity's future.

    May every Holocaust Museum also discuss Manifest Destiny. From "Indian Reservations" to "Concentration Camps", those who win the war, write the history books, as evidenced by the
    ​Old Testament.

    True Religion:
    0. Empty/Ex-Nihilo
    1. Energy/Sound
    2. Polarity/Wisdom
    3. Thoughts/Formation
    4. Judgment/Discern
    5. Archetypes/Evolution
    6. Agendas/Will
    7. Mind/Intelligence
    8. Analysis/Inspiration
    9. Elements/Manifest
    10. What'sMy/MFName?

    Name:
    IHVH's greatest "fear",
    is an "accuser".

    -Amit Prakash, Esq.

    -Covenant With goD,
    Reverse White Privilege

    MANDALAY BAY:

                   Michael and
       Onita Turner Wedding.
      (Interracial Marriage Ad)

    1. May the whole world know what a Casino "interest rate" wedding looks like.

    2. May the whole world know what its like to have a Jew in the Family.

    3. May the whole world see the white privilege network that is freemasonry.

    4. May the whole world see what an "elopement" looks like, then running back to the brown parents to raise the babies, and treating them like how a racial stereotypical Jew would.

    5. May the whole world see what "disloyal" friends, family members, colleagues look like. Where are you, when these assholes are in court, or need food, as they continue to suckle others in a narcissitic fashion.

    6. May the whole world finally assess the "sacredness" or lack thereof, of a "marriage" which is essentially a generational estate plan for builders.

    7. May the whole world finally see the truth of the cultish attitudes and propaganda of culture, presenting itself as nationalist ideations or egoic conditioned control mechanism, of superiority complexities establishing themselves a nation under "chosen" pretexts. 

                              --- 

    a. May Your Sons Grow Up To Be Like "White Mike"

    b. May Your Daughters Grow Up To "Pull A Nitu"

    c. May Their Children Bribe You Into Complacency

    ​d. And, May Your Guests Sleep With The Fishes

    Illuminati

    "Enlil/Enki"
    "Shalim/Shahar"
    "El/Baal: Ishtar"
    -Shasu of Yahu,
    Jurisdiction
    (Genesis 11:4)

    -Dedicated to ...
    ​
    (Idolatry _ !)

    Brought to you by:
    Hyksos : Temple of Set

    ​
    Exodus:
    ​Blessing To Some,
    Curse to Others

    -Father Time,
    ​Judgment Day

    Turner Family

    Benson Turner's
    Favorite Jinn
    (Corwin Hargrove):
    (2:49pm: 2-12-23)


    Sour Love/Sex
    -Misalqar
    -Shadhan
    -Rayah

    Sex Dysfunction
    -Mazahim
    -Mhaqal
    -Khyth'

    Disgust Sex
    -al-Haym
    -Khatufah
    -Kywan

    They come with
    your energy cords,
    under
    "El" and the "Name",
    they release
    with picturing you
    and using mental symbols.
    Once again,
    as stated yesterday,
    GET OFF THE DICK!
    -Hell,
    Having You As Family!

    (The Same Applies With The Shemhamephorash)

    ISRAEL
    Why Did You Put The Occulted Seal of Solomon on Your Flag?
    ​-Djinn

    2-13-23
    ONCE AGAIN ASSHOLE
    YOU'RE INTENTIONALLY CURSING THE PENIS, SENDING SEX CURSES, KEEP IT UP, LET IT BUILD, AND I'LL HUNT YOUR FAMILY!


    Djinn
    It's in my water, hence, my digestive, hence, my urethra.
    -Does Your Family One,

    A Jew?
    (Covenant: Rape Others)


    Once Again, You Won't Get Off the Dick, Where You Curse The Songs On My Blog, As Well As The Posts. They Are All Felt, As Your Curses Give Me A Tight Feeling, And I Can Hear The Song That You Curse, Where Curser Is Automatically Donated.
    -Lingam Baetylus
    (Turner Favorite)

    Women and Children First, While Their Bitch Men Watch 
    ​Bitch: Ben/Mike Turner


    8:07pm
    I Can't Sit At My Desk, Without The Highly Uncomfortable feeling of "Ben Turner" cording me, like a "Mind Reader". If this is the future of humanity, it becomes necessary to teach and learn how to use death magick. On the "Ben Turner's" of the world, one shouldn't hesitate to kill. You and yours, never deserved an ounce of kindness. May you and yours, be returned all similar favors in hell.
    -Help Humanity,
    Curb Stomp Kike Mike

    Synagogue:
    (Greek Word)
    If you ever wonder
    why synagogues get shot up, like I did near my college during those years, just ask BENSON TURNER.
    -Jew-Freemason,
    If Question, Just Ask?

