In my past meditative experiences, especially when I was going through the Gnostic texts, including the Pistis Sophia, as well as other texts relating to Mary Magdalene, I would feel significant heartbreak. Whether it was placing myself in the shoes of Mary Magdalene and witnessing the crucifixion of her beloved, or actually feeling myself going through Christ's ordeal from being betrayed by fellow followers, to the spear of destiny intruding my figure, such meditations revealed itself with incredible intensity leaving me tearfully heartbroken.
Just recently, I had the ability to revisit this experience through the masterful meditative energy work of Panache Desai, through one of his webinars associated with Jesus. Though the intensity was nowhere near my prior experience in terms of anguish, most likely because I had already been through that, but it was more revealing in a heart opening sense. While Panache instructs the meditator in a particular journey, the body accepts the energy flow, but the mind takes you to another vision.
From being the divine child accepting the gifts of the magi, as well as nourishment from the divine Mother, to being nailed to the cross with utter humiliation being naked and degraded before all, Jesus represents the ultimate sacrifice of his self for the greater good. All of which I felt in my journey into Christ Consciousness under the "spell" of Panache, which I feel now is the ability to unconditionally love.
As I have articulated prior, and more so established through this meditative experience, Jesus did not become Christ by being nailed to the cross, but what happened to him internally when such occurred. He looked out towards his people, the individuals he so wished to bring the blessings of heaven, those who were mocking him and ready to do the worst to him, Jesus simply stated, "Father forgive them for they know not what they do". (Luke 23:34) The ultimate act of love, the ability to forgive the worst of them, Jesus asked the Ultimate to not let anyone bear the karma of their actions towards him, with no element of revenge or spite. Hence, Jesus showed us the ability to love despite our worst circumstances, and towards those who treat us the worst.
The ability to unconditionally love despite circumstances is what Tibetan Buddhists practice to attain the state of "rainbow light body", a magical technique confirmed by the Catholic Church. However, given that circumstances can be difficult to love, most of such monks take to a cave or another place of seclusion in order to make every thought, every emotion, that of compassionate love. In addition, in order to ignite the "merkaba" of the Egyptian tradition, such intensity of love is required and can be felt and further nourished by the rotation of the star tetrahedron. Overall, to attain the status of Christ, Buddha, or Pharaoh (a certain level of spiritual elevation was required to be Pharaoh), one needs to acquire the ability to unconditionally love all that is.
No doubt, if you're getting mocked, spit on, whipped, and nailed onto a cross for everyone to see, while all the time remaining with an open heart, you've attained a level of conscious mastery, Christ Consciousness. Therefore, I feel that the power of Christ is not the actual act of being crucified, but it is how he responded to his circumstances. With unconditional forgiveness and unconditional love.
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"It cannot be too highly emphasized that the mystic swims in the same waters in which the psychotic drowns."
-James Wasserman, The Mystery Traditions