    -May Your Wife Get RAPED For All Eternity In Hell, While You Watch Salivating Wearing Your Son's Pink Underwear
    (While Your Son's Hip Hop Albums Are Playing)

    Entities

    Benson Turner 
    There are entities other than Jinn in my body, sent post Dec. 2021, after you receiving my emails. They all have your energy cords on them.

    Many of them want me to leave my home, so I can't work, or of course, study your culture. You don't want me to speak the truth on Jews and Freemasons.

    Many are removed using Jewish amulets, and lettering, supported by the Phoenician "El".

    Obvious you won't stop cursing, and you will look for whatever you can, 
    as Freemason have rooted themselves in every occult tradition.

    Moreover, like your son Kike Mike taught, the Jew just does the finances, not the dirty work, they hide behind another demographic like the Italians for that.
    In other words, like your son who ran like a bitch, I can't expect you to be,
    "A Man". 


    -So?,
    Till Death Shall We?

    ​(I Need Training To Deal With Others Like Yourself.)

    Yes death.
    It's becoming
    a Way of Life.
    It's a killing season
    and the sun shines bright.
    -May You Rest in Shit, 
    Tzoah Rotachat

    Benson Turner

    If I keep feeling
    your disgusting
    Jew Energy Cords,
    with attached entities

    ... I might as well
    name my blog 
    "THE GOOD JEW"
    provided how much
    I'm learning about your shit cult.
    -Fuck Your goD!

    (If I don't get better,
    ​I will
    slice you son's throat
    .
    Make the world
    ​a better place! FYI, you and yours absolutely deserve it.)

    ​Benson Turner, I know it is you, and your curses have respond and molded to these messages.

    (All Masonic Texts,
    Have Swastikas Over the "G" On Them)

    Tubal Cain is a Mentor
    -Telepathy

    Confessional Booth:
    1. Lawyer
    2. Police Report
    ​(Still Waiting)

    Tubal Cain

    Since making the above "Tubal Cain" comment
    (2-9-23), it has gotten significantly quieter, as expected, as I have done before. More importantly, I think I have "masonic" help, as if someone is pulling Benson Turner off of me, his gross old man energy cords. For that, I thank you and hope I can receive more assistance and hopefully training. Nonetheless, without the curses limiting me, I'm basically a child attempting to play "blacksmith" while Tubal Cain himself smokes up my visionary state enveloping my bedroom completely. I guess that's what happens when a bhakti yoga type practices ceremonial magick.
    -Apologies To  The Jews and Freemasons,
    Read Between The Lines And Help The Gentile

    (2-13-23):
    Many Freemasons are still corded with me, felt, and heard, though intelligently.
    Get "Ben Turner" out of my life, and get every "Freemasons" out of my life! I've seen many, especially in Dec. 2021.

    Ineffable Name

    Still attempting to harness the "power" behind the Phoenician script as well as Semitic thought looking at Egyptian script, to be later transcribed in the Hebrew Torah offering a gematria code assisting trance state gnosis of such "powers" found harnessed while under the theta-brainwave, with "powers" of ruler of the universe akin to owner of the "tablet of destiny" as found with the Mesopotamian Enlil, also known as "El" of the Elohim and the AngELs, only to be later classified as planetary Archonic under the Gnostic Christian tradition presenting us with the roots of the Qabalist tradition where such Archons easily fit the Sephirot in ascending the "Tree of Life".
    ​-Demiurge,
    ​Inception

    Constitutional

    For everyone who has cursed me since
    Dec. 2021, particularly the families of
    Benson Turner and Michael Turner,
    YOU BELONG IN A GAS CHAMBER!

    The curses significantly decreased,
    and the entity attachments
    significantly fled
    after the above
    "Tubal Cain" comment of (2-10-23).
    Curses are real,
    as the solution has been curse reversal,
    ​not medical advice. 


    Forgiveness is futile,
    ​for the innocent.
    The guilty breed.

    Though evidence of
    Nazi Occultism is speculative to
    somewhat circumstantial as the case with
    secret societies,
    I've taken note that
    Nazi Coins have been protective against
    said curses.

    If the "Turners" have cursed my family, I will return the same. My family should have been significantly healthier,
    ​I should have been significantly healthier, but for the near lifelong curse that is "White Mike".

    (11:35am) Saying
    the word "Freemason"
    is now removing
    "Ben Turner"
    corded energies,
    sitting on my chair, with Ruach-Enchantments in old man grumbling saying, "Racist, Racist, Racist". Now get rid of the "energetic needles", "parasites", and Djinn. (11:50am) There are two things on the sides of my head, above the temples, entities I don't know and can't remove. (11:56am)
    ​I think this one is tied with relatives, as I saw another one also being "racist". (12:00am) That's good. I think I need to do my own processing now, but feeling better than yesterday, and probably the best since 2021.
    Can you keep
    "Old Man" Turner away,
    his cords are "Creepy". (12:09am) He put something back in and I heard "he fucked us over". In addition,
    GET OFF THE DICK! (12:40: Keep it that way)
    List:
    Internet, Cell Phone, Clothes, Food (lower gut), Cabinets, Light Bulbs, Toilet, Pipes, Garbage Disposal, Trash, Carpet, Air Conditioner, TV, Computer, Stereo, Stuffed Animals, Religious Items, Gemstones, Documents, Books, Pens, Chairs, Bed, Cushions, Sheets, Blankets, Pillows, Water Tank, Fridge, Drums (Decor), DVDs, Masonic Memorabilia (2:13pm) After the below "Amen-Messe" post, I feel so damn good. Thank you! (2:26pm) Psalm 23:4! Thank you! (2:31pm) Dense tension on top of head, gut cords "Turner". (2:36pm) Gut cords, old man saying "Racist, Racist, Racist". (4:22pm) Blog posts, especially Lingam Baetylus you sick fuck, Turner and "Friend"! (4:24pm) Immediate release, fucking asshole! (4:29pm) It's getting quieter, I shouldn't have to hear any of you fucking clowns, especially since Dec. 2021. (4:32pm) Hear, "bullshit everybody, comeback in there". Fuck you! Get your disease out of my stomach, throat, and head. "Dick Dick Dick", right you disgusting fuck! (5:27pm) GET OFF THE FUCKING DICK! (Jinn: Corwin Hargrove)
    -Get Off The Dick
    (9:55pm)
    BENSON TURNER.. WHY RESPECT SENIOR CITIZENS WHEN THEY ARE A PREJUDICIAL GENERATION! (Overpopulation) 
    ​(10:01pm: female)
    (10:03: family members)
    (10:08: Turner: I can feel you every time, you're disgusting. I can also feel it removed, so I'm not insane.)

    -Thank You,
    To The Remover
    (Who Are You?)

    Benson Turner:
    Do the world a favor, instead of attacking me,
    chop your sons dick off!
    If the curses, don't stop, I will do it myself, put his disgusting dick in a blender, and feed it to your shitbrained wife. Shitbrained because she is a "Jew-Freemason".
    -We All Know Why,
    ​Slice His Throat, Publicly!
    (Kike Mentor - Kike Mike)

    Onita "Abortion" Turner:
     "I am concerned for the safety of my husband, myself, my children, and my father-in-law. I am in fear of our lives. His emails today are direct threat. I will not provide an address to him"
    -Jan 26, 2023

    (You're in fear of a lawsuit. Or else, you would have filed a police report.)
    (WHERE'S YOUR SHIT HUSBAND .... HE'S THE ONE WITH THE SHOTGUN!)
    Note:
    ​Bitch Still Can't Answer Any Questions,
    ​after One Year!


    Onita "Jew" Turner:
    We all know what an "ugly ass Jew" is because of your husband. We all know the selfish arrogant lying piece of shit, that he has always been. There have plenty of emails all of last year attesting to that fact, for which your whole shit and racist family failed to respond. 

    Let me ask you, provided the definitions of "Jew" that have been provided to us throughout the years by your husband, you know when he says "that's my people". WHY DID YOU COME BACK TO THE FAMILY! Was it to rape us of our resources, our kindness, while you and yours acted like a "Jew"?
    -2-10-23

    2-11-23 (9:00pm)
    Still can't sit at my work desk without "Ben Turner" energy cords trying to enter, and control, with old man shit residue. Fuck you and fuck your useless life and fuck your pollution generation! Because of your generation and it's religion and it's kracker-kike cult, our world is shit.
    My life will only improve, when your dead, right?
    I dare the Turner family to prove Hitler wrong?
    The only way to trust any one of you, is to use the "Ineffable Name".
    Thank you to the few Jews teaching others. Fuck a freemason for their disinformation campaigns. I can't even trust Carl Jung anymore, meaning,
    Western Psychology.
    -Fuck Your Life,
    Fuck Your Bloodlines
    (Fuck Your Family Crest)

    -Qabalist, Esq.,
    Fuck the Constitution

    Freemason:
    Have A Question,

    Ask A Freemason,
    And Then Watch How They Run Like A Bitch!

    -Michael Turner, 
    Masculine Maturity

    Treason

    Please "Freemasons"
    get your
    egregore-connected
    and empowered
    "Ben Turner"
    OFF OF MY DICK!
    ​(2-11-23)

    Seriously,
    the only thing worse
    than over 2500yrs of
    Old Testament lies
    to hide "Gnosticism",
    are those that
    protect those lies
    .
    I can see why
    the Knights Templar
    were given
    ​the death penalty.
    I can see why the "Ineffable Name"
    was kept hidden, particularly by
    Builders typically bound in-want of Freedom.
    -Coronation Chair,
    Jacob's Ladder

    Oath

    Dedicated to the homies in service,
    who've told me
    stories of backlash
    from fellow countrymen after
    defending liberty. 
    Just another day being
    a janitor I suppose.
    -Michael Clayton,
    I'm Not A Miracle Worker

    Amen-Messe

    "Thou Shall Not Kill"
    -Exodus 20:13

    "Thou Shall Not Suffer A Witch To Live"
    -Exodus 22:18

    Commandments:
    1. When the
    Gentile In-Laws
    are Raising Your Kids, Don't Act Like A Jew!
    -Turner Wedding,
    Exodus 34:7

    -Shekinah,
    Daniel 12:3
    ​

    Shasu of ARYA_!
     -Primal Self
    (Cult of Golgotha)

    Qliphothic Explorer

    This One Goes To
    "Eleven".
    -Mack 10, Foe Life

    Ravana Mentors:

    George Bush: 
    -Skull and Bones

    Dick Cheney:
    -Freemasonry

    Master P:
    -No Limit

    Suge Knight:
    ​-Death Row

    ​
    (Kala Maha / Indrajaal)
    -Freedom!,
    Depths of the Sea!

    Tablet of Destiny

    "God Hates Us All"
    -Ahriman,
    Ark of the Covenant
    (Graze the Skin)

    Holocaust

    Dedicated To
    "Benson Turner"
    (11:00pm 2-12-23)

    Old Testament

    v. 

    Operation Paperclip

    -Standard of Living,
    History, Who To Thank?
    (Freemason or Thule)

    Negotiation:
    With more advanced technology,
    despite the war machine, agreement wise,
    who really won?
    -Confidentiality,
    Agreements

    Freemason
    Turner,
    is 33 Degrees
    "Ringling Brothers"
    or
    "Medieval Occultism"?
    -Thule,
    Gas Chamber? 

    Israel 

    Benson Turner,
    since doing intensive "Jewish" studies since your curses began
    Dec. 2021
    ,
    I'm still looking for what is "holy" about what
    50% of the population calls the "holy land"
    . Particularly, since
    Jesus is in Jewish Hell, Tzoah Rotachat,
    such makes one
    consider was
    "Pagan" King Solomon actually "wise",
    and what is the agenda behind the "Commandments"?
    -Seriously,
    What Is "Holy"?

    Garden of Eden:
    Dilmun: Enlil "El"
    Livestock: Adam
    Sheol: Reincarnation
    Covenant: Build
    Messiah: Return
    ​-The Fourth Kind


    -2-13-23
    (6:50am)
    (6:55am)
    Benson Turner Energy Cords of Course
    -Seriously, every time you cord, you really want me to think and write about the Jew, especially your ugly ass family, that mine was forced to care for and raise.
    -Then again, you told your hell-bound wife that you would never hit your kids, because you're afraid of what your hands can do.
    -In other words, you're a selfish abusive-fuck who doesn't give a fuck about anyone but himself. 
    -Benson Turner, are you capable of giving anyone one reason why you and you family don't belong in hell, based on what my family has witnessed with yours? What about Freemasons and Jews, provided the limited "Honesty", where "The Good Samaritan" should have a modern twist of
    "The Honest Jew" such as your son, Kike Mike.
    -May your wife and children suffer for your bullshit, like your god biblically covenanted.

    -Exodus 34:7

    Anti-Defamation League

    Can there ever be
    such a thing,
    ​as an "honest" Jew.
    -Canaan,
    Ugarit
    ​(Egyptian Propaganda)


    After studying
    Semitic culture,
    I can see why Jesus was the "Savior" as in
    anti-demiurge of the "Ineffable Name".

    I feel like I have "processed" Christian Slavery, in seeing Christ as a Slave Master goD. Where Jesus has shown to be the perfect friend, even to the publicans and sinners. 

    -Messianic Era,  
    Tzoah Rotachat
    ​(Balaam)

    Dedicated To The Turners
    -Kike Mentoring!

    1. Benson Turner Can Eat A Big Fat Dick!
    2. Michael Turner Can Eat A Big Fat Dick!
    3. Flynn Turner Can Eat A Big Fat Dick!
    4. Benson "Wife" Turner Can Eat A Big Fat Dick!
    5. Turner Siblings Can Eat A Big Fat Dick!
    6. Turner Lawyers Can Eat A BIG FAT Dick!
    7. Wedding Guests Can Eat A Big Fat Dick!
    8. Onita Turner Can Eat ... Michael Turner's Dick?
    9. Israel Can Eat Palestine's ... ?

    ("The Holy Land")

    ​-Ammit
    ​
    (You Better Hope I Never See Your Fucking Face. Thank You For Teaching The Value and Beauty of HATE_!)

    Turner Marriage

    To everyone who went to this casino-covenant wedding,
    may your children grow up to be like the "Turners".
    Thank you for teaching me disloyalty, all of
    NIKIL NARAYAN'S ASSHOLE FRIENDS 
     THAT MY PARENTS FED FOR MOST OF THEIR LIVES.
    FUCK THE TOWNHOUSE! 

    Marcell Turner:
    -May you grow up to treat women like your father, before he dated your mother
    -May you be a lying chauvinistic "faux news" gluttonous pig, who is always just full of shit, like your father, and his father
    -May you be a completely arrogant narcissist fuck, completely ignorant in the world but with the vanity plate that states "scientist". 
    -May you be a pious Jew like "Abel", but with Masculine Maturity like "Caine", As You Evade "Karma" For "Scapegoats", Which Explains "White Supremacy" And Hence The Reason For Your Success,
    WHITE PRIVILEGE!
    -May you not speak at your father's funeral. Actually, may you not speak at your grandfather's funeral of the family who raised you when your mother ran back home, who did their best to better your standard of living despite your arrogant attitude, like Master Retard Nikil Narayan who ran a record company for decades without any contracts or legal protection. Just ask his lawyer White Mike, your dipshit father, why he didn't speak at his father's funeral.

    Hannah Turner:
    -May you grow up to date men like your father, before he dated your mother
    -May you grow up to treat your mother, the same post pregnancy
    -May you grow up to educate yourself with a Doctorate degree, but marry out of the "Townhouse" Brothel.
    -May you grow up to betray the people who tell you the truth, for a lying glutenous pig, who completely fucks over your family.
    -May you have to serve and clean up, and go to court hearings for the men, in the "townhouse" brothel, only to have those men betray you.
    -May you grow up to marry a "mature man", like a Jew-Freemason, where you never have to make a decision for yourself again.

    Michael Turner:
    -May You Pull A "Nik" With Your Shotgun, Particularly Since You Ran Like Bitch When Asked About Freemasonry! 
    -Find me one ounce of truth to your life, or give us a reason why your sick-ass should be breeding?
    -Atil stated he recommended you because you "matured", in other words, your Kike-Ass, "changed". Where still waiting to hear what he meant, as it is not witnessed.
    -Don't ever ask again, why the world hates the Jew.
    -On an overpopulated planet, why should your ass breed, like those before you?

    33 Degrees: 
    May your children elope, then come back
    in desperate need
    to help raise the children,
    ​then treat the family who raises your kids,
    LIKE A FUCKING JEW!

    Cursers [Sic]

    For every unwanted
    energy cord,
    I have a new soul
    to donate
    to the astral realms.
    -Gatekeepers,
    ​And So It Is Done
    (Diktator)

    (2-11-23)
    I wish I made this comment sooner, provided I actually had some peace finally, hinting towards the truth of "Ben Turner" Curses.
    Anyone who works with Lucifer, has the Goetia already within them. Though, Lucifer has many masks and friends. It would be interesting to know what your life looks like future wise, let alone what your afterlife holds.
    -Truth,
    Of The Old Testament?
    (Curse Reverse History)

    Circumcision 

    For
    ​every "Semitic" curse sent to a "Gentile",
    may the new covenant with "El"
    be to chop your child's dick-off. 
    How else will humanity stop the "Ben Turner's" of the world, in an overpopulated dilemma?

    A. Jew (Abel):
    ​Thou Shalt Not Suffer A Witch To Live

    or
    ​
    B. Freemason (Cain): Thou Shalt Not Kill

    To include women, to avoid sexism, may your tits be chopped off, so you don't nurture gluttonous pigs. It would be "tragic" if one's child were to become a "white mike".

    -Dedicated to the
    ​Turner Family Shield,

    May You Bless All Of Israel

    Qabalism

    Occult 
    -For the Mind
    (Ineffable Name)(Mantra)
    (Sefiroth)(Mind Psyche)
    (Angels)(Power)(Will)
    (Ain Soph Aur) (No Mind)
    (Hekhalot) (Negation)
    (El Elyon: "Presence")
    ​-Salvation (God Other)
    (Creator: Demiurge)
    (Result: Israel)


    Enlightenment
    -Drop the Mind
    (Negation)(No Mind)
    (El Elyon: "Presence")
    (Yoga: "Integrated")

    Tantra
    -For the Mind (No Mind)
    (Bija)(Mantra)
    (Sound)(Shakti-Power)
    (Deities)(Ascent)
    (Science: Samkhya)
    -Liberator (God Self)
    (Destroyer: Truth)
    (Result: Samsara)

    White Supremacy

    1. White People
    With Religion
    (Mind Control)
    -Propaganda / Politics

    2. White People
    With Guns
    (Body Control)
    -Robbery / Colonialism

    3.White People
    With Occult Abilities (Soul Control)
    -Colonial / Builders

    Spirituality

    "These days,
    you gotta be strapped.
    I'm already knowin'
    ain't nobody
    got my back.
    These days,
    you gotta be down
    Who said it was easy claimin'
    Dogg Pound?
    -Before I Let Go,
    This One Goes To "Eleven"​
    ​
    (Unforgiven: "Samsara")

    Aesthetics

    Logic:
    It is a "blessing" to be "ugly". 

    Emotion:
    It is a "curse" to be
    ​"ugly".

    -La Dvlce Vita,
    To Your Brethren In The Dark
    ​(Dedicated To the Ugly)

    Crooked Masculine
    ​
    -Worthless One,
    Divinity

    ​
    Elizabeth Lund:
    (House of Idems)
    Would it have been better if you were "raped"
    (January 12, 2023)
    causing you to reflect, which would have finally changed the direction of your "white privilege" teachings?

    Cultural Appropriation:
    Namaste Elizabeth Lund, provided how much
    you have "raped" from other spiritual teachers, especially
    of those of color,
    if someone put a gun
    to your head
    and took everything
    you own,
    would it be justified
    ,
    in a world
    as evidenced by
    your "work product" as "white privilege"?
    -Hierarchy,
    Pyramid Schemes

    Dedication:
    I'm not good enough,
    to be loved.
    But I'm good enough,
    to be killed.
    -Thank You E.Lund.

    Divine Feminine

    "...when bitches get
    scandlous,

    they pull a voodoo,

    what you, gonna do,

    you really, don't, know,

    so I'd, advise, you

    not,

    to,

    trust,

    that,

    ho.

    -Silly of me,

    to fall in love with a
    ​bitch."


    (Eggun Stick)
    ​(Temple of Set)

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